.:Everlasting Memories:.

.:2011:.

2011-12-31T07:39:00.002+08:00

exactly 1 day before a brand new year, 2012.. i never imagined that time would fly so fast.

honestly speaking, 2012, you're coming to early..

want to know why?

just cut the story short (hopefully), 2011 has been the most exciting, the most fulfilling, the most wonderful year for me so far..

i will never get bored saying He's been good to me..! although until now (until this hour, minute and second) i've done so many mistakes, so many sins, so many unpleasant things, He never leaves me even a single millisecond. :)

a year of PROMOTION & MULTIPLICATION.. yeap, that's our theme of the year 2011..

but you have not been promoted in your job, what, until now.."*singlish tone
any thing that has been multiplied in your place? still 1 handphone, 1 computer.. are your sure you're multiplied?

whenever this 'promotion and multiplication' word comes across, some people will point out and refer only to financial, career, materials or other physical things.

at first, yes, i did think of those things only.

wow, hmm.. my savings would be doubled.. then, buy properties.. then, secure a job & get promotion within a year.. then shake leg (santai-red)....

nothing wrong with that thoughts anyway.. but i was only focusing on material, career and dime (mcD), nothing else.. when actually i end up getting more than just this mcD.. it's 'A Lesson of Life'.

hah? chim lha you.. so cliche.. 'a lesson of life'..

i believe in each year we've been through, we always learn something new. apparently, this year i learn a lot of basic things in life that i never valued before. life is an endless lesson anyway. :)

firstly, JOB. let me disclose a bit about what happened to my career to date. once graduated from NTU (cihuy! lulus!), i joined T.Y.Lin, a m&e (mechanical & electrical) consulting firm in construction industry. well, fyi, my background study is more to product/industrial design and at that time i knew only 'solidworks' to design 3d things (which i never use at all until now for my work). it's totally a different thing, product design and m&e design.. it was a tough process at the beginning and even until now.. i was so stretched and stressed out at that time.

curses, complaints, grumbles, panics.. if you combine them together, trust me, they taste more bitter than wolfberries! (sorry, i don't like wolfberry at all! it gives me a nightmare! haha..) apart from my sickness, stress played a part when i decided to quit my company.

i hate losing..
i hate rejection..
i hate making mistakes..
i hate being scolded..

but i couldn't do anything at that time.. i just never felt so much beaten like that before.. i lost my confidence so much to almost nothing and it even became worse when arthritis attacked me.. let me ask you, have you ever been so clueless like 'dunno what to do in life'? without a proper little footstep and a secure job, what else could i think at that time? :(

God is good! this year i managed to secure back my position in T.Y. Lin.. very nice colleagues, supporting brothers in Christ (you know who you are!), well paid.. well, still at high level stress until now.. a lot of projects to handle and i don't know which project i should focus on, but He really favors me. i just feel more peace in the office. yes, i know i'm stressed out but He changes the way i look things.. through loss, mistakes, rejection, scolding, i just swallow them to grow stronger.. i just feel different, slowly gaining my confidence back to even higher level. :)

secondly, Family & TLG (The Last Generation). i don't know how to describe this.. they are all my family.. it's never a coincidence Anton brought me to Sunday YRC (our TLG service) back in July 2004.. i learn learn learn a lot lot lot of things things and things. i'm shaped and molded each days.. from kuper & cupu person to at-least-less-kuper-&-cupu-one. i will never forget this family.. i will never forget each day i spent for MUSICAL "MENCARI PUTRI" this year.. damn, it's way too amazing! i really thank God i can be part of musical team.. this team taught me not to always work work and work.. but receive receive receive, care care care and listen listen listen..and this entire musical was really His 101% work that it has touched a lot of hearts in acjc. :)

this love, family & friendship simply overcome whatever problems that i'm facing. it's never a waste of time being with TLG.. TLG for GOD!

my 'real' family is the best blessing i've ever had so far! i have the greatest dad, mum, bro & sis in this world! thanks for everything! sorry that i can never be a good son and brother because you are all always way ahead of me, being fantastic parents and bro-sis.. :)

last but not least, the greatest miracle i've ever had so far, HEALTH. i will never get tired of telling this story. i'm fully HEALED!!!

when all doctors that i met said the same thing (that i would never recover without lifetime medication, would never play soccer anymore, would never eat durian anymore and many else..), God turned every of those verdicts into dust and nothing!!

i would just want to visit every doctor that i met and say,

hey, there is always HOPE and MIRACLE because there is always GOD!
and... never say 'would never anymore'!

so it all now becomes

i recover without lifetime medication, i play soccer, i eat durian and many else.. :))

still remember clearly when i attended the first YRC back in jan 2011. everyone took a bookmark in which our Daddy writes a specific message to each of us for this year 2011. guess what i got?

Deuteronomy 7:15
"The LORD will keep you free from every disease. He will not inflict on you the horrible diseases.........."

how fantastic our Daddy is.. really really thank You.. :)

i know that i'm now slowly molded into a better one, so are you..

and this is my promotion and multiplication and i will not want to trade it off with anything else! :)

i believe all of you also have promotion and multiplication in your own life. think positive, there is always something you can be thankful of. :))

-a-

.:F&F:.

2011-03-26T08:41:00.001+08:00

Pengen share dikit nich.. Gua belajar ini dari seorang temen yg udah gua anggap kyk keluarga gua sendiri.

Fyi, salah satu consideration gua balik kerja di tempat kerja lama gua itu : colleagues. Di tempat gua skrg gua punya banyak colleague2 yg supportive. Moreover, gua punya sodara2 seiman yg menguatkan di sana. Ini penting buat gua mengingat banyak bener org2 yg stress n ujung2nya maki2, complain2 ga jelas, cursing, & all negativity n somehow kalo kita-nya ga kuat kita bakal ikut2an kyk gt. I have a small family there yg bs share kebaikannya Tuhan and gua bener2 dikuatin melalui sharing2 mereka. Really thx God for them. :)

So, one day, baru aja minggu lalu, ada 1 colleague gua sebut aja, JA, ngobrol2 ama gua pas lg makan. Kita ngomongin mostly about life dan ujung2nya balik ke pengalaman gua kmrn ini yg sakit kaki (Rheumatoid Arthritis). Di sana gua diingetin lg pentingnya iman & doa.. bahasa inggrisnye: the importance of faith & prayer.

Ketika gua sakit dulu, gua pernah ada 1 period di mana gua bener2 ga bs jalan.. Pas itu, sebagai manusia biasa, gua punya worry: "Will I ever walk again?". Frankly speaking, I questioned God a lot lot lot. "Why must it be me?" itu pertanyaan paling gede gua ke Tuhan krn itu conclude semua unek2 & kekeselan gua.

It's not that I blamed God krn Tuhan itu ga pernah skalipun pengen kita sakit (bahkan sakit flu ato boker2 skalipun) atopun celaka. Tapi at that time my emotion played the biggest role in my drama life krn sebenernya "worry" itu udah nutupin pandangan gua ke kebesarannya Tuhan.

Anyway, to the point, JA share ke gua ttg ini:

F&F.

Family & Faith.

"Hah? Maksudnya, Dri? Apa hubungannya Family & Faith?"

Yok, kita liat dikit ke Bible ke bagian Luke 5.

Ada 1 bagian dr Luke 5 di mana Yesus wkt itu lg ngajar di sebuah rumah n org2 farisi & doktor sesek2an di rumah itu ampe kyk jd sauna kali y, apalagi dulu kaga ada yg namanye AC.... wong kipas angin aje ga ada.. Bayangin, itu rumah tetep penuh. Trus ada 1 org lumpuh bebaringan di tempat tidur n temen2nya bingung nich gmn cara masukkin dia ke rumah yg ude penuh kyk gt.

Trus temen2nya dgn pinternya (mgkn abis baca "Detektif Conan" kali y.. hehe..) bawa dia ke atap rumah & turunin dia dr atap rumah. Sampe d tuch org lumpuh di dalem rumah.. trus di Luke 5:20 ada tertulis: "When Jesus saw their faith..." dan org lumpuh itu pun seketika sembuh, bangun & pulang dgn ucapan syukur!

Notice ada kata "their" bukan "his" atopun "my". "Their" tentunya ngarah ke temen2nya org lumpuh ini and akhirnya tuch org lumpuh sembuh.. Yesus saat itu bilang "their" krn Dia ngeliat "faith" dr temen2nya yg yakin kalo Yesus itu Son of God yg menyembuhkan.

Ada saat2 pas kita kena masalah, ntah kita-nya udah lose faith atopun nganggap masalah itu lebih besar dr kita.. Share it.... share ke keluarga/ temen2/ sodara2 seiman (family in Christ) kalian.. Selain kita bs bagi2 beban yg berat itu ke mereka, kita jg bs dibawa dalam doa mereka. Di saat kita losing faith, iman sodara2 kita itu pun bs menyentuh hati Tuhan lho.. :)

Gua percaya, dulu pas gua lg super down n udah ga bs mikir dgn tenang, justru doa2 dari keluarga & temen2 gua itu yg membawa kedamaian & kesembuhan buat gua.. God is moved by their faith & prayers. That's why I never stop thanking all of them for bringing me into their prayer.. Sorry can't mention your names one by one, but all i can say thx a lot, all!! :)

Kalo ada dari kalian yg lg ngedoain temen ato keluarga kalian, kita imanin aja yok. I also have my own prayer for my family and He will make everything good in His time. :)

-a-

.:He Is So Good:.

2011-03-20T08:10:00.002+08:00

He's been really good. Melihat 2 minggu belakangan, gua agak tight up dgn banyak kegiatan.

Firstly, of course, work. Really thx God gua udah mulai kerja di company lama gua and I feel very welcome there. Begitu masuk kerja, lgsg dikasih tahu kalo ada deadline project tgl 15 March. Wow.. Rush rush rush! Akhirnya selesai jg hari ini, tinggal checking doank bsk. Bener2 menguras tenaga abis!

Secondly, TLG Production. Mulai dari proses syuting sampai editing itu bener2 menguras tenaga. Abis capek kerja, mulai edit news ampe malem n biasanya bisa 2-3 hari buat edit.

Thirdly, wedding temen. One of my best buddy just got married last saturday. Well, I am very happy for both of them krn gua ngeliat gmn menakjubkannya pasangan ini, the happy couple. Wew.. Time flies anyway. Ga kerasa udah ampir 3 taon gua lulus dr NTU n hampir 7 taon gua berada di negeri kecil ini. Di wedding temen gua ini, gua bantu2 apapun yg gua bisa n thx God it went well. :)

Tiga kegiatan yg bener2 menguras tenaga, but I'm really really glad I've done all of them. Gua suka dgn apa yg gua kerjain semua itu n He made them good in His time! :)

Sbnrnya sebelom semua di atas itu terjadi, banyak pikiran di kepala bulat gua ini. Mulai dr hal2 di office sampe mikirin "penyakit" yg dulu nyerang kaki gua. Bos HR di kantor suruh gua minta surat dr dokter specialist (yg biasa gua datengin) yg menyatakan "This cool, gentle & handsome man is fit to work as an engineer." (hehe..). Jujurnya gua agak deg-degan mengingat hasil darah terakhir gua (Januari 2011) msh menyatakan gua ada pembengkakan dilihat dari hasil ESR, Erythrocyte Sedimentation Rate (hasilnya 20, range normalnya 0-10).

Cut it short, tgl 4 March, gua dtg ke specialist... Sebelom ambil darah, gua imanin kalo gua udah sembuh. Setelah itu, jarum suntik mendekat.. tutup mata krn ga bs ngeliat jarum suntik & abis itu mesti tunggu panggilan dr dokter. Sementara lg nunggu, gua doa doa n doa.. Ternyata nunggunya lama bener.. tuch dokter emg bener2 "laku", banyak pasiennye.. hehe.. gua nunggu 2 jam.. Beruntung ada kejadian unik2 hari itu, ada pasien yg tiba2 teriak2 pake bahasa Hokkien.. ada pasien yg tiba2 bilang "ATTENTION!" (buset, dia kira lg di camp army kali y..) ada pasien yg menarik menurut naluri lelaki.. oops.. (maap, makin ga jelas ini post)

Akhirnya dokter manggil jam 1PM. (gua nunggu dr jam 11AM).

Doc: "Hi, Andri! How are you? Feeling better?"

Boy: "Hi, Doc! Yeap! Feeling much much better.."

Doc: "Let's see your blood test result ya.." (sambil ngeliat komputer) "Unfortunately, your liver test result hasn't come out yet, but let's see your ESR result...." (sambil cari2 itu ESR)

Kring.. Kring.. HP si Doc bunyi n dia angkat n ngobrol..

Ya.. terpaksa gua nungguin dia nelp..

Gua iseng2 liat monitor kompie die...

'ESR'.. deg..

ada tulisan 'ESR'..

"ESR gua hasilnya.. 10! Within normal range! Wohoo! Sik asik!" --> yg ini dalam hati, ga mgkn gua teriak2 ga jelas di depan dokternye. senengnya gua ga kekira2 ampe melebihi seneng gua keterima di NTU!

Abis itu sang dokter menutup handphone-nya n masi bilang "Let's see your ESR result.." (masi cari2 pula)

Trus gua belaga bilang "Hopefully my result is good..." (gara2 kbnykn akting di tlg news nich.. XD)

Doc: "Your result is good! You're okay now, your ESR lies within normal range.."

Boy: "Thx God for that.. I.." (lgsg dipotong dokternye)

Doc: "Yes, yes, It's really God's grace! God heals you.. Maybe God is trying to be fair to you. He healed your brother so now it's your turn.. He has to heal you now (becanda sambil senyum2)"

Boy: "Doc, can I be honest to you? Frankly speaking, I've stopped taking Methotrexate (MTX) & Prednisolone for 2 months..."

Doc: "Is it?! But you never take any Humira injection, right? (Humira injection itu mahal setengah mati.. S$1000/suntik, tentu aje gua ga ambil..) Then you don't need to take it anymore.. Take it only if the pain comes back.. Then you don't need to wait for your liver test.. surely it shows a better result since you don't take medicine anymore.. So, you don't need to come back here anymore for regular check-up........"

Abis itu minta surat yg menyatakan "Andri Setiawan is fit to work as a mechanical engineer." and I proudly gave it to my HR bos.

Dari cerita di atas, ini bener2 terjadi di dalam hidup gua.. 8 months gua ga ngapa2in krn kaki gua sakit.. 1 week kaki & pinggang gua sakit setengah mati ampe gua pikir bakal cacat.. He never forsakes me even one second.

Dr kejadian ini bukannya gua mau bilang gua jadi holy & ga pernah ngelakuin dosa lg, bla2.. behh... gua ga pernah luput dr kesalahan2 bahkan ampe skrg.. tp yg gua mau kasi tau itu: Tuhan itu bener2 baik. Tuhan itu baik. Dia itu udah memberkati kita semua.. Berkat itu jgn cmn diukur dr banyaknya berkat yg kalian terima, misalnya duit banyak, hasil ulangan bagus, kerjaan baik.. Berkat itu jg bs dilihat dr apa yang kita udah pelajarin from our personal experience..

Dr kejadian ini, gua bener2 belajar banyak hal. Gua belajar buat ngga ngandalin kekuatan sendiri lagi. Gua belajar buat lebih sabar lg. Gua belajar gimana kaki itu sangat berharga. Gua belajar gimana keluarga & temen2 gua itu udah mengasihi gua lewat doa2nya. Gua belajar 1 Korintus 10:13.

1 Korintus 10:13 itu sebnernya gua udah tau dr zaman2nya di NTU. Wkt itu cell group gua suruh gua hafalin banyak ayat2 termasuk ayat itu. Dulu gua hafalin, tp ga gua resapin. Skrg gua baru ngerti ayat itu.

Jgn melihat masalah itu sebagai tembok yg ngalangin pandangan kita ke Tuhan. Our God is much bigger than our problem. Your problem is even smaller than yourself. Don't give up & pray. Dia selalu mendatangkan kebaikan dalam segala hal. :)

God is so good. Trust me.

-a-

.:God Really Heals:.

2010-11-27T13:50:00.003+08:00

I just want to share what I personally experienced, well, not more than few hours ago. To be exact, it only happened last night.

I thought 26 November 2010 would be just another day when I spend my whole day sitting in front of my computer.. browsing.. doing some stuffs which can generate a little bit of money (not much) for me since I am currently jobless..

But I could never imagine right after I washed 1day-abandoned dishes and had my dinner, I experienced a nightmare, but at the same time, learned a precious lesson.

Some of you may have known, I've been suffering a Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA) (A non-severe type of Ankylosing Spondylitis) that causes inflammation on my body's joints. Good thing, it attacks only my lower-body-parts (at least not my whole body parts). Until 5 days ago, it was all alright. I felt no pain on my knee, ankle & waist anymore and I'd become more confident that I would recover earlier than I expected.

But who would have known that all of sudden, 3 days ago, I felt something wrong with my upper thigh. It felt as if my leg was so weak and of course.. the pain.. it's there.. I could still walk.. limp.. Perhaps it was because I sat too long on my-beloved-&-very-comfortable office chair..

To my extent of knowledge (which most of the time is not proven to be true.. hehe..), doing light exercises might help to relieve my thigh problem. So.. I walked around my house, lifted up my legs alternately once in a while. And guess what? Nothing came right after that. The excessive pain forced me to either sit or lie down. I decided to sit down & did my own stuffs using computer. Had washed dishes & had my dinner, I again sat down and continued doing what has not been finished yet. It was 09:00PM and my nightmare was about to begin.

I could feel discomfort on my waist and I decided to stand up, go to bed and cover my body with blanket. Forcing myself to sleep, but the pain on my waist was just getting so real and intense. Whichever my sleeping position was, I felt so terrible.. It was so so so painful.. It was the first time I couldn't stand the pain. And that's when I decided to take my medicine again (Prednisolone - Anti Inflammatory). I've stopped taking it for about 1 month, but no choice, I couldn't withstand the pain and I took one pill. For about 2 hours I lied on my bed and held my waist.. even when I didn't make any move, the pain was still as horrible. I knew my phone was actually ringing for few times (they were from my friends - Nat, Tir, sorry I didn't pick up your calls nor reply your sms y..). I wanted to pick them up, but I just couldn't get out from my bed.

And at one point, I even cried out, "Why must it be now and why must it be me, God?" I started to question Him despite saying few prayers.. At that time, my emotion has blown up.. I couldn't think properly..

It was exactly 00:00AM, my brother & Ricci went back home. (Ricci had to stay because she needs to settle some wedding stuffs). I told them what was happening.. Anton brought me Panadol (Parachetamol - Pain Killer), while Ricci helped me set up the bed so I could sit and lean on the wall with cushions on my back. Two pills of Panadol were more than enough to make me sleepy despite the pain. Though I really hate taking Panadol, but I couldn't think of other drugs at that time. Before I went to bed again, Anton & Ricci prayed for me. And somehow I could feel the peace knowing that He would never forsake me nor leave me. He never wants His children to dwell in any disease or sickness. I really thank God for Anton & Ricci. :) Then..... I fell asleep.

The moment I opened my eyes, it was 01:30AM. I went to wee and slept again. You know what? I even didn't realize that the pain was no longer there, I totally forgot about the pain because I was still so sleepy and I didn't think at all.... haha..

The 2nd time I woke up, it was 03:00AM. My brother was also awake and asked me, "How is it?" Then I realized the pain was gone! But the first thing I told Anton was "Fine.. No pain.. But I think it's because of the Panadols.." Anton replied straight away, "No way.. Panadols only got rid of your pain away for about few minutes.." Then I told him, "Maybe Prednisolone then, but I only took one pill.." (normally I took 1.5 pills) and then I followed up, "I think it's because of the prayer.. He really healed me...."

Ironically, I still put Medicines on top of God. It's as if I am so depending on medicines to cure me. But through this experience, I learned the power of prayer and God really heals.

As soon as I walked out from my room to wee (again), I thank God so many times.. "Thank You, Jesus.. Thank You, God.. You heal me.."

.:Honestly..:.

2010-06-10T23:21:00.003+08:00

ga kerasa.. udah 6 bulan dari sejak gua sakit pinggang ini.. masi aja ini nyantol di tubuh gua.. :(
dan krn sakit ini, gua ga bs lari.. gua sadar ga bs lari krn wkt itu ada 1 ocassion gua lg mau ngejar bus sambil lari... tapi lari gua tiba2 timpang n ampir jatoh.. that scared me a lot, to be honest.. gua bener2 ga bs lari..

tapi sejujur2nya, ini pertama kalinya gua ngerasain takut di hati gua.. ketika gua balik dr tan tock seng hospital, gua membawa 4 jenis obat yg mesti gua minum.. what? 4 jenis? and i can only see the effect probably in 4-6 months time.. that's according to what human said to me.

praise Lord, gua punya temen2 yg bener2 trus nguatin.. gua trus diingetin kalo gua mesti punya iman.. iman kalo gua dah sembuh.. "ask n u'll be given".. n percaya kalo kita dah dapetin apa yg kita mau..

enough said.

-andri-

.: 6 years :.

2010-02-21T22:11:00.002+08:00

Six years have gone..
I won't be drowned in the sadness anymore..

As life is to be treasured,
I will only remember your charming smile..
To keep me awake along this journey.

Thank you..

-andri-
dedicated to Ong Eng Soen

.:A Small Stone in My Life:.

2010-01-18T21:52:00.005+08:00

dua minggu belakangan ini bermacam2 feeling gua rasain..

mulai dr seneng ketika gua balik indo ketemu bonyok & spupu kecil gua dan reunian ama temen2 3a3, takut ketika ankle gua membengkak gede hanya dalam sehari, shock ketika gua dikasi tau kalo asam urat (uric acid) udah menggerogoti sendi gua.. itu cuma dalam 2 minggu..

menjelang umur ke-24 bulan juli nanti, gua bener2 terkejut pas dokter bilang gua asam urat. bahkan si dokter mendiagnosa tanpa gua harus jalanin tes darah..

sepulang dari dokter, gua cumen bs ketawa2, "ah, mana mungkin gua masi 23 kena asam urat.. ada2 aje tuch dokter!"

bonyok gua jg memperkuat alibi gua dengan bilang "kalo asam urat mah sendi2 loe dah kaku, dri.."

tapi tetap aja ada kekuatiran di dalam diri gua n gua bilang ke nyokap gua kalo gua mau tes darah.. exactly tgl 16 January 2010, gua tes darah jam 7.30 pagi di Biotest Pluit.. bokap jg tes kadar glukosa dlm darah dia hari itu.. pas saat itu gua tenang bgt sich krn gua tetep keukeuh kalo gua ga bakal kena asam urat..

jam 4.30pm hasil darah dateng ke gua.. shocking.. ketika gua menemukan angka 7.2 mg/dL.. itulah kadar asam urat / uric acid dalam tubuh gua.. batasnya? 3.4-7.0 mg/dL pada umumnya.. artinya? yes, gua kena asam urat meskipun ga kronis..

awalnya gua shock bgt.. "wow.. gua kena asam urat.."

gua masi tetep ga percaya.. "ah, bisa aja tes-nya salah... pas gua cek di internet koq batas tingginya ampe 8.3 mg/dL???? berarti salah nichhhhh!" seolah-olah gua ga bs terima tuch hasil tes.. emosi gua played part at that time..

ketika gua ke dokter lagi, dokter semakin meyakinkan gua kalo gua kena asam urat.. dgn melihat bengkak di ankle gua, dia langsung mendiagnosa gua kena asam urat.. i truly admire the doctor.. :) selain baik, dia nasehatin gua makanan2 yg hrs dihindarin.. bener2 baik bgt dokternya..

asam urat atau uric acid (english) itu adalah jenis asam berasal dari purines yang ga bisa diurai oleh tubuh lagi dan apabila berlebih, asam ini cenderung menyerang sendi2 tubuh melalui media darah atau lebih umum disebut gout/arthritis.. pada umumnya penyakit asam urat ini adalah penyakit turunan dan baru timbul ketika seseorang mencapai umur di atas 30.. artinya gua menghadapi a rare case.. mungkin possibility-nya 1:10000 atau mungkin lebih kecil utk bs terjangkit asam urat pada usia muda..

shockingly, bonyok gua ga ada yg punya history asam urat.. hanya kholesterol.. hmm.. dari mana ya? ah, ga penting jg! yg lebih penting gua harus jaga diet mulai saat ini.. ga ada lagi jero-an atopun daging2 merah berlebihan.. gua harus bener2 jaga makan dan gizi tubuh juga..

ga ada lagi makan berlebihan yg enak2 kayak kepiting saos tiram ala nyokap, angsio bakut (daging bakut merah nyokap yg super duper lezat), daging sapi ala nyokap, ba cincang ala nyokap, telor goreng kecap ala nyokap, udang goreng mentega ala nyokap, udang roti ala nyokap, baso ba ala nyokap, duck king ala suekim (adek ipar nyokap), otak padang, fried oyster.. ah masi banyak lagi.. ga bs makan banyak lagi tuch makanan.. haha.. (jadi laper...)

sejujurnya sedih... tapi di satu sisi gua bener2 bersyukur.. gua bener2 thankful karena at least gua bs spotted penyakit ini ketika gua masih muda.. di satu sisi ini bener2 melatih kedisiplinan gua.. gua terkenal dgn "ketidakdisiplinan".. :)

dan setelah dipikir2 lagi, mungkin beberapa case penyakit gua belakangan ini memang disebabkan asam urat.. swollen knee, swollen ankle.. kadang2 jari tangan gua agak sakit juga.. gua malah berharap mereka semua berhubungan satu sama lain yaitu asam urat.. smoga bukan lg penyakit yg laen d.. wew..

jaga pola makan.. dan juga.... mulai berolahraga d.. hehe.. smua org tau kalo mulut gua kyk terompet, bunyinya nyaring.. "yok, berenang.. yok, nge-gym.." tapi ga pernah dilakuin..... bahkan dulu gua pernah tinggal di hall NTU yg cumen kira2 50 kaki dari tempat gym, tapi gua cumen 2 kali seumur hidup gua ke gym itu.. haha.. ironis..

"anyway, gua ga bole kalah ama penyakit ini.. gua harus tetep semangat!!!" itulah cara gua menyemangati hidup gua.. yosh!!!!

resolution 2010 gua tetep berjalan.. n bakal berjalan.. :)

-andri-

.:2010:.

2010-01-14T12:40:00.013+08:00

Happy New Year 2010 from me.

one year such a short journey. i never imagine that 2009 would have gone so fast. reflecting back what I have done for the past one year.... overall result is............ hmph..

2009 leaves me quite number bad experiences. life without direction makes me clueless on where i should go to.

here comes 2010. i've never been evaluating myself, what kind of improvements i've had.. my resolution for both 2009 and 2008 was the same: "to be a better man". sounds cliche or ambiguous as "a better man" can be of a lot of meanings.

2010.
new resolutions. physically, mentally, socially and spiritually.

physical resolution:
1. put on weight (another 4 kg)
2. enlarge my arm muscles (biceps & triceps)
3. be healthier

mental resolution:
1. "never give up" mentality
2. don't be stubborn
3. be wiser

social life:
1. get in touch with old friends
2. more easy going
3. more extrovert

spiritually:
1. live a life of prayer
2. no more self-centered life
3. more committed

"be wiser" is the one that i want to focus more.

"a wise man rules his world."

how many people on earth are actually wise? i can say, not many of them.
hmm.. how should i explain this.. i give an example:

ok.. fyi, i'm currently in indonesia for my ankle treatment. these last few days i've been dilligently following a hot case about "Century Bank Bailout". this case was surfaced right after Indonesia government decided to bailout Century Bank back in 21-23 November 2008 due to global economic downturn. at least Rp6.7k billion (equals to about S$1 billion) was injected in order to salvage Century Bank from bankruptcy. it was a controversial move by our government as Century Bank was known as one of low performance banks. according to Jusuf Kalla, with Robert Tantular as Century Bank's current CEO, the bank has encountered a lot of financial problems. corruption is just one example and bad management is just the other one. rumours said that Century Bank funded one of Indonesia's biggest politics parties for their presidential campaigns back in 2008. hence, in order for this party to payback, here came the famous "Century Bank Case".

imagine, what you could buy with S$1billion cash on your hand!! it's a huge amount of money, peeps!!

and now they are having what they call "Rapat Pansus" investigation which involves Prof. Boediono (Vice President 2009-2014 & former Bank of Indonesia Chief Governor) as the suspect, Sri Mulyani (Minister of Financial Monetary 2009-2014 & former Head of KSSK) and Jusuf Kalla (former Vice President 2004-2009) as witnesses and many other politicians. In this investigation, each of them was questioned by all of the politics parties such as Partai Demokrat, Partai Golkar, and else.

If you see what they were doing in the investigation, it was so disappointing. such a small matter, they all disputed it for about 1 hour. debates were anywhere in that room and each of them felt they were right. there was no justification to say who's wrong or right. every rules, regulations, or acts made by human have always a flop here and there. i know nothing is perfect, but sadly, these people were always trying to make an excuse to defend themselves. perhaps, it's human nature, protecting himself, i can't deny it. but words like "apology", "sorry" is a never spoken one. instead, "bangsat" (damn), "kodok" (frog), "setan" (evil) were easily screamed out from their mouths. so embarassing for such educated people....

other than that, "Lumpur Lapindo" (Lapindo Flowing Mud) is another example of "big man's" arrogancy. while these bunch of irresponsible people from Lapindo promised all the evacuees an amount of money. until now! until now most of them haven't even received a single cent yet! ckck.. what have these poor people done to you, jer*s? they just put their best effort to make living & you, jer*s, you simply came with fake smiles, dag the ground, caused the problems and then left without a single care about them. what is your heart made of? sucks!! you call yourself a leader of country? shame on you all!

i just hope to be blessed with wisdom, so that every decision i'll make it will have to through sufficient cognitive process spiritually and rationally. a good decision leads to many aspects of life.

secondly, it's my health. i really want to boost up my physical health. 2008 & 2009 were a bit traumatic for me. starting from ache at my waist, swollen knee, stomachache, swollen ankle, and many else. :(

pray it'll be much better in 2010. :)

2010. that's how i'm going to be a better man.

-andri-

.: Room Sweet Room :.

2009-11-09T00:17:00.005+08:00

yosh, feel like writing again..

tedious week after week.. ever since last March, basically I've been quite busy with both my work and church activities.

hmm.. not everyone actually knows about this.. right after Nasi Boengkoes musical drama, on the following day, officialy i'm no longer a Clementian.. I'm now a CCK-er.. hehe..

yeap, just shifted to my new flat.. :)

and by grace my brother & i can own this flat.. but, well, we are now under debts & we need to pay monthly installment for this new flat.. hoho.. so, financially, from now on, i need to manage it very well..

aside from my work & financial matter, i'm currently more than happy.. finally i can have my own room again.. the last time i have it was during my final year in NTU.. 1.5 years ago..

my room concept is "simplistic". i just want to make sure i have a spacious room with only those stuffs i really need.

some decorative toys and photos just make my room even perfect.. exactly the same as what i've been dreaming of.. :D

below are some "fresh from the oven" snapshots i took.

firstly, my bed mattress.. looks convenient, huh.. well, it is..

my wardrobe.. mm.. the biggest wardrobe i've ever had so far.. hehe..

my book shelves.. i like this part of my room.. :)

but i like this even better.. my comfy sofa, table & computer set.. cihuy!

i just can't stand it.. XD

maklum anak kampungan.. ga pernah punya kamar bagus.. hehe.. i keep telling myself to alwaysss take a good care of this room.. "i will, mama".. :D hehe..

mungkin ini adalah the best place to relieve all my stresses and pressures after work.. i love where i am now.. :)

-andri-

.: NASI BOENGKOES :.

2009-10-11T08:40:00.002+08:00

H+15 days... dah lama lewat, tp masi kerasa hype-nya dalam diri gua..

NASI BOENGKOES... gua ga percaya jg sich ini dah lewat.. i still can't believe it kita dah 2 minggu lamanya stlh NASI BOENGKOES..

u won't believe this, tp semuanya happened because of His grace.. i'm not an outspoken type of guy, tp utk yg 1 ini bener2 Dia ada di situ bersama2 kita.. so, begini cerita ttg detik2 terakhir menjelang NASI BOENGKOES & setelahnya..

H-7 tepatnya... ari sabtu, 19 September 2009.. seperti biasa, abis yrc semuanya practice n practice.. ampe teler.. hasilnya ga begitu meyakinkan.. banyak salah sana-sini.. gua pribadi ga "all out" ama skali.. tim director pun kecewa n mutusin utk call it the day..

H-6 seharusnya gua latian basket, tp pagi2nya lutut gua membengkak besar.. sbenernya dah quite some time tp ntah napa pas ari minggu itu sakit.. bahkan gua ga bs ikt makan2nye ultah si hendry rusli.. wew.. gua suspect gara2 gua terlalu maksain diri gua buat angkat2 barang n pack2in barang2 buat pindahan..

H-5 itu hari libur.. jd semuanya pagi2 dah dateng.. jam 10 utk tim cast.. mulai lumayan tepat waktu n hasilnya lebih baik dr sabtu gua bilang.. tp pas diulang skali lg, it's even better, tp masih perlu betulin sana-sini apalagi dance cowo yg belom kebentuk ama skali.. mgkn br 50% jadi.. trus malemnya gua dikasi tau buat edit video pas hari H jadi prolog.. sbenernya gampang editnya, tp mereka kasi tau gua last minute banget n basically gua cumen punya ari selasa malem n sabtu pagi buat kerjain.. padahal gua dah rencana OT hari selasa gara2 kerjaan gua ga beres.. :( quite disappointed sich, tp gua ga bs tunjukkin krn dah detik2 terakhir.. gua berusaha sabar n be cooperative..

H-4 ga ada latian.. tp gua pulang dr kantor quite late.. jam 8.30 br sampe kamar n kerjain video sebisa gua.. utak sana-sini, jadinya ga bagus2.. ga cocok.. krn emang video2 trailernya ga related satu dgn yg lain.. khususnya gabungin bapaknya meninggal n pujiono.. apalagi wktnya terbatas.. dikasinya 3 menit.. cukup sulit.. n akhirnya slasa ga jadi, tp gua tetep bikin apa yg gua bs buat latian ari rabu..

H-3 latian lg n lumayan bagus latiannya.. tp pulangnya jg agak malem.. gua yakin semuanya kecapekan abis.. gua nyampe rumah jam 12.15 n bener2 teler.. ga sempet nyalain kompie n langsung tidur..

H-2 latian lg n kali ini agak ga bagus jadinya.. somehow blom kompak n technically, banyak yg ga siap kyk props, multimedia n dll.. semuanya agak worried ga terkecuali director & producer.. gua bs ngeliat muka sang director agak cemberut.. bs dimengerti.. we had spent so much time for this yet it didn't turn up as expected..

H-1 seharusnya gladiresik di NAFA Lee Foundation Theatre tempat di mana kita bener2 perform.. tp bnyk yg telat.. seharusnya jam 8 mulai gladiresik.. but due to this & that n juga ngatur2 lighting, kita br mulai gladi resik jam 9 .15-an.. n gladiresiknya lebih ke arah detailing.. positioning berdiri di mana, blockingnya gimana.. dll.. by the time jam 11, kita br selesai scene 4a.. padahal masi ada 4b, 4c, 5, 6 & 7.. semua worried.. n apalagi semuanya ngibrit2 keluar dr theatre pas jam 11.. ampe2 gua cumen pake kaos kutang & hape gua ketinggalan di dalem! XD (pengalaman menarik.. hehe..)

H, semuanya kumpul jam 2 siang.. harusnya pada ke salon dulu jam 10.. tp gua ga tau ama skali kalo gua jg harus ke salon.. nobody told me previously.. n trnyata banyak yg berusaha reached gua tp hape gua kan ktinggalan.. moreover gua harus selesain video prolognya.. jd gua bangun jam 6 pagi hanya utk edit video.. br jam 12 gua selesai completely, langsung buru2 ke NAFA n ketemu dedi, astrid & shandy lg makan.. di situ gua br tau kalo gua harusnya ke salon.. tp meskipun dikasi tau gt, gua bakal bilang gua ga ikt krn videonya blom selesai.. :)

semua kumpul jam 2 sambil deg deg & deg.. persiapan agak berantakan.. bahkan gua bs liat semuanya pd lesu.. tp kita berusaha semangat krn yakin Tuhan nolong & sempurna-in semua.. :)
n masuklah kita ke NAFA.. ngelakuin semua yg kita bs.. selesain gladiresik sisanya n latian basket on stage.. kita ga sempet gladiresik the whole scenes krn wkt dah nunjukkin jam 6.. teng, semua harus makan n siap2.. i couldn't stop praying at that time.. bukannya worried, tp gua pengen semuanya berakhir dgn baik n ga sia2.. gua ga deg2an sedikitpun ntah napa.. mgkn gua dah biasa maen drama ky gini jg meskipun ga pernah di atas stage yg segede gt..

n.... the performance began... jam 7.30 teng dimulailah.. diawali dgn video prolog.. opening pun dimulai.. ketika gua jd pemimpin upacara n berdiri di tengah2 sambil ngeliat penonton... *krik krik krik.... so dark.. gua ga ngeliat apa2.. lebih pede lg.. gua berusaha all out!! n semuanya gua yakin jadinya all out, mengingat opening salah satu scene tersulit, tp kita went through itu perfectly!!! langsung semuanya semangat!! yosh!

di NASI BOENGKOES ini peran gua 3: pemimpin upacara, emcee/wasit basket, & singing contest emcee.. haha.. 3 karakter yg bener2 berbeda meskipun semuanya peran sampingan.. :) n pas emcee basket gua diharapkan nge-rap.. pas gua nge-rap, ntah napa semua ketawa.. haha.. mungkin lucu gt, but i saw noone.. gua ga bs liat sapa2.. gua cumen bs liat lampu nyorot mata gua n that's it.. makanya gua cuek n all out aje! peduli tempe.. tp gua denger ada 1 suara "Andri!", ga tau tuch suara sapa.. haha.. garink.. makin semangat lg gua.. XD

n terus2an sampe akhirnya gua menutup dengan kata "Tuhan memberkati!!"....

WOOOWWWWWWW!!! semua penonton tepok tangan bener2 meriah!! i still can remember every detail of it.. bener2 mengharukan.. ketika curtain ditutup semuanya dr cast, komiti, sapapun itu di dalam stage lompat2 girang n couldn't believe that we did it!!!!

He's there.. God is there.. Jesus is there.. really.. gua bener2 ngerasain kenyamanan pas di stage.. gua ga takut sedikitpun meskipun ada salah2 dikit.. tp He's there!!! pertama kalinya gua ngerasain kayak gini seumur hidup.. bahkan pengalaman drama2 gereja gua seblomnya ga bs dibandingkan dgn ini.. puas.. bener2 puas!! bokap nyokap koko yg ntn pun ampe bilang kita semua bagus.. temen2 gua jg bilang bener2 bagus n entertaining.. glad that everyone was pleased by the performance.. moreover, i believe that God smiled there and even laughed when He saw Pujiono doing some silly things.. :)

truly an amazing experience for me.. gua bener2 bersyukur bgt ama Tuhan gua bs jd part of the team at least sekali di dalam hidup gua di dunia ini.. :) pulang pun gua ga bs tidur.. hype-nya masi ada.. bahkan ampe skrg.. can u imagine.. because we did it not for men, but Him alone.. :)

gua jg bljr bnykkkkk bgt dr pengalaman ini.. n kalo diliat2 lg ke blkng, cerita behind the scene NASI BOENGKOES itu... seperti..... hidup kita..... hidup di dunia ini ga mudah.. banyak bgt masalah mirip ky pas latian banyak aja masalah..

ketika semuanya berjalan dgn ga baik semuanya kuatir.. sama ky hidup, ketika kita banyak masalah, kita jd worried.. but we should remind ourselves that everything happens for a good reason.. Tuhan datang utk mendatangkan kebaikan.. Tuhan menyempurnakan segala sesuatunya.. penggambaran yg cukup menarik ketika NASI BOENGKOES berjalan dgn sangat baik, begitu jg hidup kita pada akhirnya, it will be definitely beautiful in His time. :)

bljr banyak bgt n somehow bonding di antara anak2 YRC makin deket.. meskipun gua ga gt friendly (dr dulu jg ky gini.. XD) but i can see we get along quite well.. :) thx God for that..

NASI BOENGKOES ga bakal gua lupain seumur hidup gua..begitu jg dgn drama2 gua yg lain.. they were all sweet memories to me.. :)

it's not the end yet, masi ada cd/dvd release utk NASI BOENGKOES.. coming soon.. get ready for it.. :)

-andri-

.: Road To TLG Musical "NASI BOENGKOES" :.

2009-09-21T23:41:00.002+08:00

5 days to go....

enjoy the very last video trailer..

and see you on 26 september. :)

-andri-

.: TLG Musical "NASI BOENGKOES" (3) :.

2009-09-13T19:29:00.004+08:00

yosh! another entry about TLG Musical NASI BOENGKOES!!! *clap2

getting closer n closer to the D-Day!!! intensive preparations are still ongoing..

almost everyday we have a practice session at church.. it's very tiring, but on the other hand, it's really fun to be together with church friends.. well, i'm not a friendly type of person, not really an easy-going one, but somehow i like the environment there..

definitely, will be missing this kind of moment after the musical ends.. well, knowing i'm not really young anymore, in fact i'm moving towards 24 now, guess this will be the last drama for me.. :)
well, actually it depends on God, if He wants me get involved in any drama in the future, i dont mind at all. hehe.

i'll give my best for this NASI BOENGKOES.. i will.. i will.. :)

praise God for all the video trailers for NASI BOENGKOES.. though they are still far away from perfect, i'm still thankful for them.. it's beyond everyone's expectations! :)
i have a very cooperative and helpful team behind the scene. actually all the credits should go to the marketing team & the casts.
on the other hand, technically i've improved my video editing skill very much ever since i joined TLG Production officially in September last year.. :)

really thank God for this. i just can't say it out loud with my mouth, but i still can express it through words. praise Lord!

well, here is the last video trailer for NASI BOENGKOES! enjoy.. :)

well, 13 days to go!!!!!

if any of you are interested to watch us, feel free to contact me anytime to get the tix.

it only costs you S$15 and you can watch us, at the same time you can get S$10 Indo Padang voucher & get a chance to win a free ticket Singapore-Jakarta-Singapore, flying with Lufthansa airlines!!!! come grab it while stock last! i'm not lying to you, but so far we have sold almost 200 tix!! thx, God!!! :)

-andri-

.: TLG Musical "NASI BOENGKOES" (2) :.

2009-09-06T07:31:00.003+08:00

Well, another 20 days to go.. :)

here is the newest video trailer. enjoy.

-andri-

.: TLG Musical "NASI BOENGKOES" (1) :.

2009-09-03T23:29:00.004+08:00

hi.

dah lama jg ga update nich blog. rasa2nya nich blog dah cukup lama terabandoned. hampir tak pernah dibuka pula.

kabar so far... life's good.. meskipun kerjaan di kantor banyak.. bener2 banyak.. dan lebih banyak drpd bbrp bulan lalu, but somehow gua merasa lebih ga stress. ntah krn cuek, ga niat kerja lg, ato emang gua dah terbiasa dgn pressure spt ini.

but i really thank God, gua punya koko n 1 colleague yg supportive.. :)
i really admire them from the deepest of my heart. mereka bener2 menyejukkan hari2 gua di kantor.
mereka bener2 penggambaran Yesus yg ga pernah gua liat sebelomnya.. their breath is prayer. :)

setiap pagi kita bertiga ngumpul bareng2, doa bareng, makan bareng, ngobrol2 bareng (meskipun gua lebih banyak diem n mendengarkan). i'm really blessed.. :)

well, koko n gua jg br aja settle our deal untuk2 1 unit HDB di CCK. really2 relieved. so bbrp bulan blkngn sibuk ngurus sini sana beli furniture n planning sana sini. tp gua suka buanget ama planning2 ky gini, decorate rumah, khususnya kamar gua sendiri. :D terhitung dalam 1.5 bulan terakhir, gua dah ke ikea 3 kali. XD

terakhir adalah NASI BOENGKOESSS!!! ini adalah drama musikal yg dipersembahkan gereja pemuda (youth) Bethany Church of Singapore aka TLG aka The Last Generation.
acara ini open to anyone, tp drama-nya akan dalam bahasa indonesia. so, prioritas utama untuk org2 indonesia. :)

persiapan drama banyakkkkkkkk bgt.. meskipun gua ga involve banyak, tp gua bener2 overloaded. well, gua main drama n terlibat dlm komiti marketing (video trailer). mm, fun... latian drama-nya n edit2 videonya.. bener2 fun.. n gua bljr banyak bgt untuk video editing skill.. mungkin Tuhan emang kasi gua talenta ini, n glad that I found another talent out of me. :)

latiannya jg lumayan sering.. bahkan dah makin intensive, ampir tiap ari.. jd sehabis kerja, trus ke orchard itu sungguh perjuangan yg luar biasa buat gua. cuapekkkkkkk.. capek mental n pikiran setelah kerja, capek fisik buat video editing n latian drama. lengkap d.. XD

tp gua makin sadar, koq gua masi bs kuat ampe skrg y.. kerjaan banyak sana-sini.. gua kan sering komplain trus.. tp akhir2 ini makin berkurang komplain gua.. makin sadar kalo komplain ga ada gunanya.. tp kadang2 komplain diperlukan buat keluarin unek2.. :)

well, guys:

TLG presents

TLG Musical "NASI BOENGKOES"

26 September 2009
Lee Foundation Theatre, NAFA

Admission Fee: S$15
(inclusive of S$10 Indo Padang voucher)

want to encourage u to come n watch us.. support us.. :)
we'll put our bestest to this, hope u all will be blessed by our performance. :)

anyway, bbrp video trailer bs ditonton di sini:
(thx buat tim yg dah kerja bareng2 bikin trailer ini, u guys are great!!)

kalo ada yg mau beli tiket, bs lewat gua jg.. :)
thx all.. God bless

anyway, NASI BOENGKOES punya blog jg:

http://naboeng.blogspot.com/

-andri-

.: Live in Positiveness :.

2009-06-12T20:49:00.003+08:00

wah.. ever since I've graduated from NTU, sepertinya gua dah ga aktif menulis lagi..
sebenernya bkn krn kesibukan jg.. gua sering menyibukkan diri gua sendiri..

okay.. hari ini mau berbagi pengalaman dari sebuah problem yg gua hadapin saat ini yg ga lain ttg kerjaan..

udah 7 bulan n ampir 8 bulan gua kerja di perusahaan gua skrg ini, tp working attitude gua semakin lama semakin ga baik.. complain, kesel, curse, males, cuek bebek, and yg paling parah adalah negative mind..

ntah.. gua n koko gua seperti hidup di 2 dunia berbeda.. dia seperti enjoy skali dgn kerjaan dia skrg ini, padahal kalo dia cerita2 dia slalu bilang berantem sana-sini..

berbeda dgn gua, sebenernya berantemnya minim skali.. tp politiknya gua bisa bilang AMPAS (*maaf.. but it's true..)!! di project gua skrg ini, org2nya ga mau kerja keras, tp pengen disanjung, dipraise n ga mau disalahin.. mereka salah, tp cari2 alesan aneh2 asalkan mereka ga disalahin..

ketidakadaan leadership n good decision di dalam project gua yg menyebabkan gua kesel sometimes.. gpp, gua share ini ke kalian eventhough ini sebenernya internal affair project team gua.. tp ntah napa, mereka sama skali ga sadar2 dari dulu.. bahkan untuk freshmen ky gua, gua bs sadar sumthing wrong, man, u gotta do something..!!

bos macam apa yg bahkan ampe skrg nyebut nama org2 di 1 tim kebalik2.. bos macam apa yg kerjaan bawahannya sendiri aja ga tau.. bos macam apa yg sering backstab org tertentu dalam 1 company di depan bawahan2 mereka sendiri.. you should know, that it's totally wrong!!! gua bukan berusaha sok pinter ato apa, tp nalar gua ttg hal ini jalan n gua ngerasa ini bukan jalan yg baik untuk gua.. kalo lama2 gua stay on this project with ongoing weird things like these, gua bs develop character yg buruk buat gua sendiri..!

anyway, gua mau buat disclaimer kalo org2 perusahaan gua professional semua koq n baik2 bgt.. tp gua ngerefer oknum 1-2 org di project team gua yg agak2 menyimpang..

n somehow I live in the world where my surrounding people always talk negative things about everything including me.. org2nya kiasu, kiasi, kia kia semua.. fake!!!!! ga ada encouragement..

mereka slalu bilang "krn economic downturn.. bla2"
it's all BULLS***!!

org2 di spore terlalu takut2.. ini bukan masalah aware ato ngga, sbenernya kalo everything goes normal, mereka ga perlu ampe motong2 tenaga kerja.. ga perlu ampe layoff segitu banyak org trus nyata2nya mereka tarik2in org lagi.. ini economic downturn sebenernya alesan bagus cumen buat kurangin pengeluaran n overutilize org2 yg dipertahankan..

no doubt i'm really thankful buat kerjaan yg gua dapet skrg di zaman skrg ky gini.. dgn duit yg gua dapet, rasa2nya gua jauh lebih baik dibanding temen2 gua skrg.. tp apa duit segalanya? ini bukan sesuatu yg mau gua pursue ke depan.. apa gunanya talent gua kalo ga didevelop.. buat apa gua memaksakan diri untuk sumthing i dun like.. problems arise, tp krn gua dah terlanjur eneg, working attitude gua salah total dalam menghadapi masalah itu..

gua bukan cari2 excuse ato terkesan manja, tp really, i need an encouragement.. positiveness.. gua bersyukur bgt gua punya koko n colleague gua yg sama2 christian yg selaluuuuuu encourage gua setiap harinya.. mereka bener2 seperti malaikat buat gua.. bahkan mereka yg selalu meyakinkan gua buat setiap keputusan yg gua ambil.. tp emang gua plin-plan krg gampang sekali gua berubah pikirannya aka indecisive.. tp gua indecisive, itu krn faktor lingkungan yg slalu talk bad about current condition rite now..

"loe ga liat pas loe pengangguran 5 bulan, susah kan cari kerja skrg?!"
"di keadaan ekonomi ky skrg, apa loe mungkin bs dapet kerjaan?"

they sound like they look down on me.. gua ky useless person.. no encouragement or so on.. n somehow gua goyah bgt.. apakah dunia seburuk ini? di mana kalo gua baca koran atopun online news, org2 semakin aneh skrg..

begitu jg gua, gua semakin isolated n nothing i want to do now.. seakan2 ga ada gairah hidup.. it's bad.. gua sadar.. tp susah bgt mengubah diri gua yg cukup stubborn n merasa "comfortable" dgn keadaan gua skrg..

lost lotsa of friends krn gua sering cuekin pas lg chat atopun telp2.. krn gua smakin anti-social.. gua ga menemukan sesuatu yg bs gua omongin ama dia.. i keep thinking having less number of good friends, but helpful, was better than having bunch of friends, but annoying.. (yes, to be honest, gua pernah berpikir begitu..)

bonyok suru gua cari pasangan hidup buat curhat2 kalo ada masalah, biar gua ga selalu mikirin kerjaan.. tp gua ga bs.. it's not that i dont want.. some personal problems dont allow me to do that.. one of them is character building.. karakter gua belom terbentuk.... but i still feel it's not my time yet..... :)

gua mau sesuatu berbeda.. live in positiveness and encouragement.. di mana ada hope di sana.. HOPE itu menjadi sesuatu yg sangat langka skrg.. org2 terlihat hopeless skrg2 ini.. mereka cumen bilang tergantung nasib, bla2, padahal kita bs membawa perubahan di hidup kita..

i learn this from my bro n my colleague.. thx a million, brothers.. :)

-andri-

.: I Will Be Here For You :.

2009-06-07T07:49:00.007+08:00

this is one of my favourite song.. i've been searching for this song all this while, but I couldn't figure out the title of the song.. finally, i found it..

When you feel the sunlight fade into the cold night
Don't know where to turn
Don't know where to turn

And all the dreams you are dreaming seem to lose their meaning
Let me in your world
Baby let me in your world

All you need is someone who you can hold
Don't be sad, you are not alone

Chorus

I will be here for you
Some where in the night
Some where in the night
I'll shine a light for you
Some where in the night
I'll be standing by
I will be here for you

In this world of strangers
Of cold unfriendly faces
Someone you can trust
Oh there's someone you can trust
I'll be your shelter
I'll give you my shoulder
Reach out for my love
Baby reach out for my love
Call out my name and my heart will hear
I'll be there
There is nothing to fear

Chorus

I will be here for you
Some where in the night
Some where in the night
I'll shine a light for you
Some where in the night
I'll be standing by
I will be here for you

Some where in the night
Some where in the night
I'll shine a light for you
Somewhere in the night
I'll be standing by
I will be here for you

Somewhere in the night
Somewhere in the night
I'll shine a light for you
Some where in the night
I'll be standing by
I will be here for you
I will be here for you

-andri-

.: Reign :.

2009-05-17T23:30:00.006+08:00

I was living in guilt..

for all my sins..
for all my disguise..
for all my disobedience..

hypocrite..
poseur..
and fake..

still I was..
few minutes ago..

tick.. tick..
the clock, it's ticking..

if only it stops;
let me dwell in my thoughts..

but it does not;
so please turn your head..

look at me..
i'm no longer i was..

as I turn the new pages,
I learn something not new..

we live by grace..
we live in grace...

not by condemnation..
not in guilt..

i am destined.. to reign..
so, reign.. I will..

-andri-
tribute to Joseph Prince, author of "Destined to Reign"

.: all out.. :.

2009-05-01T16:56:00.003+08:00

ga terasa.. 1.5 bulan gua abandoned nich blog....
rasanya cepet bgt waktu berlalunya....

within the last 1 month ini bener2 waktu yg berat bgt buat gua..... :(
baru pertama kalinya seumur hidup gua, gua ga bs kontrol waktu gua dengan baik n pada akhirnya cukup berantakan n jg muncul kesalahpahaman... apalagi ama temen2 gua...

kalo boleh flash back, kita kembali ke bulan desember.... di mana gua disuru client untuk ngumpulin 1 preliminary report tepatnya sebelum tgl 24 December 2008.. n untuk ngejaga reputasi gua ngerjain mati2an, ampe OT bbrp hari itu ga tanggung2 tiap ari dari jam 8.30-22.00.. bahkan sabtu masuk pula... n sesuai harapan tgl 23 December 2008 report kekumpul..

bos senang, gua jg senang.. tp ternyata itu awal dari penderitaan.... bayangkan gua dah kumpulin dr tgl 23 December, gua telp org client n mereka claim dah dapet report... tp baru tgl 14 January mereka bilang kalo gua disuru kumpulin 3 set lg sesuai dgn kontrak.........

"knapa mereka baru bilang skrg..... gua dah kumpulin dr bbrp minggu lalu, n mereka baru bilang skrg..."

n parahnya, mereka nganggap gua kumpulin tgl 14 January... ampe gua kesel, gua bilang gua dah kumpulin dr tgl 23 December...!

ok, akhirnya itu settled.... gua kumpulin lg n gua expect comment balik dr mereka, apa2 yg perlu dibetulin dr report itu.....

1 bulan berlalu... tidak ada kabar....
gua telp client, dia bilang "oh, masi dalam proses.." (padahal report gua itu cumen less than 40 pages excluding gambar)

akhirnya bulan February akhir mereka balik dgn comment, n comment2 mereka not critical.. bener2 simple..

so dengan cepat, gua kumpulin lg reportnya awal Maret..

gua kira bagian gua dah selesai, jadi gua bisa fokus di tempat lain... krn jujurnya gua bener2 involved di banyak meeting n gua blom experience dlm bidang ini.. so far, dalam 5 bulan terakhir, gua dah datengin kira2 15 meeting dgn government agencies..

n baru 1 bulan lalu, bosnya client gua bilang apa yg gua kerjain DITOLAK..

ha?! maksudnya apaan?! gua dah diskusiin ama client n mereka ok2 aja.. malah gua kena semprot.... n lebih kerennya lagi, client gua diem2 aja, ga berusaha bantuin gua.. great...

jujur, gua kesel bgt, ternyata banyak bgt pressurenya n banyak bgt politiknya.. ini nich dunia kerja? it sucks then... apanya yg menarik?! kalo setiap org cumen pengen enaknya sendiri n ngelempar2 kerjaan ke org lain..

n dalam 1 bulan terakhir gua bener2 frustasi, krn jadwal gua berantakan abis... gua mesti ulang dari awal, n lebih parahnya lg internally dalam kantor gua, semua org baru aware kalo mereka "membutuhkan" gua.. (ga bs jelasin lebih detail) tapi kalo mau jujurnya, it really sucks.. ga ada planning ama skali..

n dalam 1 bulan terakhir ini, gua dah terlanjur bilang gua bakal bantu aktifitas lain.. Bible Camp n juga bantuin buat video sweetseventeen buat ade-nya Ricci.. gua sebenernya enjoy bgt buat ngerjain 2 hal itu provided kerjaan gua jg beres..

ditambah lg ada hal2 lain yg personal.. membuat gua bener2 kebingungan.. salah satu bos gua notice kalo gua bener2 lost.. n gua mulai frustrated.. bos gua bilang wajar, krn gua overloaded.. n gua bener2 relieved at least ada org yg nyadar..

kerjaan ga bener, mesti selesai bible camp games dalam 1 bulan, ngerjain video buat ultah, n wkt itu nyokap jg dateng 1 minggu, bu Susi jg dateng wkt itu.. satu persatu gua coba jadwal-in... gua bikin planning... gua dah perhitungin waktu OT gua kira2 gimana..

jadi sich, tp ga jalan.. gua ga bs OT kebanyakan.. bbrp kali OT, tp lama2 ga kuat atopun ga bs krn ada meeting BC.. gua bener2 kecapekan n ga bs mikir dengan jernih.. n semua org seperti mencari2 gua krn hal yg blom selesai gua kerjain...

kata2 jelek seperti "F" n "S" keluar lagi dari mulut gua semenjak gua bekerja.. padahal gua dah quit ngomongin kata2 itu sejak SMA... somehow gua ga bs tahan mulut gua untuk ngomong kata2 itu, tp di satu sisi lain, setiap kali gua ngomong kata itu gua tau kalo gua nyesel bgt...

salah satu kelemahan gua itu gua mikir terlalu lama.. gua komplain terlalu banyak....

puncaknya itu sekitar 2 minggu lalu, ketika gua disuru present apa yg dah gua kerjain n ditolak.. sakit.. krn gua present di depan banyak bos khususnya bos tingginya client.. jd usaha gua selama 5 bulan blkngan sia2.. :(

gua mesti ulang lg dalam waktu cumen 2 minggu.. krn dalam waktu 2 minggu itu gua disuru present lg (which is kemarin) gua kebut2 tp ga bs OT krn mesti ngerjain video editing n bible camp jg.. diperparah lg, drafter gua on leave selama seminggu.. jadi gua bener2 jadi konsultan client (engineer) dan jg pemikir (designer) dan jg drafter (penggambar).. 3 in 1.. wew...

n pas hari kamis minggu lalu, akhirnya gua memutuskan kalo gua ga bs begini terus.. gua mengundurkan diri dari Bible Camp committees (krn ampir semua dah settled, n ga bs kalo tim games cumen bergantung ke gua semua.. gua bener2 kecapekan).. jadi gua bs fokus ke kerjaan n video editing..

hari sabtu officially gua terakhir ngebantuin tim komiti bible camp.. bantu try out games-nya di East Coast dari jam 9 pagi ampe jam 3 siang.. sunburnt langsung.. trus langsung ikut youth service ampe malem.. kecapekan abis.. diperparah lagi tiba2 temen gereja bilang ke gua last minute "Dri, bsk pagi (minggu) dtng jam 7.30 bantuin kebaktian umum"

"HA?!!" gua kaget lha.. apaan tiba2 langsung suru dateng ke Orchard jam 7.30!!! ternyata kebaktian umum butuh org buat bantuin setting up sound system n dll.. jujurnya gua kecewa bgt hari itu ama tim gereja... gua kesel krn mereka selaluuuuu last minute!! gua ga kesel ama Tuhan.. tp gua kecewa ama org2nya, to be frank... gua bukan menjelekkan sapa2, tp bbrp org dengan asal menggunakan nama Tuhan untuk kepentingan mereka sendiri.... mereka ga melihat situasi org2 sekitarnya.. di kasus ini, ya, gua.. mereka asal2an aja suru anak2 youth bantuin umum... n lebih parahnya last minute...

gua dah berusaha nolak, tp temen gua ini maksa.. krn gua dah kecapekan ga bs mikir lg, dah gua bilang iya aja.. tp bsk paginya gua ga dateng n sms gua bener2 kecapekan.. n koko gua tau dengan jelas gua bener2 kecapekan, bukan asal ngomong doank!! hari minggu itu gua bener2 edit video, tp bodohnya gua ga selesai2.. terlalu banyak mikir.. salah dikit, ubah lagi..

akhirnya hari itu ga selesai video editing.. padahal dah chatting2 ama adenya Ricci n bilang gua selesain hari minggu.. :( ampe gua ga enak.. dia jg ga enak takut ngerepotin.. tp gua sebenernya enjoy editing video n gua bilang gua ok2 aja.. emang bener2 seru sebenernya... but quite time consuming..

hari senin kerja seperti biasa... pulang2 dah jam 8.30 malem.. dah kecapekan luar biasa.. edit video lg... ampe jam 2.30 pagi.. gua send ke Ricci buat dicomment.. trus gua tidur n kebangun jam 6 pagi krn gua tegang bgt.. presentasi hari kamis, tp gua belom selesai apa2.. gua bener2 panik krn presentasinya dihadirin petinggi2...

hari selasa itu, kerja ampe mati2an.. selesain sebisa gua krn rabu-nya gua ada 4 meeting dalam sehari.. n bagusnya lg 2 meeting itu last minute baru dikasi tau-nya (hari selasa sore dikasi taunya).. good.... gua ada company dinner krn salah satu colleague ada yg mau retired.. gua makan banyak hari itu krn terlalu stress mungkin.. XD akhirnya baru nyampe rumah jam 9.15... n gua tanya Ricci ada comment ga ttg videonya..

Ricci comment ini-itu.. sebeenrnya ga terlalu banyak, cukup straightforward.. apalagi Ricci bantuin ide utama videonya which was really helpful.. (thx, Ci!! :D ) tp ntah napa hari itu gua lg bener2 kesel n ditambah lg pas gua lg betulin videonya, langsung muncul banyak error yg unexpectedly happened.. tiba2 lidah gua ke-slip intinya gua bilang "banyak bgt!!!" dengan nada dah stress abis.. koko gua denger n dia telp Ricci n ngomong2 yg intinya bilang "udahlah, videonya apa adanya aja.. kasian si Andri.." mereka ngomong lama, tp gua ga gt denger mereka ngomong apa....

pas gua ada pertanyaan buat Ricci n ngomong ke Ricci lewat telp, dia terdengar kyk baru abis nangis.. pas gua tanya koko gua Ricci nangis gara2 video, dia bilang iya.. di saat itu gua bener2 nyesel.. bodohnya gua...... :( gua terlalu banyak komplain.. bad habit gua.. padahal Ricci dah bantuin mati2an buat video ini.. bantuin sebisa dia buat meringankan beban gua.. tp in the end gua cumen bs komplain.. gua langsung bilang ke dia lewat msn kalo gua bener2 sorry.. gua ga bener2 mean apa yg gua komplain.. gua bilangin kalo tiba2 ada banyak error pas gua edit n itu yg bikin gua bete.. dia bilang kalo gua ngerasa dia dah inconsiderate, bilangin dia.. gua bilang ngga koq.. n dalam hati gua "u did ur best to help me n ur sister.."

To Ricci, sorry, ci.. gua bener2 ga mean it.. dari awal emang gua yg salah, ga ada planning....

hari rabu.. gua ga sempet nyentuh kerjaan gua krn gua bener2 meeting 4 kali sehari.. basically gua spend the whole day buat meeting ampe2 gua ga lunch.. meeting keempat gua dah ga bs mikir krn kelaparan.. ampe2 client dah ngeliat gua lemes abis.. akhirnya mereka call it the day for the meeting.. temen gua jg dah sadar kalo gua ngomong ceplas-ceplos ga pake mikir... pas mau pulang, tiba2 koko telp "Dri, bsk pagi kita mesti urus......, bla, bla.. so bisa ga loe ambil time-off 2 jam-an buat urus ini -itu?"

"HA??!?!!" gua shock dengernya.. di MRT gitu.. gua dah ga tau mau ngomong apa lagi.. gua cumen bilang ke koko gua kalo kerjaan gua sama skali belom selesai, ko...... n presentasinya jam 2 siang.. gua dah pasrah berharap koko gua ngerti n postpone urusan itu.... tp koko gua bilang bsk itu deadline-nya.. gua dah ga tau mau ngomong apa..... gua stress bgt...... baru pertama kali seumur hidup kayak begini...pulang2, gua masi editin dikit video Ella, adenya Ricci.. krn ada sedikit error.. selesai2 itu jam 12.30 pagi gua ga tau mau ngapain lagi......... akhirnya gua tidur..... n kebangun lg jam 6 pagi... akhirnya gua putusin ngerjain apapun yg gua bisa buat presentasi di rumah dulu... setelah itu mandi n pergi ama koko nyelesain urusan itu...

ga disangka.. 2 jam timeoff gua ga cukup!!! jam 10.30 gua masi ada di 1 tempat.. padahal mesti ke tempat lain jg.. n timeoff gua cumen ampe jam 11!!!! gua dah pasrah n bilang ke koko gua "ya udahlah, gua kena semprot palingan... :(" jujurnya jantung gua deg-deg-an krn ga ada 1 pun presentation slide-nya dah gua bikin.. bayangkan.....

gua akhirnya telp colleague gua n bilang so sorry gua bakal ambil half day.. trus gua berharap minta bantuan dia bikinin slides-nya, tp somehow ga bs krn ga ketemu file-nya... gua dah stress abis...................

tapi tiba2 temen gua itu bilang "eh, Dri, presentasinya diundur jam 3.."

gua kaget.. "ha?! yg bener?!" bener... diundur ampe jam 3 presentasinya...

akhirnya gua n koko gua selesain urusan kita ampe jam 12.30PM yg seharusnya lunch break gua.. gua kebut dr choa chu kang ke redhill naek taxi!! jam 1PM sampe kebut ke kantor nyalain kompie, bikin slides ampe jam 2PM.. dah cumen asal masukin gambar.. trus fotokopi dokumen2 yg bs dikasi liat ke bos2 itu.. pas 2.30PM selesai.. langsung cabut ke kantor client.....

presentation time............

gua present2.. gua cumen present 1/2 jam... ngomong dah asal2an (krn bener2 ga ada persiapan) yg penting point2nya aja gua deliver.. eh ternyata tuch bos2 client senang dgn presentasinye...

"HA?!" dalam hati gua... mungkin lg holiday mood.. XD

but i really thank God.. for everything.. n thanks buat koko gua yg dah ingetin gua buat doa sbelom present.. it's another miracle.. kalo presentasinya ga diundur jam 3, ntah apa yg terjadi.. but somehow miracle happens n diundur jam 3... padahal itu meeting setiap minggu-nya dah fixed jam 2 siang................. don't u think it's miracle??

kerjaan gua masi banyak sich sebenernya... n pas di taxi bos (bos ga langsung gua) gua tanya "Dri, how do u cope with ur work?"
gua bilang.. "well, it's a bit tough for me (sbeenernya tough bgt buat gua.. XD)"
n dr conversation kita, dia baru tau kalo gua single fighter, maksudnya gua yg mikir, ngerjain n meeting agencies n client... jd sebenernya ga ada waktu buat gua kerja properly...

gua cumen mau apologize ke bbrp org:
1. Koko n Ricci : seharusnya ga perlu ada a little quarrel buat videonya..

2. Ella : sori ya, ga sesuai schedule.. i did my best n mungkin standardnya masi di bawah expectation.. sorry for that, knowing that ur sweetseventeen birthday will be only once in a lifetime.. :(

3. Nathan, Tirza n tim Bible Camp : sori, gua bener2 messed up everything.....

4. Gheko : sori, ghe.. gua tau loe kecewa bgt ama gua, tp gua bener2 kecapekan.. u should understand my situation..

5. God : maaf...... i disappointed you again n again........ thank You for being there with me..

-andri-

.: Last Hope.. :.

2009-03-15T23:57:00.002+08:00

to act as if nothing happened..
it's tough..

isn't it too late?
to get the life back..
and to get the angel back..
into the heart..

for i am cryptic,
nothing is revealed..

-andri-

.: that piece of crap :.

2009-03-08T23:24:00.002+08:00

because of this crap..
they kill...
they lie...
they cheat...

because of this paper..
we're hurt...
we're crying...
we're saddened...

because of its power...
i groan...
i mumble...
i curse...

life isn't like what i've seen on dream..
it was beauty..
peaceful..

unlike here..
not even one flower, but thorn..
that it's into you..
and make u bleed.. of tears..

forgive me..
forgive them..

i love that moments..
do you?

for you...
are we strangers?
are we just another people?

is it because of money?

same thing all over again..
it's all about the money..

how pathetic..

-andri-
i pity you for the way you think of life..

.: Be Realistic.. :.

2009-03-05T23:53:00.002+08:00

maaf, kalo pada postingan sebelumnya gua menduga kalo David mungkin ga punya temen baik.. i shouldn't say that.. it just created another speculations..

for you all guys, please don't just speak out your own speculation without any supporting evidence..

i've seen them in many forum of discussions.. those meaningless speculations.. they are just too imaginative, i guess...

one of my friend called me in msn and asked whether i have ever engaged or had a friend whose profession is a lawyer... asalkan ada bukti2 kuat yg bener2 bs mendukung, go ahead.. tp kalo cuma didasari emotional feeling ato rasa ketidakpercayaan "kalau David ga bunuh diri", gua ngerasa itu ga cukup ama skali.. n gua tau temen gua ini dah lg ngumpulin bukti tapi sampe saat ini, banyak kejanggalan jg dari buktinya.. (kontek gua aja kalo mau.. kejanggalan apa aja yg ada di bukti itu.. gua ga mau create another disputes.. i've seen enough of them..)

well, ga mau comment banyak, gua doain moga2 masalah ini bisa selesai.. tentunya dengan kebenaran n keadilan..

again, be realistic..

-andri-

.: Rain Made It Perfect.. :.

2009-03-02T21:57:00.006+08:00

gua yakin ini udah menjadi berita gempar ga hanya di spore, tp juga di indo.. :(

one of our friend, David Hartono Widjaja, has just passed away...

sejujurnya, gua ga kenal siapa David ini.. tp gua ingat dengan jelas kira2 pas gua masi 2nd year, gua ikt tanding CS and he was there as one of the event committee.. gua cumen tau kalo dia dr SMUKI jg n as far as i'm concerned dia kynya pernah ikt smuki dinner tp gua ga kenalan sich ama dia..

but, ntah napa somehow, ini bener2 mengejutkan gua.. shock.. td siang pas abis lunch n mau balik kantor, tiba2 temen gua telp

"Eh, loe dah denger blom? si Ming2.................abis tusuk professor.. Ming2 dulu bekas anak SMUKI jg...."

gua ga gt denger jelas krn lg di lift n pas dia bilang lg si Ming2 bunuh diri, gua spontan teriak ampe koko gua n colleagues gua kaget.. n gua bilang ke mereka kalo ada junior gua yg meninggal...... :(

ari ini gua ga bs konsen kerja.. padahal kerja menumpuk n bsk ada progress meeting (big meeting ama client beserta consultant2 laennya....) n progress gua somehow ga banyak... tp ntah napa gua cumen bs bengong n shock..

gua awalnya masi ga percaya kalo itu ming2.. gua kasi tau guru gua, bu Susi, ttg ini n akhirnya jelas.. emang Ming2 orangnya..... so tragic.. n bu Susi bilang dia merasa gagal buat membekali anaknya.. n dia minta senior2 ky gua buat perhatiin junior2 yg di spore..

satu, gua ga setuju pas dia bilang dia gagal... gua ga bermaksud jahat ato sadis ato gimana.. tapi Ming2 bukan anak kecil berumur 7 tahun yg ga ngerti ttg hidup... he's a 22 year old man (seumuran gua) yang menurut gua dah bs menentukan pilihan sendiri.. gua ga bermaksud terlihat keren ato sok cool ato gimana, tp gua tau kalo bu Susi udah membina dia semaksimal mungkin n ga ada perbedaan cara how she treats each of her students.. tp mungkin Ming2 ga bs cope dgn pressure yg ada yang mana bu Susi can't do anything about it.. it's beyond her control.. and it's up to Ming2's decision to resolve it..

dua, dipikir2 bener juga, khususnya untuk gua yg ga gt kenal junior2.. yg terlihat cocky aka sombong, yg terlihat cuek tp emang bener2 cuek.. yup, senior2 yg kurang perhatian sich ke junior2nya.. kalo mau ditrace back, sebenernya ada hubungannya jg dengan tragedi ini... :(

tiga, gua bener2 semakin berpikir that

"death is so REAL and life is fake.."
(if you understand what i mean..)

gua tadi ngobrol2 ama koko gua.. gua ga mau ngejudge sich, tp menurut opini gua sistem dunia ini ada yg salah.. ntah itu sistem ekonomi dunia, sistem politik dunia, sistem pendidikan dunia, sistem kesehatan dunia, bla2.. intinya: men are so selfish, greedy and mean..

sapa sich yg mau stress..... tp itu ga bs diavoid krn tuntutan manusia yang semakin tinggi.. n bbrp manusia ga bs cope dgn pressure ini resulting in inappropriate acts..

gua hanya bingung... knapa MANUSIA itu kejam........ :(
knapa begitu mudahnya MANUSIA membunuh MANUSIA lain... :(

peristiwa ini bener2 membuka mata gua untuk kesekian kalinya.. n i found a truth about myself.. that honestly speaking i'm scared of death.. i'm still shivering here.. u may call me kiasi.. tp bener2, dalam hidup gua, gua "blom ngapa2in"..

terakhir, ntah benar atau ngga, menurut dugaan gua, Ming2 ga bener2 punya temen deket yang dia bs ajak curhat atopun kluarin unek2.. he always bear it within himself sampai tahap di mana emosi dia ga stabil n ga bs dikontrol lg.. ini bukan salah fyp, tp dia ga punya tempat di mana dia bs salurin emosi dia.. krn masi banyak hal di dunia ini yg lebih sadis daripada fyp.. fyp itu ga membunuh...

sepengetahuan gua, dia maniak games khususnya DOTA atopun WOW.. dulu gua pernah maen bareng dia DOTA.. but that's it.. itu urusan dunia maya.. beda halnya dengan dunia nyata.. he needed someone, he needed friends.. best friends... whom he could talk with...

krn DOTA itu cuma fantasi n dunia ini cuma fana.. hal yg sebenarnya terjadi itu adalah apa yang akan dihadapi Ming2 saat ini.. so, let us pray together for him though he's no longer with us.. pray the best for him..

now i know how invaluable a best friend is...

ini adalah kali kedua gua kehilangan teman sebaya yg at least gua tau n atopun kenal.. pertama kalinya kehilangan temen SMP yg dulu gua kenal deket bgt.... he died tragically.. n now comes the second one.. even more tragic.. both of them shocked me to the high extent.. :(

anyway, rest in peace, Ming2..
and my deepest condolences to his family n friends..

-andri-
never imagine that today could be a gloomy day.. and rain just made it looked even perfect..

.: So Funny... :.

2009-02-21T02:03:00.003+08:00

so..... let's fight against any racism..... and for love.. XD

-andri-

.: This Statement.... :.

2009-02-14T07:34:00.008+08:00

"Valentine's Day berasal dari negara-negara Barat. Saya serukan muslim untuk tidak meniru umat Kristen," kata pendakwah Sheikh Hassan Hamid dalam statemen seperti dilansir kantor berita Reuters, Jumat (13/2/2009).

detail lengkap di sini.

just some short comments on the above statement..

Pertama, ada atau ngga-nya hari Valentine, ga akan mengubah banyak hal.. kalau karena masalah penjualan (maaf) alat kontrasepsi ataupun angka seks bebas meningkat, yang jadi masalah itu orang-orangnya.. cara berpikir orang-orang yang dikekang banyak sekali peraturan yang ekstrim namun tanpa mereka mengerti mengapa peraturan itu ada... ilustrasinya seperti seorang manusia yang dikekang semakin keras, semakin dia ingin melepaskan diri; apalagi dia melihat manusia lain yang bisa berjalan sebebas-bebasnya, dia juga ingin sebebas orang itu karena belum pernah merasakan itu..

Kedua, FOR YOUR INFORMATION, Valentine's Day memang diambil dari nama orang Katholik, tapi ga ada satu katapun di dalam Bible berbicara tentang 14 February adalah Valentine's Day.. bahkan untuk Christmas sekalipun.. lagipula, awalnya Valentine's Day itu bukan dirayakan sebagai hari bermesra-mesraan, tapi lebih kepada mengenang kehidupan para martyrs, that's all.. so, in fact ga ada hubungannya dengan ajaran Kristiani.. please, jgn memulai suatu statement tanpa berpikir dulu... :( mending cari infonya di wikipedia dulu, baru ngomong..

Ketiga, please don't burn the oil...

-andri-
disappointed with these people who talk without think first..

.: life is so tough... for some people... and for me too... :.

2009-02-11T22:54:00.008+08:00

ketika kita masih kecil, kita ngerasa hidup indah bgt.. kerjaannya tiap ari cumen maen, tidur, makan.. satu-satunya hal yg dulu gua ga demen ya cumen belajar.. dulu wkt kecil gua mikir "napa ye mesti belajar!!"

trus semakin kita gede, semakin banyak kenyataan yg kita makin ngerti.. hidup itu ga sekadar maen, tidur, makan, atopun belajar... ada lebih banyak lg....

dr kecil, gua dikasi makan teratur ama ortu.. gua bs tidur pake ac.. naek mobil ke skul.. ada mbak yg nyuciin baju, bersihin rumah, bla2.. hidup enak........ life seemed so perfect..

gua bersyukur gua bs dikirim ke spore buat bljr.. di sini gua bener2 bljr hal2 yg ga bs dipelajarin di skul.. mulai dari hidup mandiri ampe skrg gua bs cari duit sendiri.. tp gua bs cari duit skrg pun itu ada kontribusi yg gede dari bonyok gua.. gua disekolahin di skul yg baik....

tp ga semua org itu bs hidup berkecukupan ky gua... ada yg lebih (tajir maksudnya) tapi ada jg yg kurang (melarat aka miskin..)

hari ini cukup melelahkan bagi gua.. pagi kerja ampe malem.. jam 7.45 baru balik dr kantor krn ada hal yg perlu diberesin..

i tot it would be just another evening like previous days.. kerjaan gua kalo abis pulang kantor yaaa....... mandi, makan sambil ntn, maen WE... what a boring life, isn't it.. it's too contradictive as compared to my favourite motto of life: live your life.... haizzzz..

tp pas gua lg tabao makanan n minuman buat dibawa balik, gua ketemu pembantu tetangga gua.. sebut aja namanya A.. kebetulan dia org indo jg.. sering say hi2 kalo ketemu, tp jarang ngobrol..

dia ini awalnya kenal koko gua n intinya dia jg percaya Tuhan Yesus.. jd kadang2 kalo dia lg butuh bacaan renungan pagi, dia approach koko gua ato gua buat minta renungan dari gereja gua..

n bbrp wkt lalu gua baru tau kalo dia didiagnosa kena tumor payudara... seharusnya menurut hukumnya singapore ttg manpower, dia harus dideportasi balik ke indo buat pengobatan.. tp sang majikan ga ngizinin dia balik dengan alasan blom ketemu penggantinya.. gua sebenernya kenal majikannya jg sich.. majikannya terlihat baikkk bgt.. kadang2 sering ngasi makanan n bahkan angbao pas lg xinjia.. tp kalo kata si A majikannya agak keras perawakannya n galak..

ceritanya hari ini gua ketemu di depan lift n ngobrol bentar ama dia.. intinya dia sebenernya bilang dia ga mau pulang kampung dulu gara2 malu ama ortunya soalnya dia ga bs bawa apa2.. uang pun ga ada, krn dia blom kerja minimal 9 bulan di tempat majikannya, jd ga bs dapet gaji.. ditambah lg penyakit tumornya.. n dia sich pengennya ke jakarta buat cari duit dulu.. dia ceritain sich rencana dia.. tp intinya gua tau dia ga punya cukup duit buat balik bahkan ke jakarta..

gua bilang balik aja ke tempat bonyok, krn bonyoknya dia pasti kuatirin dia, tp dia bilang ga mau trus, ampe matanya dah agak merah.. kasian jg gua ngeliat dia.. but again gua emang bodoh.. diem aja tanpa solusi..

dia bilang lg kalo emang dah rencana Tuhan, yah jalanin aja.. bahkan buat tumornya.. n mata dia dah lebih berkaca2 lg..

i really pity her.. di 1 sisi kesehatan dia lg ga baik.. di 1 sisi lg dia pengen nyenengin ortu dia, tp ga bs gara2 disuru balik.. n di 1 sisi lg dia ga punya finansial yg memadai...

sedangkan gua, bahkan malem ini aja bs beli nasi goreng seafood (tanpa sotong sesuai request gua) n carrot juice pokka buat minumannya.. tp bagi si A buat dapetin gajinya aja susah bgt..

i'm blessed that i can get a very high education qualification that earns me a quite high salary.. but for her to earn a month of my salary, it requires her to work for 9 months... meskipun dia dapet makan dari majikannya, tp makanan ky apa sich yg bs dia dapet??

let's see what i can do.... moron like me has to think deeper that life can be so tough for some people.. to be honest, i never really treasure my life.. gua bukannya lg despo ato apapun itu.. tp gua bener2 seperti org bodoh yg kehilangan arah.. apa2an ini...... :(

akhir2 ini gua semakin emotional.. gampang kesel.. dah gt agak anti social (ini paling buruk).. gua semakin lama semakin lose contact ama temen2 gua..

my ex-boss (he just left the company) gua ampe suatu hari bilang

Boss: "Andri, are you extrovert or introvert?"

Andri: "mm.. i think i'm more to introvert one.. Why are you asking, Sir?"

Boss: "ya, i can see it.. you're introvert.. get along with other people.. socialize more.. don't spend your time by just playing games in your room.. hang out.. you can go to pub and drink. with your friends.... (contoh2nya salah sich... XD)"

you know what, i think i've changed a lot.. gua bener2 dah berubah.. i tot i could be a better man.. that was my resolution for 2008.. tp menjelang akhir 2008, gua ngerti gua semakin memburuk.... :(

di saat ada org2 yg berjuang mempertahankan hidup.. gua di sini menyia2kan hidup........ so i can say that actually my life is tougher than other's life.. because practically, i still don't understand what my life means to myself, family, others and God..

i've had enough of this.. i lost almost everything because of my own problem.. depressed but ignorant..

-andri-

.: That Every Three Seconds... :.

2009-02-10T23:26:00.001+08:00

-andri-

.: nobody's perfect.. :.

2009-02-04T22:12:00.003+08:00

just accept it...
nobody's perfect.....

i don't know what's wrong with that person..
but definitely he has made one of the biggest mistake in his life..
he will surely regret it..
though he's someone i'll never know..

deepest sympathy to my old buddy..
cheer up, bro!! your life doesn't end here..
longggg wayyy to goo...

nobody's perfect..
can't you realize it?

you..
me..
him..
her..

then.. i just don't understand what is inside this person's mind..
he's bad.. he's bad..
just see how fake he is, huh..
he thought he could be a better man...
in fact, it's the other way......
sigh..

-andri-
and this person is noone else but me......

.: Bunga Jiwaku :.

2009-02-01T23:11:00.003+08:00

Satu Kau Begitu Indah

Dua Kau Memang Menggoda

Tiga Kau Beri Harapan

Aku Jadi Tak Sabar

Langit Tak Begitu Gelap

Malam Menyenapkan Hasrat

Engkau Ada Disampingku

Jangan Diamkan Aku

***

Bawalah Aku Kedalam

Kedalam Hangat Dirimu

Bawalah Aku Kesana

Menari Dalam Pelukaan...mu

Dekap, Dekaplah Diriku

Dengarkankan Debaran Hati

Jangan Kau Ragukan Aku

Engkau Bunga Jiwaku

Back To ***

Hasrat semakin terbang

Melayang ke langit cinta

Andai sejauh itu

Kau inginkan diriku

Bukan ada untukmu

by Yovie & Nuno

-andri-

.: there was a time... :.

2009-01-15T22:53:00.003+08:00

there was a time...
i was so weak...
walk, walk, and walk,
but sweat, sweat and sweat..

there was a time...
i was so selfish...
think over myself,
then forgetting you..

there was a time...
i was so foolish...
wandering around,
waited for you outside..

there was a time...
i was so brainless...
went up for you,
to send you down..

there was a time...
i was so stupid...
i wasn't there,
when you really needed me..

and there was a time...
i was so fake...
loving you,
yet ignoring you..

gomen...

-andri-

.: A Year Since Then... :.

2008-12-29T21:24:00.003+08:00

scrabble ihg is finally commenced this morning but this time i am no a player anymore.. a year since then...... i actually miss this moment a lot.. throughout my four years of my study, ihg would always be the best moment for me.. so excited about what happened there.. there was a laugh, a tear, an anger and a joy.. a simple function room to wrap all of these emotional feelings in two thrilling days.. i wish i could still play for this year....... it's not that i really want a gold medal.. in fact, it isn't important for me.. but it is always terrific to be there and play scrabble with other hall's players..

well, life must go on... i may not be a player anymore, but i still can be a loyal fans of hall 6 scrabble and boggle team.. :) in these two weeks i've been to hall 6 few times and i'm really happy to see those old and new faces.. this year's juniors are so interesting and finally after 2 years without having any reserve in our team, this year hall 6 scrabble team has more than enough players including reserves.. great..!!!

okay, today's ihg result definitely makes me jump off from my seat.. they won convincingly against other halls and i can say we are nearly 100% to go to semifinal tomorrow.. good job, guys.. now the new faces (juniors-red) have a feel of playing in ihg and all of them found scrabble ihg so interesting.. that's a good sign.. and that's the spirit, guys!! i'm sure we deserve to be the champion this year.. be confident and always remember that we play as a team not an individual.. none of you will bear higher responsibilities than others.. no, there's no such thing.. we win as a team and we lose as a team too.. jia you for tomorrow, guys!!

this year's training is a bit colorful compared to last year.. in the sense that there was a little bit of misunderstanding in the team.. let's say A and B who are the "main actors" in this case.. in summary, A once said something that couldn't be grasped by B.. as in, B didn't agree with what A had said.. and B claimed that A's words had insulted her feeling.. there was a little confrontation between both of them in front of juniors.. i wasn't in the scene that time.. but i did what i'm supposed to do as a senior.. with the help of PSC (my second mum), we made things clear that it was just a misunderstanding between those two.. A never really meant what he had said and he is more than willing to apologize to B and B admitted that she was wrong in the sense she shouldn't be so bad tempered at that time.. but it's okay.. i often see two of my friends quarrel over a small matter, but in the end they knew quarrel resulted in nothing and they even become close friends.. hope this happens to A and B too.. :)

this confrontation actually reminds me of how bad i was 2 years ago.. i was appointed as a scrabble captain of hall 6 and my main goal was to bring hall 6 to the ihg semifinal for the first time in last 6 years.. a tough job to do as we lost quite a number of good seniors without really producing potential juniors at that time.. i was quite happy when a guy namely Jing Lun came in to the scrabble training.. he actually was a scrabble manager with me at that time.. but that's all.. i only have me, Lian Di, Chong Fen, Herry and Jing Lun who were quite okay at that time.... our standard was really not good at that time..

i worsened the situation by going back to indonesia for 2 weeks and asking Lian Di to temporarily lead the training.. i came back to singapore around 1.5 week before the ihg started.. great... because we never really had a real training under my captaincy before.. i guessed everybody in the team started questioning who was the real captain.. is it Lian Di or me? on the first day i reached back singapore, Lian Di messaged me asking whether we could talk personally or not.. i yessed her and at that night i came to Lian Di and Chong Fen's room.. from our deep conversation, i started to realize i was wrong.. Chong Fen scolded me and told me i wasn't a good captain.. leaving the team behind, wandering what our scrabble team goal was.. Chong Fen questioned my commitment and asked me what actually being a captain is like...

i was speechless.. i know i was wrong.. i was supposed to never accept the captaincy offered by Lian Di if i knew things were as miserable as like that time.. i admitted to them i was wrong and i was willing to fix everything.. that was the first time i saw Derrick.. i felt even more guilty as Derrick just knew i was the captain and within the last 1 week i had to turn Derrick from zero to become something..

ihg then took place and for the first time in last 6 years we managed to enter semifinal.. but we lost to hall 3 4-1.. that hurt me a lot.. i ended up being so guilty eventhough we had reached our target.. but i just felt we could do more at least by being a finalist if only we trained more often.. i kept blaming myself for that.. and right after ihg ended and we went back to our hall, at that time i talked to PSC, Lian Di, and Herry that i would retire from scrabble, boggle and even i-chess ihg.. i couldn't withstand the ihg pressure and still i was blaming myself for what had happened.. i just lied to them that it was because i wanted to focus more on my study and fyp.. PSC asked me to further think about it..she said that i just couldn't leave juniors like that.. the juniors hadn't had enough experience yet to train the newcomers, herry wasn't really prepared yet at that time, Lian Di and Chong Fen were graduating that year.. left only me.. who was really the super senior of hall 6 scrabble team..

days by days, i finally decided to join scrabble n boggle team again, but this time would be different, i talked to myself. i would try as hard as i could to come down for every training session and teach all the juniors with what i had........ i proved it.. i really proved it.. despite my hell-busy time focusing on fyp, i turned up for almost all the training sessions.. i even increased my training portion to play more with Sudhanshu, a great friend of mine, at that time.

we reaped what we sowed..

silver scrabble and golden boggle...

but it could be even more this year......

golden scrabble and boggle?? who knows..... :)

-andri-
just wanna let know that people learn from their mistakes.. not all people, but most of them do..

.: Are We Accidentally Created? :.

2008-12-13T08:08:00.006+08:00

those intellect people calling themselves scientists started to think, "what or who created the earth? how about us, who created us, human?"

as time goes by, there were so many arguments, hypothesis and theories surfaced to tell people that we are actually "accidentally" created.....

why do i say so? just imagine this, take an example of the very famous Big Bang theory whereby at the very beginning there were two big stars, sun and another star, then this another star eventually broke into pieces and turned into what we call planets, asteroids and other little stars.. how about human? some biologist came out with hypothesis that there were one time a chemical reaction involving some hydrocarbon, oxygen and bla bla, and again eventually they mixed up together to form a single cell.. this single cell was a living cell which then kept growing, growing, growing, evolving, evolving, evolving starting from tiny bacterias into living creatures like animals, plants and human..

how if that another star never broke? how if that single cell was never formed? could the earth be formed by other means? could we still be alive then?

i guess nobody knows the reason why those accidental phenomenons could happen? well, then they just simply hide the "truth" behind "under research" curtain..

the word "fate" (aka nasib) then comes alive..

"ah, it's been my fate..", "nasib....",
as if you give up your life to something uncertain called this "fate"..

"ya, lah, it's been a fate that i'm born to the earth..",
as if you don't have purpose in your life..

are we something "accidentally" created...??

think about it again, guys.. i'm thinking about it too..

i give an illustration like this: have you ever thought that we are created so detail?

i want you to go in front of mirror and just take a look at your face.. eyes to see, nose to breathe, ears to listen, mouth to speak.. but the most important one is what are inside your body, heart, lungs, lever, brain.. am i right?

a beautiful slim person has more respect than an ugly fat person, but they never compare what cannot be sightly seen, inner beauty..

the morale illustration is that people tend to accept what they see rather than what they can't see.. it's the same when some conversations about God arise.. people tend to get them away of that topics.. they can't see God, then what to further discuss?

well, what i feel to be the truth until now is that yes, it is so true we can't see God by our eyes, but we can actually see the love of God and it's you, me, us.... we are not created by accident, but love.. His love..

-andri-

.: Happy Birthday, Bro..!! :.

2008-11-28T23:04:00.005+08:00

dedicated to my one and only brother

and today is the day.. Happy Birthday, Ko!! below is my bro and ricci's photo..

he's my idol.. really.. truly speaking, he's my idol.. of all people i've ever met in my life, i feel my brother is the most perfect man.. gentle, kind, friendly, easy-going, humorous, crispy-ous, good looking, polite, sporty, smart, diligent and a good example of a Christian.. i'm not exaggerating, but he's really like that..

one thing i am truly inspired by him is the change in his life from being an emotional guy in the past becoming a patient one.. i know he struggled much to depress his bad temper.. we were chatting at that time and he all of sudden asked me to remind him whenever he's getting angry.. he wanted to stop being a bad temper man.. and he did it..!! good job, bro.. good job.. :)

not a surprise anymore that he has lots of friends.. even he can easily get along with elderly such as his boss or even taxi drivers.. he's super duper friendly and sometimes a bit talkative, but that's good rather than being a quite one..

thanks bro for everything.. thanks for being the nicest and greatest bro in my life.. i'm really proud of you.. you're such a big blessing in my life..

we love you very much.. dad, mom me and your future wife, ricci, we do love you..

thanks for everything, mr. nice guy.. :)
thanks for always reminding me to stay close to God..
thanks for always praying for me whenever i have problems or fall sick..
thanks for being there for helping me whenever i'm in need of it..
thanks for being my elder brother.. if i were the elder brother of yours, i don't think i could be like you..

happy birthday..

-andri & family-

.: Just Wondering... :.

2008-11-25T21:01:00.002+08:00

fiuhh.. cape n ngantuk tiap kali pulang kerja.. pengen istirahat total kalo pulang kerja..

just few days ago, tepatnya ari minggu sich, salah satu temen bae gua dateng ke tempat gua buat ngobrol2.. dah lama jg ga ketemuan ama nich anak krn ada kesibukan masing2 jg.. n lumayan lha kami saling update 1 sama laen.. tp most of all sama2 aja keadaannya ky dulu2.. haha..

a good chat skaligus mengumbar kesepian setelah gua tinggal di luar ntu.. maklum, kalo dah kerja ato ada kegiatan masing2, dah susah ngumpulnya.. kami inti2nya ngobrol2 ttg kerjaan, idup n relationship.. relationship di sini ya biasa lha, cewe.. kebetulan kami masi sama2 jomblo jd bs bebas leluasa ngobrol2 sambil buka fs ato facebook.. XD

pas lg ngomongin relationship ini, gua nanyain dia 1 pertanyaan yg dah dari dulu gua wonder knapa begitu.. gua ga bermaksud ngeledek ato apapun, tp gua wonder napa ada cowo ato cewe yg cakeppp tp dia bs mencintai pasangannya yg mungkin biasa ato malah ga cakep ama skali.. pertanyaan gua emang aneh.....

trus temen gua jawab intinya ga masalah krn muka itu ga penting, tp yg penting dalemnya..

gua sebenernya dah tau jawabannya sich dari dulu2........

so, simple aja napa gua wondering, krn gua blom bs melihat inner beauty dari seseorang.. i dunno how..

ntah ini dah jadi kodratnya cowo ato bukan, tp setiap kali gua ngeliat ada lawan jenis yg cakep menurut selera gua, mata gua langsung buta buat yg lain.. haha.. mau ky gimana inner beautynya dia, gua berusaha memaksakan diri buat cocok2in aja.. n kalo gua dah dalam kondisi begitu, to be frank (bener2 jujur) kalo ada lawan jenis laen yg cumen pengen sekedar ngobrol atopun ada maksud lain ntah apapun itu, gua ky ga gt niat buat ngobrol ama mereka.. you may hate me, tp emang ini kenyataan n jadi salah satu dari banyak kelemahan gua.. stiap kali gitu, ujung2nya gua sadar.. gua salah.. n that's it.. left only the regret..

gua bener2 kagum ama mereka yg bs ngeliat inner beauty dr seseorang.. krn emang bener kalo dipikir pake logic, hubungan yg cumen ngeliat bentuk fisik will quickly last.. krn fisik, sooner or later, will fade, but inner beauty won't..

mungkin itu yg jd salah satu kelebihan org ga bs liat alias buta (no offense, tp menurut gua sich ini bener2 kelebihan), mereka bs lebih bs mengerti inner beauty dari seseorang tanpa harus melihat bentuk fisik mereka gimana..

cos there are still some people out there that feel the essence of physical beautiness is everything in their life..

-andri-

.: Dreams :.

2008-11-20T22:45:00.012+08:00

surely it isn't insomnia or any other sleeping disorders.. i'm having some bad dreams and they wake me up from my deep sleep lately.. whether i sleep earlier or not on the day before, i must have been awake at 6 in the next morning.. and it really drives me crazy cos within the working hours i feel so tired..

actually, what is DREAM?

none in this world has ever described exactly what it is.. people are just presuming that dream is some kind of visualization of things that you've done / seen in the past mixed with any imaginary events you have thought / been thinking or longing for.. or one said that dream is actually the future that hasn't happened yet, but soon..

hope my dreams do not comply with the latter definition.. no, it can't be, for my case now.. and hope everything is 'alrighty'..

11 o'clock now and i'm already feeling sleepy.. another working day is waiting for me tomorrow and i'm still wondering what i have learned so far.. it's been almost 3 weeks, but i feel like learning nothing.. i can't apply what my colleagues have taught me and i'm like a braindead after having the longest holiday in my entire life.. that's the adverse effect of having long time break.. hehe..

that's all for my post today.. nothing much, but wishing that my dreams are just dreams.. i can't tell what i've been dreaming, but they're really bad ones.. just forget them and focus on tomorrow..

while those fellows who are still studying are going to have their holiday, i'm tied up with this daily habit: work, sleep, work, sleep.. XD don't make me envy, ah.. kalo liburan, jgn gangguin org yg lg kerja.. hehe.. jia you for your exams, guys n gals..

ah, hall 6, be prepared.. ivy asked me to come down to train you.. so, right after the exam period ends, we're gonna have intensive trainings for scrabble & boggle.. i won't be coming often, but i'll make sure everything is on the right path.. hoho.. getting old liao, forget all the strange words already.. (singlish gua makin kental gara2 di kantor.. wakaka..)

ending nich post ga nyambung.. ciao..

-andri-

.: Work, work and work.. :.

2008-11-15T20:39:00.006+08:00

udah tepat 2 minggu gua mulai bekerja..

nama perusahaan gua T.Y. Lin International Pte Ltd.. perusahaan MNC asal amrik ini dealing ama building services.. perusahaan ini sebenernya hasil merge dari 2 company, T.Y Lin International (bagian Civil and Structure) & PCR Consulting Firm (bagian Mechanical & Electrical).. jadi sebenernya gua itu bagian dari PCR..

perusahaan ini sbenernya consultant berhubungan ama construction.. inti2nya kalo ada 1 grup client mau bangun property di spore, mereka harus membayar arsitek (buat design gedungnya), contractor (buat bangun gedungnya) n consultant (buat consult & minta izin ke pemerintah).. jadi consultant itu basically berhubungan ama pemerintah buat minta izin n jg ngejelasin hukum2 (code of practice) yg ada di spore ttg building services dan M&E..

bos gua org spore.. beda ama bos koko gua yg bule.. mm.. so far so good.. tp gua bener2 masih blank sich ttg kerjaan gua.. dikasi kerjaan ga gt susah tp banyak n gua ga gt tau cara kerjainnya.. ga jelas d.. ckckck.. wajar sich gua ga ngerti karena gua sendiri blom ada experience di bidang ini.. normally, org2 itu sebelom masuk ke any consulting firm, mereka biasanya kerja di perusahaan contractor dulu buat dapetin experience.. cumen kalo case gua, gua jump langsung ke consulting firm.. tp banyak jg org2 yg ky gua.. jadi mulai dari 0, but mereka bs cope dengan cepat.. so i know i'll be okay meski awal2nya gua kurang pd n merasa kanchiong2 pas ditanyain bos..

bos gua terlalu sibuk abis.. ngomongnya singkat n padat... bener2 pendek omongannya.. but on the other hand, gua salut di tengah kesibukan dia, dia masi mau ngajarin gua basic2 privately.. bener2 one on one.. typical orgnya cool abis.. ckckck.. gua pendiam, dia cool.. so lack of communication.. in this case, i must change.. gua mesti berubah.. setelah gua pikir2 2 taon terakhir gua bener2 berubah.. dulu gua pernah bilang gua pengen berubah jadi apa maunya gua.. it's really happening.. i shouldn't have said that.. ntah napa gua jd lebih dingin n sombong..

n ntah napa jg gua dah sadar, tp ga bs balik to the way i was.. slowly i want to change it back.. org2 di kantor kalo ngeliat gua n koko gua ky 180 derajat.. koko gua lumayan berisik tp friendly abis..while me, i'm so quiet and lacking of confidence.. gua harus bs get along with others..

kantornya enak.. lokasinya di Bukit Merah, Redhill.. quite near from my flat.. tp tiap pagi tetep harus bangun jam 6.30.. lebih enak masuk pagian daripada pulang maleman.. jadi kira2 jam 8 dah nyampe kantor.. i'm not alone.. bos gua lebih pagi.. XD dia biasa nyampe paling telat jam 8.. ckckck.. tp pulangnya cepet sich, jam 5.30.. kalo gua bs pulang jam 7 ato 8.. sebenernya mau pulang jam 6 bs sich, tp kalo di kamar jg ga ngapa2in.. mendingan diem di kantor baca2..org2 di kantor so far friendly2 abis.. i feel so welcome there.. tp sayang gua pendiem bgt.. harus lebih cerewet dikit..

i want to contribute more to this company.. kalo bs lebih cepet.. gua pengen ngerti apa yg sedang gua kerjain.. it could be tiring later, yet more interesting.. yosh.. mesti lebih rajin, berani, pede, keren, ganteng... eh dah keren n ganteng deng.. wakaka.. XD abis kbnykn pada pake kemeja panjang.. so mau ga mau d gua pake jg.. i'm getting to like shirt.. dulu gua ga demen pake kemeja.. panas.. tp akhir2 ini gara2 kerja, gua jd lebih demen pake kemeja.. looks cool..

n berbahagialah kalian yg masih skul, at least liburan kalian panjang.. kalo gua liat kalender singapore, total tanggal merah cumen 11 hari.. kalo ditotal ama MC n paid leave, yah kira2 27 hari d.. n weekend is like heavenly time for us.. haha..

glad i can work here.. i know i'll face some boring and tough times ahead coz life will never smoothly flow sometimes we need those bad times to teach us how to value good times, don't we?

-andri-

.: HK & Macau Trip :.

2008-10-30T18:38:00.027+08:00

bbrp ari lalu (23/10/2008) gua sekeluarga pergi vacation ke HK & Macau 5 hari 4 malem.. (4 hari 3 malem di HK & 1 hari 1 malem di Macau) akhirnya bs pergi jg ke HK setelah direncanain cukup lama.. tadinya mau pergi ke sono taon lalu, tp bonyok terlalu sibuk kerja.. n sebelom gua bener2 officially kerja (3/11/2008), bonyok akhirnya ngeluangin waktu buat liburan bareng2.. koko gua jg ambil cuti kerja.. and there we were at HK & Macau for the memorable 5 days & 4 nights.. :)

bener2 berkesan, ada enak n ga enaknya.. tp overally, gua suka bgt ama HK n Macau.. yah ini dia 5 hari 4 malem gua di negeri seberang sana..

Day 1 (23/10/2008)
kita berangkat dari Singapore ke HK dengan perjalanan selama kurang lebih 4 jam lewat terminal 3.. itu pertama kalinya gua ngeliat terminal 3 yg dah jadi, gua sangka ga ada airport yg sebagus di spore, but i was wrong.. hehe..

n kita nyampe di HK dah cukup sore.. naek Airport Express ke Kow Loon Island n taksi ke City View Hotel di daerah Yau Ma Tei (Kow Loon Island)..

di sana kita istirahat bentar, trus jalan2 ngeliat2 daerah sana.. bagus bgt night life di HK.. rame, tp keren.. padahal ga ada event apa2 hari itu, tp keren aja suasana kotanya..

abis itu kita cumen jalan2 abisin malem pertama di daerah Yau Ma Tei.. n istirahat buat hari kedua..

Day 2 (24/10/2008)
hari kedua kita semua bangun pagi.. ntah napa ga bs tidur lama2.. semua dah pada bangun jam 6-an gt.. mungkin terlalu excited pengen explore HK lebih lg.. sayang kan waktunya cumen buat ngorok.. hehe.. kita sebenernya pengen ke Hong Kong Island (itu daerah ramenya HK) n mesti naek ferry dari Kow Loon buat ke sana.. tp krn masi terlalu pagi bgt, kita jalan2 aja menuju ke ferry terminalnya.. kita singgah di Sogo dulu pagi2.. gile, gedungnya HK jauh lebih keren daripada di Singapore.. keren2 semua, infrastructurenya aneh2 tp unique n cool abis.. tata kotanya jg rapih bgt.. wew..

abis dari Sogo kita langsung ke daerah terminalnya lewat Avenue Stars di mana banyak bgt telapak2 tangan para aktor n artis HK dijiplak di lantainya n jg ada patung2 aneh2 yg bs difoto2in..

abis itu kita naek ferry menuju ke Central di Hong Kong Island

n tibalah di Central yg bener2 keren abis.. gedung2nya lebih keren lg daripada di Kow Loon.. wow........ dari sono kita menuju ke Madame Tussauds, itu tempat banyak patung2 lilin yg mirip seleb dunia.. tp jalannya cukup jauh n mesti mendaki ke atas gunung (ke daerah The Peak) cape, tp seru euy..

buat bs nyampe di The Peak (lokasi di mana Madame Tussauds berada), kita "harus" naek tram.. kalo naek tangga sendiri, mungkin bs bsk baru nyampenya.. haha.. tinggi abis soalnya.. bayangkan tram-nya aja jalan dengan kemiringan hampir 45 derajat!! wew..

n tibalah kita di Madame Tussauds, beli tiket n masuk ke sono.. wow.. fantastis.. patungnya bener2 mirip orgnya.. ukuran badan, muka n semuanya mirip.. bahkan ampe baju2nya.. ckckckck.. n ini dia patung2 yg kita isengin.. hehe..

i like this pic so much.. haha.. so funny, lha..

funny, aren't they? haha.. setelah itu, kita ke Sky Terrace.. itu sebenernya balkon atas dari Madame Tussauds.. di sana kita bs liat suasana kota Hong Kong kalo malem2.. bener2 keren abis..!! tp cukup dingin n windy bgt.. anginnya kenceng bgt..

abis dr sono kita jalan2 bentar, makan malem bareng di Jade Garden.. abis makan, kita balik ke City View Hotel lg n ga lama keluar lg, bonyok memulai shopping spree di pasar malem di daerah Mong Kok (deket ama hotel gua..) tp bonyok gua jg ga beli banyak sich, soalnya barang2nya jg gitu2 jg, ga ada yg unik2 bgt.. gua jg cumen beli 1 cincin doank n emang gua lg pengen beli aje.. kita cumen pengen liat2 aja suasananya gimana..

tp pas saat itu adalah saat terbete gua di HK.. org2nya sama sekali ga ada tata krama.. ga sopan n sering marah2 sendiri ky org stress.. menyedihkan ngeliatnya.. masa kita sekeluarga lg mau makan di 1 tempat, trus pelayannya dengan enaknya ngelempar buku menu ke meja.. anjrot.. pas gua liatin, tuch org diem langsung.. ampas.. (sori, a bit emotional..)

apalagi pas di pasar malem, gila tuch penjual2nya.. masang harga tinggi2.. cincin gua, gua beli dgn harga HK$30 ato setara dgn S$6.. tp tuch penjual awalnya masang harga HK$140 ato setara dgn S$28!! ancur.... untung aja gua tau harga pasaran cincin sebelomnya.. gileee... mesti pinter2 nawar, n gua bukan org yg jago nawar..

jadi ada 1 kali gua ke 1 toko ngeliat cincin yg gua suka.. trus gua ngomong pake bahasa mandarin yg amat terbatas.. gua bilang gua tertarik ama yg ini, harganya berapaan.. dia bilang 140.. gua bilang itu terlalu mahal, trus dia turunin jadi 120.. gua bilang terlalu mahal jg.. trus dia balik nanya gua maunya berapa n gua respon balik jawab 15 (kali2 aja dia mau..).. eh gua malah dimarahin n dicaci-maki.. bangkok.. haha.. dia bilang "ni zai zhi li you wen ti ha?!" ("di sini loe ada masalah ya?!" - sambil nunjuk2 kepala) anjrot.. kalo di spore n indo mana berani org2nya ky gitu.. gila tuch org.. gua sich senyum2 aja, dalam hati gua "loe tuch yg ada masalah.." n langsung jalan keluar aja daripada buang2 waktu di sono dengerin omongan ga jelas.. hehe..n trus balik ke kamar, n istirahat buat persiapan bsk yg jadi puncak acara.. hoho..

Day 3 (25/10/2008)
ini dia puncak acaranya.. kita pergi ke Macau yang merupakan bagian lain dari China.. fyi, Macau tadinya itu negara jajahan Portugal yg akhirnya balik ke China Main Island.. sama ky HK yg merupakan jajahan Inggris n akhirnya balik ke China jg.. makanya di Macau jgn heran kalo ada bbrp sign boards dalam bahasa Portugis.. kita naek ferry Cotaijet ke Macau..

n setibanya di Macau, gua kira koq Macau biasa aja y.. malahan jelek.. gua melihat ferry terminalnya ky bener2 ga ada apa2nya.. ky cumen temporary terminal gt.. cukup kecewa awalnya.. dari sana kita naek bus, dibawa ke Venetian Macao Hotel yg ada casino-nya yg famous abis di Asia..

gua bener2 shock ngeliat Venetian Macao Hotel.. gila... bener2 bagus.. gua ga pernah ngeliat bangunan segede n seindah itu.. i was speechless and stunned by the beauty of its design interior.. bener2 indah abis.. gaya Italia gitu ditulisnya.. wow.....

n setelah kita dapet kamar, kita langsung menuju ke kamar....... kartu kamar pun dislot n pintu terbuka......... woowwwww, kamarnya.... bener2 gede, luas, bagus, indah, mempesona, nyaman, sejuk, bersih, n segala macam kosa kata yg positif keluar dari mulut gua.. haha.. maklum anak kampung, ga pernah nginep di kamar hotel sebagus gitu.. bahkan WCnya lebih gede dari kamar gua di clementi.. ancur...... asli d, bagus bgt... gua ga menyangka sebagus itu.. betah gua di kamar itu.. wakakaka.. kalo dibandingin rate kamarnya, it's really worth it.. terbilang cukup murah untuk segitu... gileeee... nich foto2nya.. jgn ngiler y..

abis itu kita jalan2 ke daerah mall-nya.. fantastis, man!!! it's like i'm living in a dreamland!!! bener2 bener2 bener2 bagus.. khususnya daerah food courtnya.. credits to the architecs and designers of the building.. *clap2..

setelah itu kita jalan2 ngiterin toko2 n akhirnya kita memutuskan membiarkan bonyok gua naek Gondola (kapal dayungnya di Venice, Italy) biarin mereka merasakan bulan madu kedua.. hoho.. :D n pendayungnya pun luar biasa ramah n fun.. namanya Antonio dari Phillipines, tp dia bs ngomong mandarin.. padahal baru di Macau 1 taon-an.. keren jg.. sepanjang perjalanan di Gondola, gua ama engko gua foto2in n Antonio nyanyiin lagu2 Italy.. hehe.. bonyok gua sich ngomongnya biasa aja naek gituan, but deep inside their heart, i know they were enjoying it.. hehe..

abis itu kita beli souvenir di toko Gondola, engko gua beli boneka anjing yg bs nyanyi buat Ricci.. haha.. lucu abis itu boneka.. gua sich ga beli apa2.. bingung jg mau beli apa.. hehe.. gua cumen pengen nikmatin Macau.. bener2 bagus tempatnya.. n chiobu-nya banyak euy apalagi di toko Gondola.. XD (ups, maaf, naluri cowo mengalir.. haha..)

dari sono, kita pergi ke casino yg super duper besar.. casino yg di genting ga ada apa2nya.. ini bener2 gede abis.. cumen sayang, banyak yg ngerokok di sana n gua benci bgt org ngerokok.. n sayang jg kita ga bs foto casino-nya.. soalnya ga boleh.. dari casino kita balik kamar n tidur pulas di ranjang yg sangat empuk.. haha.. pules gua tidurnya.. padahal gua tidur duluan, tp bangun paling belakangan.. haha..

Day 4 (26/10/2008)
di hari keempat pagi2nya kita jalan2 lg sekitar mall.. karena emang Macau blom dibangun semua tanahnya.. cumen daerah Venetian Macao yg berkembang, makanya kita cumen di sono doank.. siangnya kita pulang balik ke Hong Kong Island, n dari sono kita pergi makan siang di floating restaurant (resto di atas laut), Jumbo.. bagus tuch resto.. unik n bener2 floating di atas laut tp pasti ada tiang pancangnya buat bikin kapal itu ga bergerak2..

dari ferry terminal, kita balik ke kamar buat istirahat n mandi.. ga lama abis itu, kita ke pasar malem yg laen lg.. kali ini org2nya jauh lebih ramah.. tp barang2 yg dijual beda ama yg pasar malem sebelomnya.. kita cumen beli jam weker n bbrp barang kecil.. setelah lama berjalan, kita balik ke kamar n istirahat menuju hari terakhir di HK...

Day 5 (27/10/2008)
yup, it was the last day in HK.. sedih jg, pengen lamaan di sono.. siang2 kita dah berangkat ke airport yg super duper bagus.. jauhhh lebih bagus drpd changi.. terminal 3 jg ga sebagus di HK.. salut2.. wew.. kita makan di Dim Sum-nya Maxim yg enak sbelom balik ke Singapore.. n bonyok gua belanja lg di airport n kita ampirrrr aja telat boarding.. ampe dipanggil2 ama petugas airline-nya.. haha.. kita ampe lari2.. seru juga.. haha..

ahh, back to reality.. selesai sudah liburan panjangggggggg gua.. next monday is my new journey of life.. i'm a working adult now.. :)

oh, ya, sebagian org2 nanya gua pergi ga ke Disneyland.. kan sayang dah di HK tp ga pergi.. bonyok ngajakin pergi sich, tp koko gua n gua tau kalo bonyok ga demen tempat2 ky theme park gt.. apalagi gua ama engko gua dah gede n emang ga gt demen ama permainan gt2an lagi.. so, kita memutuskan ga pergi ke sono buat buang2 waktu.. krn 1 hari ga bakal cukup buat maen2 di sono.. drpd ke Disneyland, gua sich lebih prefer tambah 1 hari lg di Macau.. XD

i'm deeply in love with Macau, man.. bener2 bagus.. n suatu saat gua pengen ke sono lagi.. i love everything about Macau.. :) kalo mau pergi liburan, gua bs rekomendasiin HK & Macau..... nice place to refresh your mind..

-andri-

.: 祝您生日快乐, 爸.. :.

2008-10-29T21:58:00.010+08:00

this posting is dedicated only to my dad..

and today is my dad's birthday.. :)

yeap, it's the pic of my father few days ago in Hong Kong..

to me, he's a role model for an ideal father.. he's nice, typical of a leader, firm and humorist.. he's not a good cook as my mother is, but he's a good eater (especially my mom's dishes).. XD

many people say that i really look like my father.. at first, i didn't find any similarities between us, but it was when i found my parents' wedding photos i finally notice the resemblance.. yeah, the young dad had the exactly same look as mine now.. haha, so i need not to worry how i'm going to look like when i'm getting older.. XD

one thing i really like about my dad is his hardworking habit.. you know what, his study qualification is only up to senior high school level.. he's even never finished the degree, i can say he's a drop out from senior high school.. it's quite reasonable because at that time he couldn't speak indonesian properly (he's a chinese race - hokkien speaking).. but guess what, he already started to earn money when he was still 9 years old at a plastic factory.. because our family at that time was really poor and moreover, my grandfather (akong) has 9 children to raise.. that's why the first 6 children were asked to work by akong.. but he never complains, that's what i admire from him..

recalling my past memories back, my bro and i (when we were still at the primary high school) always hid behind the stair wall in our house everytime my father came back from work.. then we suddenly jumped over to our dad's back as to surprise and welcome him home.. he liked that and he 'countered' our 'attack' by tickling our waist (sensitive area.. haha..)..

oh, ya, he's a good maths teacher to me.. he taught me how to learn maths when i was still in kindergarten n he always gave me lots of maths problems for me to solve.. that's when the first time i liked maths so much..

the same thing, i'm so thankful that i could enter NTU.. i think i've made him proud of me because of this.. but as compared to what he's done for me, it's actually nothing.. he always advises me to work hard even though we're not capable of doing it.. keep on trying and be confident (that's what i'm lacking of rite now...) yup, i will.. :)

thx, dad for everything.. and now i have grown up.. it's time to be a good child for you.. :)

pa, selamat ulang tahun
panjang umur ya..
jaga kesehatan..

we love you..

and she always loves you..

-anton & andri-

.: Amazed :.

2008-10-20T23:26:00.005+08:00

I'm truly amazed by this video.. credits to Louis (actually i don't know who he is) as the photographer of this video.. his photo-taking skill is definitely high level one.. the transition between the photos are also very good.. a great platform for me to learn how to deal with video editing.. everything is perfect including the storyline that is actually adapted from the Bible (story about the missing child).. good job.. two thumbs up for you, guys.. :)

-andri-
anyway, the story is so touching

.: So Here I Am... :.

2008-10-15T22:44:00.020+08:00

the bright sun brings me back the smile that i've left for so long..
yeah, unofficially i get a job..

unofficially? what do you mean?

just take a look back at my previous entry (here) about my last job interview.. indeed it was a very important job interview since i am applying for a job in my brother's company.. yes.. my brother's company.. it is a building consulting firm.. it deals with building services (contractor) and consultancies including m&e (mechanical and electrical), that is what i'm aiming to.. well, it's far far from what i initially intended to be (product designer), but the job in consulting firm is good enough.. i'm talking about the experience as well as the benefits although the pay, i can say, isn't really lucrative..

about the job interview, i haven't really told anybody what was happening.. so it went like this.. actually i prepared it quite well and read some books to give me an in-depth about the company profile and what they are doing.. on the interview day itself, two bosses turned to be my interviewer.. one is born singapore angmor who is no else but my bro's boss and the other one is the big boss of m&e.. frankly speaking, i was so nervous that time.. as compared to other previous interviews i had, this one made me trembling frequently.. thx God, since i prepared it well, i could encounter some questions thrown by them.. actually personally they are very nice individuals .. it might be due to the environment that made me so nervous (the room was quite cold and so silent).. they asked quite a lot of questions even ISO 14000 about the environmental management.. wow.. so technical, but thx God i could manage to explain it correctly.. :)

not sure whether i impressed them enough, but i felt satisfied for all the answers i'd spoken out to all the questions.. and i had the feeling that i would get a job in the following week, dunno why.. and yeap, it becomes real when the big boss told my bro that the company would be glad to hire me.. but it still needs to be processed (documentations) and it usually takes time.. and i haven't signed any contract yet (that's why i call it "unofficially").. i foresee that i will start working at the beginning of november.. so if i recall and count back, i'm having the longest holiday in my entire life so far.. it is almost 5 months off!! wow... XD

i admit that my bro surely brings an impact to the boss' decision whether he should hire me or not.. but i was there on the interview day not without any effort.. anyway, thx a lot to my bro!! :) he's surely a great bro and i will make him proud of his decision to recommend me for the job i'll get into..

respectfully, i would like to say a big thank you to all my friends who have helped me a lot during my job hunting and who have given me the support which i really needed.. :)

credits to some people whose name i write below:
Anton Setiawan, my parents, Christian Kwartila Chandra, Wiryani Muljo, Adrian Nugroho, Cahyadi Yefta, Darryl Andriyan Putra, Ivan Jeremiah Lukas, Danny Koh Shu Ming, and last but not least Mr. Roel Rethmeier.. really appreciate your kindness.. i come to know that there are still many kind people out there who are willing to help those who are in need.. :) (am i exaggerating too much?) XD

for others who always give the support and prayer, you guys (& gals) are great.. really thx.. :)

even for those who kept asking me if i had got the job.. yeah!! i got the job..!! now i can join the club (working adults club)!! thx for your concern.. :)

i just wanted to again say thx to Cahyadi Yefta as he has given me lots of enlightenment about how the real working life is.. it's the matter of true values or easiness that you are looking from the job.. and he wrote me some sentences that keep juggling in my head..

"And just give you a little piece of advice, please don't choose a job just because it's easy ok.. and don't quit or refuse just because it's hard. Choose because a better Andri will come forth by doing that job."

i'll remember that.. :)

so now i'm enjoying my last long holiday.. and looking forward to travel to Hong Kong next week along with my family.. great!! :)

-andri-
releasing stress and thoughts bit by bit..
i want to think nothing and noone else rite now... can i?

.: Time Never Heals :.

2008-10-08T09:09:00.009+08:00

yesterday i happened to attend my friend's graduation party.. he's my ISCF cell group leader in NTU.. he took a course about self development and i can see the difference in him after taking the course.. he wasn't a public speaking type of person.. i can say he's more or less like me, always feels nervous whenever dealing with any public speaking.. but yesterday i saw him winning over himself to encounter his fear.. he succeeds anyway.. congratz to you, bro! i never know he has this sense of humor after knowing him for 4 years.. haha.. good job! :)

and in other occasion, there was a lady who also took the same course as my friend.. and when she gave her testimonial about the changing in her life, she actually said something like this, "time will never heal the wound.."

many people said that as time goes by, soon or later, they will overcome the pain or wound they are suffering right now.. indeed, it's true that some people did it.. not sure whether you agree with me or not, but it's not the time that heals you, it's you yourself who take the initiative to get up for your life again.. time has always been the same ever since the universe was created.. it's always ticking and moving ahead of us.. the only difference is that whether you want to keep dwelling in your pain or you choose to stand over it..

when our parents gave birth to us, you know what, they put tons of hopes in us that we may succeed in our life.. it's up to each of us how to determine the success of life.. i just feel that so many times we are never really thankful for what we have got.. even the pain.. by right, we should be thankful for it.. i've heard this sentence quite many times saying that "as long as the pain doesn't kill you, it'll make you stronger.." i guess it's so true.. so, let not the pain bring you down and widen your reach to your own success..

it's the matter you want to step forward or lag behind.. it sounds funny but i myself keep forgetting this line that life in this world is only once.. live and make use of it.... and i really like this motto: live your life to the fullest..

and really... time never heals the wound..
the key is with you.. choose the right one..

-andri-
this entry is also for myself...

.: i780 :.

2008-10-05T21:41:00.012+08:00

sepertinya gua dah out of my mind bbrp ari blkngn ini.. dimulai dr tgl 21 september 2008.. pas gua baru balik dr gereja buat rekaman video, koko gua di depan kompie...... tiba2.. click.. it's confirmed, mr. Anton has purchased SGH-i780.. tetep sich bayarnya pake duit gua, tp gua pake nama dia buat beli since student pass gua dah mau expired kurang dr 6 bulan (3 bulan lg).. buat beli hp under contract policy, kita harus at least 6 bulan masa berlaku PR ato student pass..

so, it's SGH-i780.. correct me if i'm wrong, tp bbrp artikel gua temuin kalo i780 itu bs disebut jg Blackjack iii.. it's not a new model, fyi.. udah keluar di spore dari bulan april n pertama kalinya gua liat2 n cari tau seputar hp dr bulan agustus, gua tau kalo nich hp cukup lumayan dengan affordable price.. dibandingkan dengan smartphone (PDA+phone) yg lain..

brief specs about my smartphone:

WM 6.0 (Windows Mobile 6.0) + Pocket Office (Pocket Word, Excel n Power Point)
3.5G
Touchscreen (Stylus provided)
150 MB internal memory + 1 GB external memory
HSDPA 3.6 Mbps
Wifi
320x320 resolution
2 Megapixel Camera
GPS & Enhanced GPS
QWERTY Keyboard

i'd been longing to own this smartphone for almost 2 months n gua ampe went to many forums n ga disangka gua seneng jg ngikutin perkembangan HP zaman skrg.. cukup menarik, krn HP terus berkembang ampe skrg.. bahkan kalo kalian tau, di indo ada 1 HP dari china 3G ada TV ada kamera tp harganya cumen 1.3 juta.. biar mereka bs bersaing dgn competitor yg dah terkenal, meskipun pasaran mereka berbeda (low end)..

di tengah2 org2 pada lagi gila dgn iphone yg keluar 22 agustus lalu, gua malah tergila2 ama handphonenya samsung.. n gua ga nyangka kalo samsung skrg lg naik2nya dimulai dr keluarin Black Jack i, ii, n iii.. trus keluarin Omnia, n terakhir Innov8 (kameranya 8 megapixel n bener2 mirip digital camera.. wew...)

lalu.... sehari sebelum lebaran..... tgl 30 september...... datanglah seorang kurir membawa i780.. wah, benar2 hari indah.. sbenernya tuch HP dah dikirim ke gua tgl 29 september.. tp telat sehari gara2 kesalahan dr Singpost yg deliver.. tp baru tgl 1 kmrn gua coba2 pas ari lebaran.. n i find it very good.. quite user-friendly.. n the feedback (maksudnya kalo loe touch screen, responsenya gimana..) isn't that bad.. so far, i'm really satisfied with the performance, except for the battery life.. bener2 cepet abis baterenya.. mungkin 2 ari abis.. tp samsung kasi 2 batere sich di box-nya, so bs dimaklumi..

enaknya lg, kita bs download macem2 program ke dalem smartphone ini (emang jadul gua, harusnya smua org dah tau, tp emang gua kampungan.. XD) n so far gua dah download macem2 setelah baca2 forum ttg i780 ini.. sampe game monopoly pun gua download.. haha.. game yg gua suka tuch, simple tp fun.. XD

n skrg kerjaan gua itu nyari2 aksesoris buat nich smartphone.. leather case n screen protector.. mesti cari yg bagus tp low budget.. mesti ngehemat.. n mesti beli ampe di e-bay nich, krn di spore setelah gua jalan2 di spore n baca2 forum, tempat2 ky sim lim, funnan, far east, lucky plaza, clementi bus interchange (toko kecil gt) ga ada jual leather case yg flip type.. wah.... so, terpaksa beli di ebay n lg nunggu item-nya dateng..

but it seems that girls aren't really impressed with this type of smartphone.. they think it's bulky.. unlike girls, guys think it's very cool (emang lebih cocok untuk businessman ato executive sich designnya) haha.. cara berpikir kedua gender pun berbeda.. cowo lebih mikir ke arah feature n coolness dari designnya.. kalo cewe ngeliat dr compactness, MP3 n camera-nyee.. gua ga ngerti napa setiap cewe yg ngeliat hp gua, pertanyaan pertamanya selalu "bagus ga? ada kamera ya? brp mega?" aneh tp nyata..... kalo cowo "bagus ga, featurenya apa aje? bs wifi? (tp ujung2nya emang tanya kamera sich..)

tp kalo bagi gua 2 megapixel is more than enough.. karena gua dah punya kamera so kalo in case needed, bawa camera aja, toh ga berat ini..

pros:

feature bagus
WM 6.0 n ada official news kalo WM 6.1 will be available for this smartphone
wifi bs digunakan (wireless@sg, it's free of charge n bs diakses ampir di tempat2 umum spore, jd bs internet-an.. tp mulai 1 jan 2010 dah kena charge, so u'd better use it before it's charged)
gambar jernih, suara bagus..
touch screen dgn response yg lumayan bagus
optical mouse yg innovative ky touchpad di laptop

cons:

320x320 px screen resolution agak ga compatible dgn bbrp 3rd party tp bs diresolved dgn download realvga buat ngubah resolution jd 320x240 px..
bulky
qwerty keyboard (tombol kecil meskipun gua so far ga ada masalah buat ngetik) n it needs some time to get used to it..
camera 2 megapixel with no flash
battery life isn't good enough

in summary, kalo emang ada dr kalian yg mau beli smarphone, gua bs rekomendasiin ini sich krn untuk ukuran harga it's affordable (i bought it for S$198) tp dengan feature yg melebihi harganya.. (provided kalian sign up buat contract yg standard) apalagi starhub lg promo S$98 kalo beli pake plan yg standard.. n fortunately, i bought this hp earlier, krn barusan gua cek harga hp ini di singtel dah jadi S$298.. hoho.. :) anyway, retail price-nya setelah dicek itu S$586-an di SLS (Sim Lim Square) and it should be negotiable..

so, i choose velvet red i780.. it's my red sweetie (jijik bgt y gua.. XD).. maaf, i'm just too exicted berhubung saya org kampung n ga pernah punya hp yg bener2 high end seperti ini.. thx God, i can have it.. it helps me a lot.. here's the pics i took from other website (credits to the pic taker.. :))

Left Side View

Bottom View
Right Side View

Top View

Back View

Front View

list hp gua up to now:

Siemens C35
Samsung SGH-R225
Nokia 3660
Nokia 6280
Samsung SGH-i780

-andri-
it's impressive

.: First Date :.

2008-09-25T23:40:00.003+08:00

first date...!?
kencan pertama...?!

yeah.....

sebenernya dah baca buku "Fearless Interviewing" sebelumnya.. cumen barusan baca2 lg.. and i found one sentence written like this:

"An interview is a lot like a first date, in that displaying interest in the other person (interviewer) actually makes you more attractive to the person.."

hmm.. so, the bottom line: i need to treat every job interview as my first date.. ckckckck.. tough, man..

coz most of the interviewers are males...... no exception for tomorrow's one.. how can i .....? :P

(iseng doank ngepost gini-an.. hehe..)

wish me all d best, y.. this time is gonna be tougher but more important.. :)

-andri-
and no experience yet...

.: it :.

2008-09-23T23:27:00.011+08:00

it blinded him at first..

as he walks away from you..
he thinks of you more
as he closes his eyes on you..
he dreams of you more

he never understands..
why God created this feeling
he suffered..
but regretted nothing

it hurt him at last..

if God allows,
he will get back for you..

and if it really happens to him
he wants it to be only once..
in his life...

-andri-
if you don't risk anything for it, you'll risk even more..
yeah, it's so true..

.: Bukan Superstar :.

2008-09-17T10:56:00.002+08:00

baru denger ini lagu bbrp ari lalu.. project pop emang kreatif abis n lucu.. XD

lagu ini bagus buat ngerefresh kita2 yg mungkin lg stress krn sesuatu.. =)

-andri-
i found one who's in stressful condition.. hope u're okay..

.: live.. :.

2008-09-16T08:27:00.004+08:00

i long to live like a child..
when everything went perfect...

smile..
happiness..
tenderness..

are they gone?

the more i grow up,
i doubt it

they're just fakes
fakes and fakes

now i tell you, andri...
don't live for money....
or you'll regret..

-andri-
wish both of you are still down here with us...
i disappoint you the most.. i'm sorry..

.: Farewell (2) :.

2008-09-16T07:57:00.004+08:00

second farewell goes to Daniel.. he left singapore last thursday.. unfortunately, we couldn't send him back to the airport.. it's early in the morning and he had to be on the board at around 5AM.. wew..

well, a month with Daniel has been so interesting.. he's the most entertaining among the other 3 of missionaries.. but there was a language barrier between us (indon) n him, so sometimes there were some misunderstandings in our conversation..

he once said to me, "i feel so sad, my english is very bad.." i pitied him that time.. he hardly interacted with indonesian people since most of us can't speak mandarin.. i myself didn't mind letting him speaks in mandarin as i can learn too..

back in his hometown, he is an unofficial pastor in his church.. well, in china, as i said before, Christians hardly have their own fellowships.. China is, i can say, still a communist country and most of the people are still free thinker.. once there was a rebellion against the government by one of the other religion (i heard this from my China friend) and starting from then, government so called prohibit any religions to have their fellowships widely exposed.. i'm not really sure about this.. but what i know, Daniel's church usually hold their services in not a common place such as karaoke room, underground, etc..

as for his ministry in singapore, he initiated to invite NTU chinese students in our BBQ event last month.. and 3 chinese received Jesus at that time.. =) he and Esther passionately went to NTU to follow up those who have received Jesus in a small fellowship.. and finally, our church have a chinese service starting from last sunday!! *clap2..

how should i say about Daniel? hmm.. entertaining, his way of laugh is so funny.. haha.. caring because he bought every of his church members a gift.. wow.. it's about 60 people back there.. he likes indonesian food.. haha.. yeah, indo food is the best!!

unfortunately, i couldn't join him, ricksen, reza n indy (reza's friend) for the outing last week.. i was too tired after the youth conference.. stupidly, i forgot to say a farewell to him a day before he left.. ckck..

great dedication and devotion.. i believe all of u (chinese missionaries) will be so much blessed.. thx, Daniel!! thx for your blessing words for me.. =)

-andri-
God bless u and ur church

.: These Days.. :.

2008-09-11T12:29:00.008+08:00

as i mentioned previously that i would upload last weeks' TLG News.. I've uploaded n put it below my music box on the right column of my blog page.. i decided to upload the newest TLG News weekly on this blog.. so enjoy..!!

about my job hunting, i'm quite surprised that just yesterday the company that i really want to work at sent me an email.. well, it's not about an interview, but it's stated that they will re-evaluate their company n get back to me if there's an available position.. that means there's still a hope! come on!!! moreover, next week i'll be having an interview at one of building consultant.. hope i can do well for this one.. gotta prepare it well as i've messed up my previous interview with the other company.. wew..

after i reflect back what i've been doing on this longgg holiday, i actually waste lots of time.. recently, i prefer to stay back in my room watching movies for a whole day!! i even rarely stayed away from my comfy chair.. basically, nothing to do right after the youth conference few days ago.. either watching movie, browsing, editing video or playing cs.. ah, so nostalgic.. playing cs really reminds me of my life at the first year in NTU.. i could keep awake until 6 o'clock only for playing cs with my friends.. almost every whole night i spent it for playing cs together with my friends.. i was so addicted about it.. on the other hand, it could make me so emotional if i was losing.. as for now, hope i don't get addicted to it anymore..

gotta get rid of these things.. attempting to be discipline but somehow i'm just too lazy.. coincidentally, yesterday my friend put this nick on MSN "discipline makes good habit, good habit makes good life" this quote just comes at the right moment.. feel like being shot with AK47 n Silver Hawk (see, too much playing cs..) when i read that.. (too exaggerating) but i need to make a timetable.. well, i never use agenda before.. my timeline is all written well in my brain, but worse comes to worse it leads to procrastination.. so slacking.. i can all of sudden change whole my plan for the day with things i want to do.. and in the end, i can only regret it..

my bro keeps asking me to go swimming for my rehab.. but i just feel like not doing it at all.. today i supposedly went for swimming 9 o'clock.. but again, i just sat down on my chair, browsing n chatting.. n i realize my tummy is getting bigger.. i wasn't like this beforee.. topui lar... XD

wew.. so, let me begin with my timetable.. hope it works.. frens, keep me in ur prayer for my next interview.. i really need it.. :)

-andri-

think nothing else but myself right now..

.: A Story About Miracle and Grace :.

2008-09-08T22:48:00.006+08:00

seorang remaja lelaki kira2 berumur 20 tahun-an itu sering terlihat berada di gereja dan berdoa.. sebut saja nama dia Jack.. Jack seorang Kristiani yang setia dan taat.. mengingat kondisi dia yang tidaklah senormal orang-orang di sekitarnya. ya, dia dilahirkan tanpa sepasang lengan.. ia tidak pernah bisa merasakan bagaimana rasanya memegang benda bahkan untuk menggenggam tangannya sendiri untuk berdoa..

dulu dia bertanya-tanya mengapa itu terjadi pada dirinya.. hidup tanpa tangan serasa lebih sulit.. tapi ketika dia mulai mengerti bahwa dia dilahirkan untuk suatu tujuan, cara berpikir dia mulai berubah.. dia percaya bahwa Tuhan itu adil, meskipun banyak orang tidaklah beranggapan demikian.. dia percaya Tuhan sungguh mengasihi dia.. dia melihat dirinya tidaklah lebih kurang dibandingkan orang-orang yang mempunyai tubuh lengkap tapi mereka tidak pernah menghargainya..

suatu hari Jack pergi ke gereja untuk berdoa dan dia melihat ada satu orang sedang berdoa dengan begitu bersemangat.. bahkan Jack bisa mendengar isi doa pemuda itu.. permintaan pemuda itu adalah untuk mendapatkan pendamping hidup dan hidup berkelimpahan.. dan ketika satu minggu telah berlalu, Jack melihat pemuda itu lagi di gereja dan berdoa meminta hal yang sama.. berulang-ulang Jack melihat pemuda ini berdoa hingga kira-kira 2 bulan lamanya..

sampai suatu ketika Jack melihat pemuda ini begitu kesal, mengapa doanya itu seakan tidak dijawab-jawab.. tidak ada satupun wanita yang ia dapatkan.. bisnisnya berjalan biasa saja tidak ada perkembangan.. hidupnya tidak berbeda dibanding beberapa bulan lalu.. pemuda itu kesal sambil menggerutu dalam doanya "Tuhan, aku sudah berdoa sekian lamanya dengan taat, aku meminta mukjizat, Tuhan, mukjizat.. berkatilah aku Tuhan.. tolong, Tuhan, berkatilah aku.." kata 'berkat' & 'mukjizat' itu selalu diucapkan terus-menerus..

Jack yang saat itu sedang bersama John, temannya, mendengar pemuda itu berdoa demikian.. Jack pun murung..

John pun bertanya, "Kenapa, Jack? Sakit, ya?"

Jack menjawab, "Ah, nggak, John, hanya saja aku bingung melihat pemuda itu.."

John bertanya, "Ada ada dengan pemuda itu? Aku rasa normal saja ia berdoa meminta berkat dan mukjizat dari Tuhan.."

Jack menjawab, "Apakah mempunyai sepasang lengan bukanlah suatu mukjizat dan berkat....?"

morale story: bersyukurlah dan hargailah apa yang kita sudah miliki sekarang..

sering sich, khususnya gua, ga melihat berkat itu berkat.. mungkin dah terlalu biasa kali ya.. misalnya aja hidup berkecukupan, at least bs makan 3 kali, tidur di ranjang pake AC lg.. tp ada orang2 di luar sana yang bener2 hidupnya susah setengah mati.. bahkan mereka bs senengggg bgt kalo bs sekali aja makan nasi pake beberapa potong ayam goreng.. mungkin senengnya mereka bs dibandingin ama senengnya gua kalo dapet handphone baru.. ky gitu..

ga bs dipungkiri banyak bgt orang yang emang terlahir kurang atau cacat.. apakah itu adil? sejujurnya i'm not at the right place to say whether it's just or not.. karena gua terlahir dengan badan lengkap n gua bersyukur bgt.. tp pernah suatu kali gua melihat satu orang yang ga punya tangan n kaki, tapi dia bs teriakin nama Tuhan n dia merasa bersyukur bs seperti itu.. gua bingung napa bs begitu..

dia merasa bersyukur kalau dia berada di jalan yang benar.. dia bs bilang dia merasa lebih diberkati dibandingkan banyak orang yg hidupnya berantakan padahal mereka tubuhnya lengkap.. tapi dia ternyata ga berenti ampe di sana.. bahkan dia bs memberkati orang lain.. itu yang membuat hidup dia lebih meaningful..

wew.. hidup gua skrg masi dibilang berantakan.. ga disiplin ama skali.. gotta learn from those great people such as Jack..

-andri-
long way to go...

.: Tiring & Great Days :.

2008-09-07T22:17:00.005+08:00

wow.. 2 minggu yg bener2 super duper melelahkan.. fiuh.. kurang tidur, kurang makan.. but it's fun though.. n i just had Youth Conference 2008 this weekend starting from friday to today.. acara ini acara gereja gua (bethany) buat gather youths untuk kumpul bareng2, seek for God and ask for a breakthrough in each of our life.. gua masuk dalam tim multimedia n sound system untuk acara kali ini.. sebenernya gua jg ga tau gua bs masuk dalam tim acara ini.. basically, gua mulai join pelayanan sound system, multimedia & tlg production bulan lalu..

sejujurnya, susah jd soundman, apalagi gua ga gt ngerti2 bgt ttg musik.. gua bljr2 dikit2 tp ampe skrg blom begitu bs ngatur2nya.. gimana maen2 dengan sound mixer, wew, membingungkan.. tp kalo dah ngerti, things are much easier then..

multimedia itu biasanya buat ngatur video kamera n screen displaying pas kebaktian (service) lg takes place.. fun krn gua pribadi seneng jg maen2 ama alat elektronik ky hp, kamera, ato handy cam..

whereas buat tlg production, kerjaannya itu bikin iklan announcement buat youth service kita (TLG - The Last Generation) aka tlg news.. mulai dari generate idea, shooting ampe edit2 n finally rendering.. so time consuming actually, tp bener2 fun.. diajarin software baru, adobe premiere pro, buat edit2 video.. n abis ini kemungkinan gua bakal bljr adobe after effect which is much tougher.. fun aja tiap kali editing video apalagi kalo ide2nya gila2 n lucu2.. so far, emang kita masi blom begitu jago, but at least dibanding pertama kali gua join youth bethany 4 taon lalu, it's much more better.. we step forward bit by bit..

so untuk acara youth conference ini gua terlibat dalam tim itu.. bener2 cape khususnya 2 minggu blkngan.. gua sering bgt ke gereja, ampir tiap ari ga terkecuali weekend n pulang ampe malem abis (minimal nyampe kamar jam 11 ato 12..) n pulang2 teler.. dah ky full-timer gt.. haha.. di gereja tim multimedia biasanya edit2 video n skalian persiapan kamera.. but.... IT'S TRULY WORTH IT!!

gua bs bilang acara ini bener2 last minute event bgt.. segala macam schedule acara baru bener2 dikasi tau ke tim minggu lalu n anggota tim pun masi bingung sebenernya acara ini tuch apaan.. ada youth conference n youth concert?! tapi sebenernya conference n concert dibundled together jadi youth conference..

but thx God, everything went smoothly khususnya hari kedua pas youth concert.. He works so mightily.. the concert was amazing.. i know that the performers (our own youth band - tlg band) have prepared it very well.. they trained very hard n it's paid off.. glad i could take part of this event n listen to the concert.. guest of the day (band IFGF) jg performed so well.. congratz!! i'm sure God is really pleased with that.. :)

gua kebagian buat jadi dynamic cameraman.. jd gerak2, ngerekamin performers n audiences.. cape buanget, jalan sana-sini, ga bs duduk, n moreover tangan pegel.. kamera ga berat tp kalo diangkat lama2, yah lumayan d.. n kameranya ga cukup panjang buat ditaro di pundak gua.. n makanya tangan gua mesti stabil.. and for me, jarang2 bs angkat kamera ky gt.. resolusinya bagus bgt n cool..

the sermons were all good.. gua ga bs bilang semua sich.. gua missed 1 sermon.. but overally, i could grasp what the speakers were trying to deliver.. n i like a passage voiced out by Daniel Chua, one of the speaker, saying that

"I may not be able to change the world,
but I'm able to change my world.."

that's really true.. kita mungkin ga bs ngerubah dunia ini hanya dengan presence kita yg bener2 kecil dengan keterbatasan kita di dunia ini, tp kita punya dunia kita sendiri n we can change it in our own ways.. be it good or bad, it's up to us.. but we have to remember that it will also impact to others surrounding u.. so..

"don't just fill up the space in this world..."

wow.. another nice quote by Daniel Chua.. simple but means a lot.. gua ngerti sich n mungkin ada yg bilang ini mah quote yg biasa2 aja.. tp buat gua pribadi, dengan kondisi gua skrg, gua ky merasa kena pukul aja.. my eyes are opened.. apalagi gua orgnya cuek abis.. mesti mulai berubah..

anyway, the bottom line of this entry is that i'm really glad i could experience a worthy 2 weeks of my life for this event.. gua masi jauhhh abis dr hidup yg baik.. but every thing starts with a little step, doesn't it? :)

great days.. n gua ga regret gua dah masuk tim sound system, multimedia & tlg production.. the people are great.. tdnya gua ga gt kenal banyak temen di gereja, meski dah 4 taon di gereja ini.. soalnya anak2nya jg dah pada mulai pindah ke kebaktian umum mengingat umur mereka yg dah mulai dewasa.. khususnya untuk tim multimedia n tlg production, anak2nya fun jd pas lg kerja jg ketawa2 aje.. lumayan buat distressment.. haha..

tp yah, gua bokek abis.. tabungan menipis gara2 buat transport n makan di orchard.. gawat... so...... job hunting, job hunting.. hehe.. btw mulai ga gt kuatir ttg job hunting, krn banyak yg senasib n sepenanggungan ternyata tp mereka tetep fun2 aja.. maybe i think too much lar.. but i still believe He will give the best at the right time for me..

btw, buat tlg news minggu ini sebenernya gua pengen bgt upload di entry ini.. it's damn funny.. semua pada ketawa2 pas ntn.. haha.. tp blom sempet upload di youtube ama teammate gua... kalo dah, nanti gua bakal taro di blog ini.. :)

-andri-
so tired..

.: Arsenal The "Gunners":.

2008-08-31T19:09:00.003+08:00

this post will preferably entertain guys especially arsenal fans, like me!! hehe.. i've been an arsenal fan for about 7 years.. not a huge fan of them, i just simply like their style of playing.. arsene wenger (the manager) should be 'responsible' for the way arsenal play recently..

i was a manchester united n chelsea fan but it lasted not more than 2 years.. haha.. gianfranco zola stunted me with his high level skills, that was the reason i liked chelsea.. whereas for man u, i admired beckham because of his personality.. he wasn't a very talented player like messi, maradona or even ronaldinho, but his hardworking n diligence turned him into one of the greatest soccer players in the world with his best known ball-crossing and accurate set-pieces.. which striker on earth doesn't like to play along with beckham.. (read his autobiography n u'll know what kind of person beckham actually is..)

but ever since arsenal took away man utd's regime in EPL, i began to aware with their play.. it's simply beautiful.. n how they recruit those unknown players n turn them into skillful ones, it's just wew.. who would bother about fabregas being transferred from barcelona to arsenal except both of the clubs (he's only 16 at that time)? i think most of newspaper at that time would prefer to write about zidane, beckham or christiano ronaldo.. but look at him now.. fabregas is now the most indispensable player for the club.. i think he's now worth at least the same as steven gerrard..

it's gonna be a long post if i have to write about arsenal.. haha.. this morning i opened livescore n youtube to know the score of arsenal's match last night and arsenal won 3-0 against newscastle.. i posted the goal in this entry because i really really love the third goal.. it's an art in soccer.. it's a great team work mixed with a good decision and ended with a smart goal..

-andri-

.: To Be With You :.

2008-08-27T20:56:00.006+08:00

few days ago, i happened to listen to this song from Radio PINTU.. i've been knowing the song quite a long time ago.. and up to now i never get bored of this song.. great one.. mr big's voices fitted this song very much as compared to westlife..

Lyrics:

Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

[solo]

When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Just to be the next to be with you

by Mr. Big

-andri-

.: Farewell (1) :.

2008-08-25T22:13:00.007+08:00

yo, this post is actually dedicated to my dear friends, November and Ming-Ming..

I've written a little bit about them in previous entry.. yes, they are two among the four chinese missionaries who came to singapore to help us to reach the chinese speaking people.. yeap, both of them just went back to Hong Kong today.. i sent them to the airport this afternoon.. haven't known much about them personally, but i just feel like losing someone close to me.. they're just too fantastic..

oh, ya, i wrote about the welcome bbq event 2 weeks ago and guess what?.. it bears its fruits.. 2 NTU students who are from china just received Jesus 2 days ago.. great!! the heaven must be in joy..!! :) as u know, in China, most of the chinese are free thinkers.. they may know that there is God, but that's it.. they don't want to believe and entrust their life to Him.. and moreover China's government prohibit any religions to spread their teaching within its country.. even Christianity is still not allowed to have any services or prayer meetings.. that's why Christians there usually have their services in small private house, an underground, or even in a small karaoke room... wew..

back to our friends, November and Ming-Ming.. they are sister and brother, and their relationship is soooo tight and close.. good for them.. :)

November, she is 23 now.. how to describe her? tomboy, shorty (oops..), funny! XD, cheerful, and likes to say "oke", "thank you", "amazing" very much.. haha.. oh, yeah, she has a big dream for her future.. she is currently studying japanese in China (Guangzhou) and the reason why she is taking this course is because she intends to go to Japan and start evangelism there.. she wants to build a church and make an impact there.. :) keep up the good work!!

Ming-Ming, 18 (so young!).. funny too!, naughty (only to his sister), helpful, active, so fast in eating, sporty (he likes soccer very much and i heard from my bro that he's damn good in it.. argh, don't have chance to play with him.. wew..) well, he's currently in A-level rite now.. he's planning to be a movie director.. wow.. that's good! wish u'll do fine there and maybe in the future you can work together with nathan and make a good movie!! hehe.. oh, even though he's still young, but he's the WL (worship leader/singing leader) in his church.. amazing..

it's really nice to know both of you.. yesterday after the church service we had lunch together in lido.. we took picture together and shared & chit-chatted.. before we went back, November said, "see you in heaven!" to us.. i know what she means.. as we live faraway apart and it's gonna be hard for us to meet each other in the future.. it could be the last one we meet each other in this world.. but if God allows, I really want to have a mission trip to China.. as my bro also said yesterday, "we will go to China again.. so today won't be the last meeting before heaven's time.."

here are the pics that we took yesterday..

thank you very much.. xie xie ni men.. arigatougozaimasu.. for your effort throughout ur ministry in singapore.. i enjoyed the time we worked together as brother and sister in Christ.. it's been a privilege for me to know you..

all d best for your life, love, study and ministry, sis & bro..
God bless both of you always..
shallom..
farewell, sis & bro..

"Segala perkara dapat kutanggung di dalam Dia yang memberi kekuatan kepada-Ku"
Filipi 4:13

-andri-
there are so many great people out there even though they are still young..

.: Worship You Alone :.

2008-08-22T10:04:00.008+08:00

so slacking these days.. i feel very lazy like a pig.. i know i can't keep doing this.. wasting many days of my life for nothing..

i haven't secured a job yet, i can't play soccer, i just got "soft rejection" from the company i really want to work at, and i'm currently having some personal problems in my life as well..

so what i did to forget them for a while is watching old movies (comedy movies).. i've been watching all Stephen Chow's movies and they're all so amusing and they're surely a stress relief for me.. but right after i watched them all, the problems are actually still present.. i just ran away from them for some time while they keep chasing me from behind and eventually they catch me up again.. i solve nothing than bypassing the days with no answers..

while i see everyone becomes more mature, i'm stuck in the middle of nowhere.. i told myself to be a better man, but in fact i'm getting worse.. u may say i'm frustrated.. yes, i may be.. i'm too fragile and sometimes i even don't understand myself.. i'm not sure whether u have ever experienced this before.. it's like your mind and body are not cooperative with what you want.. mm.. ah, it's hard to explain.. but it's just today i want to start over it again..

last week on last sunday's church service, ko Omar (our youth pastor) told about how you can be the light and salt among ur community.. i'm sorry to say this matter in my blog, but it is true that some people always judge Christians on what they have done or behaved.. if a Christian did wrong, some people would judge that a Christian shouldn't be like that.. it is as if a Christian must not do wrong.. i've experienced this before.. it hurt me and honestly speaking it jolted my faith.. it's not an easy task to be a Christian..

i was a Buddhist until 4 years ago i decided to choose to be a Christian.. i would like to let you know that until rite now i'm not a rightful one.. i still make a lot of sins especially in my thoughts (the one that i hardly to control).. a true Christian is the one who can leave his past life and live a new life with Jesus Christ as his/her only life focus.. i haven't reached that stage.. the old sins are still shadowing me.. but it doesn't mean that a Christian doesn't commit a sin.. no.. but whenever we do one; we repent, ask for forgiveness from God and start all over again.. and one thing for sure, the salvation we get is only through Him.. that means we are saved if we believe that Jesus is our only savior and God and we are living in Him.. the teaching of Christianity is mainly about love, love and love.. and in the bible itself, the most basic, but important one is that God is Love..

as a life background, i come from a fanatic Buddhist family.. my parents are Buddhist, but what i see is that they live a life that i think is much better than most of Christians todays.. even until i was a senior high school student, with my own eyes, i still didn't see any righteousness in becoming a Christian.. i just couldn't find a reason why i need to be a Christian.. even one of my neighbor, Rico (one of my best friends at that time), asked me if i wanted to go to his church.. well, i accepted his invitation but i left the church only half an hour after the service began.. my friend, Rico, was still inside.. but i decided to go to my other friend's home instead of staying there..

but i'm not sure why.. when i was at the 3rd grade of senior high school, i still clearly remembered, it was during half an hour break, my friend, Glenn, asked me to come to a prayer meeting.. i don't know why i just yessed his invitation, but it's too late and i couldn't refuse back.. so, i just followed him to gather with others in chemical lab.. i sat down on the floor, hid myself from being seen by others (i sat at the back of a chemical table) and started to contemplate.. along with some songs sang by others, i don't know why, i felt the peace.. well, the songs were normal ones, the singers were just normal students, and the place were just nothing but a lab.. "ah, it could be a normal feeling every time somebody attends any religion's fellowships.." that's what i thought.. but week after week, i routinely attended the prayer meeting.. don't ask me why.. it could be due to study pressure as my school is one of the top schools in Jakarta..

mm, it's true that i never really learn much about Buddhism or other religion's teaching.. i came from Catholics and Christians schools, thus, i know more or less about Jesus Christ.. but i just wondered if we recall the history back, Muslims, Catholics and Christians have the same background story (not the whole story, but there are some similarities..), but not the teaching.. as for Buddhism, i've read few pages of Tripitakka (is it correct?) and Tridharmma (i'm not sure the name of it), its teaching is wholly about living a perfect life in the world.. and i in some occasions chatted with some friends about Buddhism and moreover about reincarnation.. i haven't read any books about Hinduism and other religion so i can say nothing..

in this world, there are a lot of quarrels in relation with religions.. i can't deny that most of the quarrels are Christians and Muslims ones.. and even within Christians themselves, there are sometimes no unities and complications start to arise.. Mahatma Gandhi once said "i like your Christ, but i don't like your Christians..".. for your information, why Mahatma Gandhi could say this words is because he was abandoned by Christians when he attended the church for the very first time.. same thing goes to Marilyn Manson, a public figure that most of youths would know him.. he was a Christian, a good Christian.. but not his 'friends'.. his church 'friends' would always jeered, assaulted and made fun of him.. u know why his 'friends' did that? because Manson doesn't have a good look.. that's all.. that's why he gave up Christianity and built his own 'church'...

through this post, i just want to share some of my points.. but i want to let u know that i'm still not a faithful Christian or a religious one (no, i'm far away from it, guys..).. but what i have experienced until now is all real.. i didn't made up when i felt the peace.. it's not because someone is holy and then he/she can feel that kind of peace.. no.... every one, i believe, can experience this.. even though i'm still committing my old sins, but i'm still a bit glad that 'someone' reminds me to repent.. 4 years being a Christian, i never really grow up.. even last few months were the worst moment i've ever walked through.. i totally left and forgot about God.. i only remembered Him during the exam period.. i totally regret.. i really want to start all over again..

i'm starting to serve rite now.. i used to play drama in my school and church, but i didn't make use of my talent fully.. i want to get involved again in drama team.. and furthermore, i want to find more what my talents are.. (sometimes we gotta to try everything first to know what ur talents and interests are.. n make sure we excel in them.. do the best in everything we like to do..)

yes, it's true that...
u can't see God by your eyes..
u can't sometimes achieve what u really want..
u can't understand why God does this, does that..
it seems that only u face the heaviest problem in the world..

but u need to know that...
u can feel God with your heart..
it's not all u want, but all u need would be given..
it's simply we are limited and God is limitless..
and u're not alone..
i do also have the heaviest problem in the world, it's because not a single person lives in my life; thus, people don't understand me.. but we can reveal our problems to Him.. He'll do the best for u after u give the best of urs..

truly speaking, i don't really love God until this very moment (if i do, i would have left my old sins behind), but i know for sure, He's there to comfort when i really need Him.. so should i be there when He needs me?

this "Worship You Alone" song completely reminds me of God... thanks...

Verse 1
Your faithfulness never fails
Your faithfulness everyday
You're the same

Verse 2
Unfailing love sets me free
Unfailing love you lead me
With your hand

Pre-Chorus
And all I know
With your arms around me
Your face is all that I seek
Your love and grace
Pick me up and hold me
You alone are holy

Chorus
For you alone are great in power
You alone are my strong tower
And i will lift my heart and soul
To worship you alone
For you alone are my desire
You have set my heart on fire
And i will lift my heart and soul
To worship you alone
Worship you alone

Bridge
And I will follow after you
For you are my desire
Oh Jesus, my heart belongs to you

-andri-
it's a very beautiful song..

.: 祝您生日快乐, 妈.. :.

2008-08-19T00:03:00.005+08:00

this posting is dedicated only to my mom..

the pic shown below is my mom.. she's pretty, isn't she..

how should i say about her?
she's indeed pretty, smart, brave, caring, funny, diligent, faithful, and very good in cooking.. :)

she's a perfect wife, a perfect mother for us..
i just want to tell my dad, how lucky he is to have mom as his wife.. XD

but what have i done for her so far?

i remembered i once 'hurt' her when i failed to listen to her words.. i've posted about this story but i never revealed the detail of it.. it was when i fractured my wrist.. my mom gave the best she could.. she brought me to doctor and shensei.. she never forgot to change the herbs that was pasted on my wrist.. she really took care of me.. but i was impatient at that time.. i never really appreciated what my mom did to me.. i preferred playing soccer with my friends rather than lying on my bed and resting my arm.. when i homed after the game, she was full of anger and holding a palm leaf rib (sapu lidi), then she asked me to kneel down.. she wanted to hit me with the rib, but she just couldn't.. she cried at that time.. i was in silence.. i know i've really broken her heart at that time..

i'm so thankful that i could enter NTU.. i think i've made her proud of me because of this.. but as compared to what she's done for me, it's actually nothing..

there was one time i chatted with my mom.. i once asked what she really wants to have.. she said she doesn't want anything.. she only wants her sons to take care of her when she's getting older.. she wants us not to abandon her..

definitely, i won't..

i just love her very much..

as i'm really blessed to have her as my mother..
i won't ask for others..

as i have received the best gift in the world,
which is the gift of love..

ma, selamat ulang tahun
panjang umur ya..
jaga kesehatan..

we love you..

-anton & andri-

.: Where My Future Lies.. :.

2008-08-17T22:48:00.006+08:00

"have u got a job?"

getting tired of this question.. i think i've already faced this question more than 100 times.. but still with the same answer :

"no, still looking.."

yeah, maybe i'm too picky? or my effort just isn't enough.. well, it's up to those who question me.. huehue.. but i still have faith that i'll get the best one.. :)

anyway, right after today's church service, i went to the Career Fair held by JobsCentral @ Suntec.. no choice, i had to dress so nice even during the service.. in fact, i wasn't really comfortable in it.. (ga penting, sich..)

so it was at 15.00 i arrived at the hall and there were still a bunch of people looking for jobs.. i visited few booths, but actually i targeted only 2 booths.. so, after my 'mission' was accomplished, i just walked around the hall to see-see other booths and i found NTU booth, then i chit-chat with one of the lady talking about master program.. NTU offer a MSc TiP (entrepreneurship) program which i am interested in.. but the admission is open for the next year badge.. n they never offer a scholarship for this program.. wew.. but it's still within my consideration..

not a long time ago, i was in a call with my parents.. same thing all over again, they tell me not to worry about the job.. i dunno why everytime i hear they're saying that statement, the pressure suddenly vanishes.. but still, i want to earn money with my own effort.. surprisingly, my parents want me to either go back to indo or travel to china to learn chinese for a half year..

so, basically, i have four choices and i'm still considering.. i still hope i can get a suitable job at the best company.. meanwhile, i need to equip myself with anything i can learn rite now.. i'm a mechanical graduate but i feel like learn nothing.. so rite now i have to survey the market what kind of applicants the companies are looking for.. i'm currently learning Pro-Engineer and Adobe Premiere.. next target is Auto Cad (i know some of the theories, but not practices) and 3D Max.. (terlalu muluk2 ga ya? XD)

but i'm also open for the other three choices.. wish for the best choice i will opt.. help me in prayer, k?

-andri-
"ohai lien zai"
just learned this cantonese sentence from Ming Ming.. haha..
just figure out what it means.. XD

.: Great Day! :.

2008-08-16T00:24:00.019+08:00

wew.. i just reached home and took a bath.. rite now i'm sooo tired.. but i can't hold myself to write this post until the next morning.. i'm still drowned in the pool of excitement..

well, it's like previous years, we (FA NTU, a cell group of our church) usually hold a welcome tea event to get to know those NTU people especially freshmen, but it's also open for seniors who want to get along with us.. and this year we thought of having bbq event instead of just playing games or having dinner.. all the preparations were just planned within 1 week.. starting from designing the flyers (thanks to Ricksen and Joseph), distributing them door to door, buying the food, cooking (i proudly say that i made the jelly and it's not bad.. hoho.. padahal gampang bgt buatnya.. XD) and making the bbq seasoning..

lot of things i learned from this simple bbq event.. i was quite stressful when every plan that we had was suddenly changed.. initially, we thought of having only those indonesian students to be invited.. but then it was just few days ago, there were four missionaries who just came from china to singapore and they wanted to get involved the bbq by also inviting chinese student to our bbq event.. the initial target for the event was only 30-40 people, but because of this change, the target was then increased to 80-100 people.. wow... i started to get stressed since we only bought the food for about 30 people.. how about during the event itself? how can we manage to get along, chit-chat with them? 100 people? while we are only, i can say, 10-12 of us? honestly speaking i panicked at that time..

on last wednesday, i asked for a meeting in Broadway, NTU (should be Food Connection..) 6 PM.. and at that time it was the first time i met those four missionaries from china.. when i looked at them, my first impression was "mm.. they're more or less on the same age as me.. they're still quite young.." and i could never imagine that they are so on fire and so friendly.. i could easily get along with them even though i can say their english is not really good.. but it doesn't matter at all...... i never met these kind of people who are soo friendly (seriously..).. all of sudden (for all those who know me well) my "jaim-ness" was gone.. i could somehow be so in tune with them.. they are so entertaining.. they are Ming Ming, November, Daniel, and Esther.. the first two actually are from Hong Kong, but they are studying in China.. while the last two were really born in China..

left-right: Esther, Daniel, November and Ming Ming

they are so dedicated and committed.. they really knocked each of the door one by one and asked each person to join the event.. unfortunately, due to the time constraint (only in 2 nights) they could only go around 2 halls (hall 1 & 6).. but it's more than enough.. they teach me what perseverance is.. never murmur, just do it, and don't worry.. thx to 4 of them and ricksen, joseph & andreas who worked so hard.. everything was then under control.. only some minor problems arose just few hours before the event started.. i forget the essence of prayer, that i'm not perfect.. i can't do every thing by myself.. so we prayed together before the event started..

that's me.. setting the fire..

it's 7 pm and we had our bbq session begun at Hall 6 Concourse.. one by one the people were turning up.. chinese, indonesian, malaysian and even azerbaijan!!! and a total of 100 people were there having bbq with us.. i was so amazed.. i never expected this to happen.. and one thing, the food, it's like endless.. it's more than enough for everybody there.. even we could feed some cats with our leftover food.. i... couldn't speak more.. it's simply amazing.. i had a great chit-chat not only with indonesian but also chinese.. some more the weather was so good, windy (at least i sweat less than usual.. XD) during the bbq session, then suddenly came my church friends who are actually not NTU students helping us in the event.. wow.. He provides.. He really provides.. =)

the Azerbaijans & A Ming

after the bbq session, we had 2 games.. thx to Wibi n Daniel who came out with the fun games.. unfortunately, i couldn't join for the second game.. it required us to run.. wew.. but we had fun together.. it's as if there isn't any gap between indonesian n chinese.. i have left some of my bad impressions about chinese behind, most of the chinese are in fact so nice..

we ended the bbq session at 10.30.. but we still need to clear up everything.. so it was at 11.20 i could leave hall 6 n there wasn't any train left in boon lay.. that's why i took cab.. hikz... (bokek d..)

can't wait to meet the 4 missionaries later.. i want to learn more from them.. n joke with them as well.. hehe.. anyway, "thx" to my friend, adrian.. because of him, the 4 missionaries are now calling me "bubur".. but it's so funny.. because of their mother tongue, they are not able to pronounce bubur correctly.. they (especially November) pronounce it as "pumpun".. hahaha.. but they keep calling me with this "pumpum" word.. pity me..

great day..! it's so tiring but i'm glad i could experience this day.. and finally, thank God! it's all dedicated to You.. =)

S10m4Yz + A Ming + November + Daniel + Esther + Andreas + Wibi + Novi + Hong

-andri-
it's time to sleep....

.: A Poem for You :.

2008-08-13T07:59:00.010+08:00

deep within my mind

it's too complicated,
entangled with the past i have..

it's not giving up,
but i took another path of choices
i know it's for the best

as i have learned,
not all of you to be owned
but all moments with you to be treasured

you will never know...
nor understand..
trapped in the middle of boredom

when i saw the look of your face
it's a piece of disappointment
i'm sorry and yet..

i want you to be saved too..
these words never came out
from my mouth, but my heart

praying the very best for you
always...
to bring you back to life....

it's ever since..
i crafted your name
not only on the list,
but deeper inside..

-andri-
you, angel...

.: Angels Brought Me Here :.

2008-08-11T11:00:00.002+08:00

this song is completely soothing and the lyrics is so well-written.. just knew this song 2 days ago during Happy Hour (an event held by my church for youths).. actually there is another version by Carrie Underwood, but i think Guy Sebastian suits this song better..

It's been a long and winding journey, but i'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes...

My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle...

[Chorus]
If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name...

My dreams came true, right here in front of you
My miracle...

[Chorus]

Brought me here to be with you,
I'll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...

[Chorus]
Yes they brought me here...
If you could feel, the tenderness i feel...
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

by Guy Sebastian

-andri-

.: HP Design :.

2008-08-06T13:23:00.019+08:00

does anyone still remember how my HP looks like? i've been using nokia 6280 orange colour ever since 2006.. last year during Christmas holiday, to fill up the boredom outside IH training, i tried to design my HP using solidworks, a CAD 3D software. i wasn't really proficient in using the software at that time and it took me about 1 whole week to do this design.. the result isn't really bad, i think.. grin, grin.. the software technology makes my design looks real if u look at the pics below.. thanks to photoworks feature so that i can render it nicely.. but in order to render it, i need to use my lab computer.. i don't have photoworks in my laptop.. wew..

Nokia 6280

according to my to-do-list on this post, i should have done lots of things.. apparently, none of them i've done to the end.. take an example of reading a book.. ever since the holiday started until now, i only have read half of the book.. actually topic of the book that i've been reading is quite interesting, but i dunno why i can't cope with something that is too wordy.. (emang males bgt baca buku.. XD) then canon d.. hopeless, haha.. but still better than reading only half of the book..

that's why, these last few days, i've been so busy designing a HP model.. it's just last night i finished designing it.. if u like designing, u'll understand the tremendous feeling everytime u manage to complete ur design work.. well, for an amateur like me, i don't think the design that i'm going to show u in seconds will amaze u.. but not bad coz i did it in only 2 days.. and i name it "underE" well, it doesn't sound so catchy, but never mind.. i like it.. :) so, here is the pics..

underE

the next design is coming soon.. just wait..

-andri-

.: Bahaya HP :.

2008-08-04T11:03:00.004+08:00

setelah gua review back blog gua, rasanya mulai aneh2 ya.. haha.. kalo ga lirik lagu, ya geje2-an.. yah, begitulah kalo jd org pengangguran.. semakin loe ga ngapa2in, sebenernya otak loe semakin berpikir banyak hal.. beda kalo loe ada kerjaan, at least loe tau apa yg mesti loe kerjain meskipun pikiran terkuras..

mm.. blog kali ini seputar kesehatan.. hope it's gonna be useful for you..

kita semua pasti tau handphone (HP) / mobile phone / telp genggam / ponsel.. teknologi canggih yg dah ditemukan di market sejak taon 1910 oleh Lars Magnus Ericsson yg ga laen adalah pendiri perusahaan Ericsson.. salah satu alesan knapa handphone ini dibuat adalah tentunya masalah mobility.. salah dua-nya adalah tentunya alesan komersil (nemuin inovasi baru buat cari duit..) hehe..

n ampir dalam 100 taon, handphone dah jadi salah satu "primary" needs buat org2 zaman post modernisme skrg.. bahkan termasuk negara indo sendiri.. handphone2 dari china yg harganya lebih terjangkau dah masuk ke indo n apalagi provider di indo banyak bgt.. wew.. pulsa telp ama handphone ampir ga jauh beda skrg.. ckckck..

dengan teknologi HP yg bener2 maju ampe2 bs buat kamera, tv, radio, internet, bla2, sapa sich yg ga tertarik? dulu gua tertarik bgt ngikutin perkembangan HP ampe2 gua lumayan ngerti feature2nya.. skrg gua malah lost saking banyaknya model baru n bahkan brand baru ky HTC.. ckckckck.. dengan design yg semakin futuristik n mungil, org2 semakin lebih tertarik lg.. ga ky dulu, dah featurenya dikit (paling2 buat sms n telp doank) dah gt ukurannya segede batu bata.. makanya HP zaman dulu bs buat nimpuk maling (quote dr bokap).. haha..

n tentunya kalian tau lha ya, kalo handphone sendiri setiap saatnya itu memberikan signal ke satellite n ditransfer balik lg ke HP.. n kalian tau jg kalo radiasi HP ini cukup membahayakan buat kesehatan manusia..

ada 1 kali penelitian 2 org telp2an lewat HP dalam jarak dekat n di antara HP mereka ditaruh 1 butir telur mentah.. alhasil dalam kurang lebih 1 jam (65 menit), telurnya langsung jadi mateng.. untuk artikel bs baca di sini. tp ga berapa lama, ada penjelasan yg cukup masuk di akal yg menyatakan kalo penelitian itu hoax belaka.. artikel bs dibaca di sini. dulu eksperimen ini pernah dimasukin ke youtube n sempet gemparin dunia jg.. tp salah satu perusahaan HP nuntut org yg upload video itu n bilang kalo video itu fake ato buat2an belaka.. jd maksudnya telurnya itu diganti dr mentah jd mateng.. i leave the rest to your own opinion buat decide mana yg bener ato salah..

1 artikel lg yg pernah gua baca adalah sebaiknya jgn pake HP di telinga kanan.. salah satu alesannya otak bagian kanan lebih sensitif ama pertumbuhan sel kanker di otak apabila di-trigger ama radiasi dr HP.. makanya kalo mau telp, usahakan pake telinga kiri.. ntah ini hoax ato bukan.. tp gua sich selama ini pake telinga kiri trus krn dah kebiasaan dr dulu jg.. artikel resminya masi dalam tahap pencarian..

lalu kalo yg fact ini emang beneran.. bukan hoax.. jgn pernah menghimpit handphone atopun telpon atopun barang apapun di antara telinga n pundak.. ini biasa bgt dilakukan org2 yg biasanya kedua tangannya emang lg sibuk megang benda lain ato lg pengen nulis sesuatu.. ini gua denger sendiri dari radio Sonora ttg kesehatan n kalo kalian melakukan ini dalam waktu lama, kalian akan berpotensi kena stroke.. so plis2, avoid doing this..

lastly, sebagai salah satu pembaca setia detik.com, baru2 ini baca 1 artikel ttg radiasi HP yg dibilang lebih membahayakan daripada merokok.. menurut gua sich salah satu alesannya adalah HP skrg yg dah ga pake antena.. ada sich antena tp it's assembled inside your HP n ga dalam bentuk antena panjang ky tiang gt lagi.. (makanya kalo biasa kalian telp, jgn megang bagian atasnya HP, biasanya signalnya jadi jelek ato sering putus2..) artikel bs dibaca di sini.

yah, begitulah.. makanya gua punya HP pun jarang bgt dipake buat telp.. haha.. bahkan ampir ga pernah.. paling2 buat terima telp doank ato ga ya urusan urgent.. i prefer SMS.. tp SMS pun ada kekurangan.. sama aja ky chatting sich.. kita ga pernah tau expresi org yg lg chat ama kita.. n reply-nya pun ga instan.. mesti butuh waktu..

kalo telp pun, biasanya pake loudspeaker.. makanya org2 ngeledekin HP gua itu batu bata.. haha.. apalagi warna HP gua dah mirip bgt (orange gt) XD

yup, that's all yg mau gua tulis.. moga2 berguna d..

ga semua penemuan2 manusia itu mendatangkan keuntungan.. sebenernya kerugian yang ditimbulkan lebih banyak...

-andri-

.: Upset.. :.

2008-08-02T17:41:00.010+08:00

not a long time after both of you gone
things are so miserable..
suddenly, i know the real face of liars

after all, it's all about materialistic..
people are so selfish..
they only think what benefits to them..

while the kindness and love
are not to be sold or bought
but to be given and received

yet they never know about this..
and i saw only the eyes of greediness
the bond is no longer there

i'm so upset...
if only you've never gone..
it wouldn't be like this..
even though everything is in lies..

-andri-
just want to write off some dirts in my mind..

看我.. 我想成为一个有用的人.. 我向你们承诺..

.: Goodbye, 6.. :.

2008-07-28T00:05:00.007+08:00

tdnya mau tulis ini pas tgl 22 juli, hari gua ninggalin hall 6.. i'm not trying to be extreme sensitive, but there was an emotional feeling when i was about to step out of my room.. 4 tahun di hall 6 bener2 berkesan buat gua pribadi.. dah termasuk paling murah, fasilitas lumayan, dkt src, dkt kantin, dah gt kamar gede lg..

masi inget bener hari pertama nginjek di hall 6, kenalan ama temen pertama gua di ntu, si Wihu (William Hutama) yg jg 4 taon di hall 6.. hoho.. n pas mau pindahan kmrn jg sempet ketemu sedikit junior2 hall 6 yg gua kenal..

year 1: hall 6 #34-2-653
yup, kamar pertama di hall 6 n roommate gua ga laen koko gua sendiri.. jgn dikira kalo 1 kamar sodaraan, trus kamarnya bersih y.. =P dulu masi sama2 males bersihin kmr.. huahua.. dah gt kerjaan gua bedua ama koko gua ya, maen scrabble trusss, ampe2 ngajakin 1 temen gua, PSC, buat ngajarin gua maen scrabble..

ya, inilah kamar gua n koko gua dulu..
PS: wajah terpaksa disembunyikan, takutnya pembaca ga fokus ke kamarnya.. =P

year 2: hall 6 #34-2-653
yoi, gua stay di kamar ini lg.. tp kali ini roommatenya ganti.. Herry Gunadi Sudibya.. sama aja.. kita sama2 males bersihin kamar.. wakaka.. XD dr sini, gua mulai tularin si herry maen scrabble n boggle.. hoho.. ada 1 perbedaan kontras antara gua ama die.. kalo die bljr mulu tiap ari.. kalo gua, ya, tinggal pilih: CS, WE, ato DOTA.. wakaka..

guess what? ternyata gua pernah menemukan ada kamar yg lebih parah dr ini... XD
eits, jgn nge-judge dulu, ini saat di mana 7 org temen gua nitip barang2 mereka di kamar gua.. so u can imagine how messy it was lar..

year 3: hall 6 #34-2-654
pindah ke sebelahnya, soalnya balkonnya lebih gede.. bisa buat taro barang.. mm.. tp berhubung gua IA, gua sering nginep di tempat koko gua jg.. kesian die, ga ada temen di clementi.. lagian ada AC.. huehue..

year 4: hall 6#33-1-623
kali ini single room.. n i can say it was the best room i've ever lived in.. bener2 enak.. enak krn gua bs bebas atur kamar semau gua, punya privacy, bs tidur tanpa ada gangguan apapun, bs nyanyi2 geje sendiri meski suara cempreng, bs repeat2 lagu yg gua suka ampe jamuran.. pokoknya enak.. honestly speaking, meski ga ada AC, gua bener2 nikmatin bgt 1 taon terakhir gua di situ..

ini tempat gua bljr (padahal jarang2 bljr.. kbnykn maen..)

ini tempat gua ngorok.. kasurnya keras bgt, tp at least gua bs tidur dgn nyaman..

ada bbrp kekurangan single room sich: sepi ga ada temen tp untungnya kadang2 ada aja temen yg dtng pas di saat emang lg bosen ga ngapa2in.. dah gt kamar gua banyak bgt nyamuk n serangga ga jelas gara2 deket bgt ama pohon gede.. wew.. n kadang2 ada aja anak hall 6 yg ngerokok.. bangkok.. n 1 lagi.. tetangga gua OV sering bener maen WE sambil teriak2 geje.. tp gua sering ketawa2 sendiri dengerin teriakannya.. ky suara kuda kejepit gt.. haha..

ah, akhirnya dah pindah ke clementi.. 1 kamar lg ama koko gua n bbrp ari lalu dekor ulang kamar.. not bad.... small n simple, but comfortable.. hoho.. tp ga bs dipungkiri kalo gua sebenernya masi pengen tinggal di hall 6.. makanya wkt itu gua sebenernya pengen balik cepetan ke spore (tgl 10 juli) at least buat ngerasain last days in my room n ntu gt.. kalo ntu sich kapan2 bs balik, gampang.. tp kalo kamar hall kan dah ga bs lg.. enak aja, wc deket, kalo mau air panas ga perlu cape2 masak, mesin cuci banyak, kantin deket, temen banyak, lapangan futsal deket, gym deket (padahal seumur2 di ntu gua br 4 kali ke gym.. XD), masi banyak lg..

anyway, i just need to treasure those moments in hall 6.. i will upload some pics of my room soon.. hall 6 ovia! forever sixian!

-andri-

.: What's Different? :.

2008-07-22T21:34:00.014+08:00

in these last 4 years what's different about me?

let me think.....

1. cognitive
mm... as i grow up i think more.. that's normal for most of people.. when i was little, i thought of things that i want, but now i realized that not all of those things we'll attain.. sometimes we need to sacrifice our wants for good..

2. maturity
by right as our age increases, we'll become more mature.. theoretically, life seems so simple.. practically, life is so complicated and all we need to do is to be wiser day by day.. hopefully, i'm on the right track.. on my way searching what my purpose of life is..

3. skills
of course more skills i obtain.. technical n non-technical ones.. designing to board gaming.. entertaining to jayuz-ing.. hehe..

4. knowledge
i owe u, NTU, bro n friends..!

5. height
glad i'm taller by 3 cm in last 4 years.. not bad ya!

6. weight
well.. i used to be very skinny during my first year (mm.. 54kg.. that's how skinny i was.. wew..) now....... mm.. glad i'm fatter.. but the fat, it's all stucked in my stomach.. that's what people call "gendut" or "buncit".. haha..

7. facial looks
ah, hope u like this part.. XD
ehem... i'm going to show u pics of me year by year starting when i was still in high school, how i look like, then u can judge whether i get better (i mean handsome or cute or adorable or kakoi or handsamu or hau kan or ho kua or yan tau or ganteng or cakap.. XD)

let's just get started..

high school

(kalo diliat2, cupu abis.. XD)

year 1

(mendingan.. it was a great outing!)

year 2

(that's why i'm getting fatter..)

year 3

(no doubt about it..)

year 4

(ah, 4th year kurang foto2 kynya.. XD)

now u can tell.. whether i'm........ or not.. =P
i know, i know.. i'm getting........., rite?

n now maybe u're wondering the secret i have that makes me more...........

ah, actually it's very confidential.. but since u have been reading this 'geje' entry close to the very end, i'll tell u my big big secret.. actually, i've been eating this sure cure medicine.. it can only be purchased with doctor's prescription (what am i talking about? haha..)

here the medicine looks like..

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(happen to find this pic in my old PC..)

hurry up, buy it before it's sold out!! XD

PS: hope this entry can entertain those who are in stressful condition.. =)

-andri-

.: Cinta Ini Membunuhku :.

2008-07-21T01:17:00.001+08:00

kau membuat ku berantakan
kau membuat ku tak karuan
kau membuat ku tak berdaya
kau menolakku acuhkan diriku

bagaimana caranya untuk
meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
ku sadari ku tak sempurna
ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan

reff:
kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu
tak sadarkah kau telah menyakitiku
lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
cinta ini membunuhku

bagaimana caranya untuk
meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
ku sadari ku tak sempurna
ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan

back to reff

lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
cinta ini membunuhku

by D'Masiv

-andri-
even my mom likes this song.. XD

.: Ck... :.

2008-07-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

why.......

darn......

honestly speaking, i'm getting worried now.. :(

-andri-
i'm sorry for everything, Lord..

.: Make It Good :.

2008-07-17T10:42:00.002+08:00

When you're weary
When you're down and out
Lay your hands on me
(Repeat)

I count my blessings
I think of all I have
She never thought about it
Then threw it all away
Left it all to chance
She tore down fences
Now it seems so wasted
Wish she could turn back time

Now she's down on her knees to pray
Begging please, make it good, make it good somehow
She will do what it takes to change
Someone please, make it good, make it good somehow
Someone please

When you're weary
When you're down and out
Lay your hands on me
(Repeat)

She had a vision
Time to make a stand
For all she used to be
To turn her life around
To take back yesterday
Is never easy
When you're on your own
It seems impossible, so

Now she's down on her knees to pray
Begging please, make it good, make it good somehow
She will do what it takes to change
Someone please, make it good, make it good somehow
Someone please

Welcome to your revolution
What you dream is what you see
There's no rules, no regulations
Let the music set you free

Now she's down on her knees to pray
Begging please, make it good, make it good somehow
She will do what it takes to change
Someone please, make it good, make it good somehow
Someone please

When you're weary
When you're down and out
Lay your hands on me
(Repeat)

by A1

-andri-

.: How to Waste Time.. :.

2008-07-16T23:14:00.004+08:00

bbrp ari belakangan gua tau cara menghabiskan wkt tp ga dgn sia2.. biasanya gua bosen abis di kamar ga ada kerjaan.. internet gua lelet bgt, jd males kalo mau browsing.. ntn tv bosen.. baca buku ngantuk.. (intinya banyak alesan.. =P)

bs gua bilang bonyok gua bukan tipe org yg pentingin dekor rumah.. mereka lebih maniak kerja sama ky koko gua.. beda ama gua.. gua orgnya lebih pengen sesuatu yg tertata.. n kebetulan rumah gua jg lg agak berantakan.. mumpung gua ga ada kerjaan jg.. so what i've been doing these days is cleaning up and redecorating my house.. ya, ga ampe major changes but still it brings impact..

alesannya simple aja.. bayangin kalo org dr pagi skul ato kerja ampe sore, trus pulang ngeliat everywhere is a mess.. stressnya bakal bertubi2.. beda kalo suasana rumah ato kamar lebih rapih, ada feeling yg enak buat istirahat.. krn basically rumah is supposed to be the best place to rest n release stresses..

n somehow, buat gua, pas lg ngerjain itu semua, ada feeling yg enak.. bs ngelupain pikiran2 sejenak.. relieving pas lg dekor2 nentuin tempat yg precise n cocok.. u can try it.. XD

hasilnya.. not bad.. haha.. at least bonyok gua hepi2 aje n terbukti mereka bs lebih tenang berada di rumah.. n i myself enjoy all things i've done so far.. blom selesai soalnya masi mikir mau diapain nich barang2 yg ga dipake tp masi disimpenin.. tiring but fun.. =)

-andri-
melupakan sejenak what's ahead of me..

.: A Poem for An Angel :.

2008-07-13T16:07:00.009+08:00

thought i was the sun..

but it isn't enough to warm your heart..

thought i was the wind..
but it couldn't soothe your mind..

thought i was the wall..
but it's rupture unable to protect you..

this feeling.. i hate it once..
and it's coming again..

i still know nothing.. about you..
and i'm not perfect at all..
but i am always glad..
to have seen an angel like you..

45.39.7

-andri-

.: Back on 21 July :.

2008-07-12T18:15:00.002+08:00

wew.. diundur lg ke spore-nya.. awalnya tgl 10.. undur 16.. n mundur lg 21..

kmrn coba jalan2 ama bonyok di lippo supermal, skalian beli baju buat bonyok.. pulang2, kaki gua sakit lg.. haizz... kynya emang kaki mesti diistirahatin total.. ck.. tp pinggang gua dah ok skrg.. :)

tp tetep aja bener2 ga bs ngapa2in skrg.. n ternyata baru sadar gua tambah gendut jg.. kerjaannya makan, tidur, duduk, makan lg.. XD

maklum dr kecil, gua ga pernah gendut.. selalu ceking.. makanya ga salah kalo td pas ketemu paman gua, dia bilang "gila loe dri, gendut amat loe skrg.. (sambil ngeliat perut gua.. XD)"

-andri-
must plan everything well as soon as i reach spore..

.: Permintaan Hati :.

2008-07-12T01:02:00.002+08:00

a combination of beautiful song, lyrics and video clip..

by Letto

-andri-

.: Indonesia Menangis :.

2008-07-10T23:54:00.002+08:00

sejujur-jujurnya, gua merasa sedih bgt buat indonesia saat ini. indonesia bener2 dalam masa2 krisis saat ini. krisis ekonomi, politik, bahkan kepercayaan n moral. menyedihkan sekali. ketika banyak sekali orang2 miskin di indonesia, orang2 ga tau diri yang menamakan diri mereka "Dewan Perwakilan Rakyat", bisa2nya menunjukkan sikap tidak bermoral.. kasus suap! gaji mereka yg notabene dah tinggi bgt, masi aja serakah n ga pernah mikirin rakyat2 jelata.. sekali lagi, namanya "Dewan Perwakilan Rakyat" ya artinya mereka bener2 mewakili suara rakyat indonesia, tp seenaknya aja mementingkan diri sendiri.. ini namanya erosi moral yang semakin parah. ga perlu gua sebutin di sini nama2 oknum2 itu.. beritanya dah geger bgt.

apa mereka ga pernah sekali aja merasakan jadi org miskin yg semiskin2nya.. yg makan aja paling2 cumen sekali sehari ato bahkan bs ga makan dalah sehari. makanan mereka cumen air beras! bayangkan beras yg dicuci, airnya itu buat makanan mereka. anggota "terhormat" DPR kita yg sehari bs makan daging 5 kg sehari, masi aja mau terima uang kotor! wew... kecewa sekali.. pas baru2 kampanye buat pemilihan, ngaku2nya cinta indonesia, nasionalisme tinggi.. ridiculous.. bukan cuma anggota DPR, tp jg anggota jaksa agung, menteri2, gubernur n banyak lg pejabat2 negara yg terlibat kasus2 kotor di negara ini.. :(

pendidikan di indonesia.. menyedihkan... ketika di china sekitar 80% org2nya bs mengecap pendidikan (level universitas), di indonesia hanya 30% yg bs mengecap pendidikan sampai level tersebut. bahkan uan yg baru2 ini dilaksanakan, banyak bgt yg ga lulus.. untung aja masi ada kejar paket C (alternatif buat yg ga lulus uan).. uan yg konon digunakan sebagai standar pendidikan indonesia, ternyata tidak didukung dengan sistem pendidikan yg bagus khususnya kualitas pendidik. no offense to say this, tapi di NTT ada anak2 yg ga lulus SMA krn dapet nilai 2 di uan-nya.. mm, ntah anaknya yg males luar biasa n cuek ato emang pendidiknya yg ga berkualitas.. ga bs sepenuhnya menyalahkan pendidik, toh gaji guru di indo amat sangat kecil n memprihatinkan.. gimana mereka bs bersemangat mengajar kalo toh kebutuhan dasar mereka aja ga bs terpenuhi.. mereka harus kerja sampingan lg.. :(

pemerataan daerah ga pernah terwujud, alhasil hanya kota2 besar yg berkembang.. sisanya, bener2 terbelakang.. makanya, yg namanya urbanisasi dah ga bs terbendung n kota2 besar dipenuhi lautan manusia.. banyak manusia ga bs diimbangi jumlah lapangan pekerjaan yg memadai, sehingga banyak pengangguran.. pengangguran tinggi menyebabkan kecemburuan sosial, di mana org kaya itu kaya bgt tp yg miskin miskin bgt... ujung2nya kriminalitas bertambah banyak.. :(

perusahaan2 negara (BUMN) ky PLN bs setiap tahunnya mengalami defisit.. trus koq masi bs bertahan? ya, ambil dr APBN buat nutupin kerugian.. padahal indo termasuk salah satu penghasil batu bara terbesar di dunia.. n batu bara ini skrg lg digunain buat mensupport PLN buat ngasilin listrik di indo. tp apa yg terjadi... indo skrg krisis listrik jg... ujung2nya mulai 11 Juli-25 Juli bakal ada penggiliran pemadaman listrik di wilayah Jabodetabek selama 7 jam setiap hari. fyi, di luar wilayah tersebut, setiap harinya slalu ada pemadaman listrik secara bergilir n skrg pusat kota pemerintahan pun kena dampak. traffic light terancam mati n bs dibayangkan jakarta yg dah macet setengah mati, bs lebih macet lg...... :(

menjelang pemilu 2009, baru 3 ari lalu diputuskan bakal ada 34 parpol yg dah disetujui KPU n lolos seleksi. dibanding pemilu sebelumnya sich emang lebih dikit, tp tetep aja rakyat bakal lebih bingung buat milih.. n diperkirakan jumlah pemilih yg bakal mencoblos golput bakal lebih tinggi akibat krisis kepercayaan rakyat kepada politisi2 indonesia.. oh, iya salah satu buktinya, ya makin banyaknya artis2 indonesia yg bs n mau masuk ke jajaran pemerintahan daerah.. contohnya Rano Karno, Dede Yusuf, Helmi Yahya, dll.. mungkin rakyat dah ga bs percaya lg ama politisi2 indo yg jago ngomong tp actionnya ga baik, sehingga mereka lebih milih artis2 yg wawasan pengetahuannya ga kalah ama politisi2 itu.. :(

masi banyak lg masalah yg dihadapin indo.. gua turut prihatin.. n rakyat2 indonesia maunya pemerintah yg bs dengan instan menyelesaikan seluruh masalah di indo, padahal itu membutuhkan proses n waktu yg cukup panjang.. alhasil setiap ada pemerintahan baru, selalu dikecam ato didemo n ujung2nya setiap pemilu selalu ada pemimpin2 yg baru lg yg tentunya mereka punya program2 mereka sendiri.. :(

1 hal yg bs gua banggain skrg mungkin insan musik indonesia yg terus berkembang.. musik2 indo makin bagus2 n enak didenger.. :) good job!! makin kompetitif, tp kualitas musiknya makin beraneka ragam.. banyak bgt band2 baru yg langsung bs masuk ke jajaran atas musik indo kayak d'massive, yovie & nuno, andra & the backbone, samsons, tangga, dll.. two thumbs up!

ah, bukan indonesia doank yg menangis.. gua jg menangis nich.. krn mulai 11 juli ada pemadam listrik bergilir n daerah gua jg kena.. 7 jam setiap hari ampe 25 juli.. :( dah jamuran di rumah, tambah jamuran lg d.. hehe..

-andri-
but i'm still proud to be an indonesian..

.: Little Frustation :.

2008-07-09T16:39:00.004+08:00

well, gua masi di indo ampe skrg dr sejak tgl 26 jun.. maap yo buat temen2 yg ga gua kasi tau kalo gua di indo.. it was a very urgent decision.. mm.. oma gua, she passed away 2 weeks ago.. makanya gua harus balik.. wew.. cepet jg ya 2 minggu berlalu.. everyone in my family dah ga sedih lagi koq.. hidup dah berjalan normal.. :)

seharusnya gua balik tgl 10 juli nanti.. tapi baru aja tadi bonyok minta diundur sampe tgl 16 juli bahkan tiket return gua hangus ga bakal dipake.. :( sebenernya gua pengen balik ke spore skrg.. masi banyak bgt yg pengen gua lakuin.. okay, i'm still jobless... banyak bgt yg nanya gua dah dapet kerja blom.. ya normal sich ya, soalnya gua kan dah lulus, jd pertanyaannya pasti seputar gituan d..

tp kalo 1 org yg manggil2 gua trus2an nanyain dah dapet kerja blom itu yg bikin gua agak frustrated.. n lebih, ini ada 2 org.. haha.. ok, ada 2 temen gua (anggap aja A n B) kalo kita ketemuan ato sama2 ol msn, slalu nanya "dah dapet kerja blom?" ya since gua blom dapet, gua bilang aja "blom".. toh gua bukannya diem2 doank ga cari kerja.. tp respons si A n B ini bikin gua agak bete.. mereka slalu bilang "cari oi!! eh, cepetan kali.. bla2.."

wew.. si A n B ini temen lama gua n mereka dah dapet kerja, so gua tau bgt kalo mereka nanya emang mereka concern.. tp tone dari gaya ngomong mereka mungkin agak salah kali y.. mereka cenderung ngejudge kalo gua ga niat buat cari kerja.. wkt itu sempet memanas ngomongnya ama si A di kantin 5.. haha.. tp blakangan gua sadar gua agak salah jg.. effort gua kalo dipikir2 ga sebesar anak2 yg laen.. si A jg sadar kalo gua emang agak picky ttg kerjaan..

gua ngomong2 ama bonyok gua jg sich.. mereka bilang usaha trus buat dapetin kerjaan yg loe mau.. krn loe bakal kerja ga cumen 1-2 bulan, tp mungkin bs 1,2 ato 3 taon.. kerjaan loe mesti yg loe suka.. so, cari kerja kalo agak lamaan dikit jg gpp.. bonyok gua malah terkesan agak santai.. mereka bilang santai aja.. nikmatin liburan dulu.. sembuhin pinggang dulu.. :)

si B jg keluar dgn pendapat yg cukup masuk akal.. cari kerja jgn ampe kelamaan kalo ga company bakal liat loe ga competent.. koq dah lulus lama, tp baru dapet kerja skrg..... ada benernya jg sich.. wkt itu chat2 n jg ngomongin kerjaan di field yg ga sesuai ama bidang yg loe suka..

agak frustasi jg akhir2 ini.. tdnya gua pikir bs balik ke spore tgl 10 soalnya dah lama jg di indo.. tp bonyok bilang harus diundur krn pinggang gua ga sembuh2.. padahal gua dah cukup istirahat di rumah.. gua dah berusaha ga pergi2 ama sapapun.. (sori, Raymond, wkt itu ga bls sms loe, gua ga bs pegi, mond..) bener2 stagnant di rumah ampe bosen abis.. internet lelet luar biasa gara2 gua kan ga subscribe, jd pake yg instant connection (telkom).. bah...... offline mulu..

sebenernya pinggang gua dah lumayan mendingan pas ari sabtu.. trus nyokap dikasi tau tante gua kalo ada 1 bapak yg jago ngurut.. bayangkan gua harus ke sukabumi cumen buat nemuin bapak itu.. kira2 1.5 jam d dari rumah gua.. pas nyampe di rumah dia, dah banyak bgt org yg pengen diurut jg.. n denger2 bapak ini jago bgt.. dah bbrp org ceritain achievement bapak ini dr kehidupan mereka sendiri.. yg fantastis itu ada 1 org yg kata dokter kakinya mesti diamputasi ampe2 org ini shock berat.. tp pas org itu dibawa ke bapak ini langsung sembuh total.. padahal bener2 cumen ngurut biasa.. furthermore, bapak ini bener2 sukarela terima bayaran.. berapapun dia terima.. rumahnya sederhana bgt.. salut2.. masi ada org yg ky gini.. wew.. dunia ga selamanya kejam ternyata.. :)

unfortunately, list of achievement-nya itu ga ada nama gua di dalemnya.. maksudnya ga ada
"Bapak X berhasil menyembuhkan pinggang dan telapak pemuda bernama Andri Setiawan yg ganteng.." oops.. XD
kira2 setengah jam gua diurut abis2an.. hehe.. tp hasilnya ga memuaskan.. pinggang n kaki gua tambah sakit berat.. gua ampe kesel bgt.. :( tp setelah gua pikir2 lg, itu bapak menurut gua lebih jago kalo ngurut2 tulang.. dari cerita2 yg gua denger itu intinya berhubungan ama tulang.. bukan ama otot ato syaraf.. wew..

nyokap ngajakin gua ke shinsei yg laen.. gua dah frustrated sich ampe bilang ke nyokap gua ga mau diurut n ke dokter lg.. gua masi bs ngontrol emosi sich, soalnya gua sadar yg salah itu dari awal gua bkn nyokap.. abis emang dah 4 bulan gua ga pernah bener2 diobatin.. cumen ngoles counterpain ato arak.. n baru2 ini gua recall back kejadian yg menimpa koko gua bbrp wkt lalu..

koko gua dulu punya HLA27 yg bs mengarah ke arthritis.. tulang lutut koko gua membengkak n dia ga bs jalan normally kira2 3-4 bulan.. dulu dia sempet frustrated bgt.. dia kira ga bakal sembuh lg.. it was a very tough time for him.. kejadiannya pas bgt pas dia 21 taon.. jd ky gua skrg d.. makanya baru2 ini gua sempet cek darah n kebetulan lutut gua pas 1.5 taon lalu pernah bengkak gede jg tp sembuh koq..

but i guess koko gua saat itu emang lebih mature drpd gua saat ini.. (kalo kalian mau tau ceritanya, just click here) lot things to learn from him.. tdnya gua ga mau diundur ke spore.. tp gua rasa gua cumen pengen nyenengin ego gua.. in other words, gua mentingin diri sendiri d dengan alesan gua jg bakalan bs istirahat total di spore..

banyak bgt dari diri gua yg mesti diperbaikin.. two of them are maturity and patience.. patience in everything.. i'm 22 now..... :)

-andri-
i only think of my ego.. i'm just not patient enough..

.: Eros :.

2008-07-07T00:22:00.004+08:00

ain't a game..
it is a story..

one ever asked,

"what is love?"

one ever said,

"to love is indeed more difficult than being in love....."

one ever answered,

"i don't know yet..."

-andri-
i want to know more..

.: i wanna be.. :.

2008-07-04T01:00:00.008+08:00

it's been my resolution for the past 2 years..
but i failed to achieve it..
i've grown up..
i'm getting more mature..
and i’m no a boy anymore..

i wanna be better.. at work
i wanna be better.. at thoughts
i wanna be better.. as a son
i wanna be better.. as a friend
i wanna be better.. in life
i wanna be better.. in love

i wanna be a better man..

-andri-
Happy 26th Anniversary, Mom & Dad

.: In Process of Recovery :.

2008-07-03T23:35:00.002+08:00

kira2 dah 4 bulan terakhir ini pinggang gua sakit n sakitnya ngejalar ampe telapak kaki gua sich.. ya, dugaan pertama gua sich gara2 wkt ngerjain fyp.. soalnya bulan februari-maret itu masa2 paling sibuk ngerjain fyp.. beli bahan2 (pipa, besi, aluminium, acrylic, bla2..), manufacturing, assembling.. karena mesin gua ini masih prototype, alhasil mesin gua itu gedenya segede "bagong" (ini yg tiap kali gua bilang ke org.. haha..).. beratnya kalo diitung pake software harusnya sich cumen 18 kg-an.. cumen pas grup fyp gua timbang2, beratnya kira2 20 kg-an.. n bbrp kali grup gua ini angkat2 nich mesin n krn di antara gua bertiga yg paling kecil, ga pernah ikt NS n otot-less itu gua, ya gua d yg kena cedera.. XD emang sich ga dalam sekali angkat langsung cedera, tp bertahap.. soalnya tiap ari pas weekdays gua kan di workshop ngerjain yg berat2..

awal2nya gua ngerasa sakit itu pas gua lagi duduk di kamar sambil chatting.. ada something wrong ama pinggang ampe ke bagian paha gua.. ngerasa ga enak aja.. honestly speaking, gua pikir pertama kali gua bakal kena wasir.. XD soalnya kalo pulang dr skul, kerjaan gua itu duduk nyalain kompie n standby ampe malem.. ga brp lama, gua inget gua diajak temen gua, Timmy, maen bola di NIE wkt weekend.. kebetulan gua lg butuh refreshing drpd mikirin fyp mulu.. akhirnya gua ikt d pagi2 maen bola.. nah pas maen itu dah mulai kerasa koq lari gua makin aneh.. n ga bbrp lama ada 1 org yg lg pengen nyundul bola sambil terbang ke angkasa n ga sengaja nabrak gua pas di pinggang yg lg cedera ampe gua jatoh.. wah pas itu kerasa bener sakitnya.. pulang2 gua istirahat total.......... tp 1 minggu kemudian gua maen bola lg di hall 2 n mulai dari situ gua ga bs lari.. cumen nendang2 bola doank.. ampe2 diketawain temen2 gua lg gara2 lari dah ky kakek2.. bangkok.. XD

sebenernya sakitnya sich ga terlalu parah.. lebih ke arah pegel2 gt kerasanya.. n ini berlangsung trusss ampe abis exam.. n pas itu sebenernya dah lumayan mendingan sich.. dah ga sakit lg.. makanya gua maen bola, ikt acara PINTU F4 (acara perpisahan 4th year).. pas maen dah ky normal gt.. bs lari ky biasa.. wah, gua dah seneng bener.. tp pulang2, langsung sakit bgt n gua ga bs jalan normal.. jalan dah ky handicap.. kapok d maen bola abis itu..

ga brp lama ke dokter di sgh buat rontgen tulang.. dicek darah jg gpp.. knapa cek darah intinya gua ngecek apakah gua kena HLA27 yg bs ngarah ke arthritis.. thx God i'm okay.. abis itu di indo gua dah dipijat dengan berbagai cara mulai dr conventional massage ampe pake kompor buat dipanasin.. haha.. makan obat anti-inflammatory.. tp inti2nya ga bs sembuhin total sich.. ilang kambuh ilang kambuh.. n 2 ari lalu gua ikt sodara gua berenang n pulang2 dr berenang, tambah parah bgt.. bener2 nyeri n gua cumen bs tiduran.. wew..

kmrn gua ke dokter bedah syaraf di indo.. pas masuk2 dokternya langsung tau n dia bilang banyak anak2 muda skrg yg kena sakit pinggang.. biasanya gara2 bantalan otot di bagian pantat (maaf) yg pecah n menghimpit syaraf n kalo dibiarin lama bs lumpuh.. kalo pecahannya ga parah, minum obat cukup.. tp kalo parah, terpaksa operasi meskipun ga berat (rawat inap 2 hari).. buat ngecek apakah bantalannya pecah ato ngga, gua harus cek melalui MRI.. well, itu pertama kalinya gua MRI n ktnya ga bole sering2 karena it involves radioactive.. and again thx God bantalan otot gua normal kt dokternya..

lha? gua jdnya knapa donk?

dokter bilang sich kemungkinan terakhir ya sendi gua radang.. hmm.. i doubt it.. abis tuch dokter ngomong agak meragukan n gua disuru makan obat 4 macem!! n semua obat itu setelah gua tanya paman gua, ahli pharmacy, semuanya anti radang.. ckck.. tp dia saranin gua physiotherapy pake shortwave treatment n ultrasonic sound buat therapy-nya.. enak jg ternyata.. XD tp sebelom therapy gua ketemu 1 dokter yg laen n kali ini dokter itu bilang ini masalah otot n sendi.. yg bagian pinggang itu sendi n bagian kaki itu otot.. n yg diagnosa dokter kali ini lebih masuk akal sich..

so.. rite now i'm in process of recovery.. no soccer at least for 2 months i guess.. cya in 2 months, soccermates...

-andri-

.: Gathering :.

2008-07-01T01:05:00.004+08:00

seminggu terakhir ini, keluarga besar (dr bokap) ngumpul.. it was a very tiring week.. meskipun gua dateng br hari kamis, tp gua ngerasa cape n berat bgt.. pulang2 dr spore, langsung ke jkt ampe tengah malem.. n tiap ari dr pagi2 ampe malem2 kita ada di jkt.. pulang rumah langsung teler.. wew..

tp liat sisi positifnya.. dah lama bgt kita dah ga ngumpul selengkap ini.. apalagi kebanyakan dah pd married n ada jg yg tinggal di luar indo.. dr 9 anak n 30 cucu akong, cumen 1 cucu yg ga dateng soalnya ga bs balik ke indo jg..

sayangnya, bkn buat event seneng2 ky dulu.. but still it's memorable.. kapan lagi bs kumpul2 ky gini.. n ternyata kalo diitung2 ponakan gua banyak bener n gua baru sadar pas balik indo akhir2 ini.. wew..

ah, keluarga besar gua itu punya "tradisi" khusus.. kalo ngumpul, yang penting ketawa n makan.. sounds funny, rite? emang keluarga gua ini demen bgt ketawa.. ga harus melulu sedih, tp di sela2 wkt senggang pas minggu lalu, kita sempetin wkt ngobrol2, ketawa2, makan2.. lumayan d.. apalagi gua kan dah lama jg ga ketemu mereka n gua termasuk yg muda di antara2 generasi cucu2 yg notabene dah umur minimal 30 ke atas.. so, gua ga gt deket ama mereka2.. tp pas minggu lalu, lumayan jg.. mungkin gua kan dah lulus jg.. pemikiran dah lebih mature.. ngobrol bs nyambung.. so lebih 'in' ama mereka2..

anyway, i'm longing to have another big family gathering.. tp buat happier times.. =)

-andri-
feel so tired...

.: God of Wonders :.

2008-06-24T23:36:00.007+08:00

Lord of all creation
of water earth and sky
The Heavens are Your Tabernacle
Glory to the Lord on high

Chorus:
God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are Holy, Holy
The universe declares Your Majesty
And You are holy holy

Lord of Heaven and earth
Lord of Heaven and earth

Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light
When I stumble in the darkness
I will call Your name by night

Chorus

Lord of Heaven and earth
Lord of Heaven and earth

Hallelujah to the Lord of Heaven and earth (3x)

Holy...Holy...Holy God.....

Chorus

Precious Lord reveal Your heart to me....
Father Holy..
(backround)Holy... Holy... Lord God almighty...

The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy,holy,holy,holy

Halleujah to the Lord of Heaven and earth (6x)

-andri-
I know the Heaven is celebrating because one precious angel has come back home...
I gotta stand up.. Nothing to be sad about anymore.. =)

.: 谢谢.. :.

2008-06-24T11:34:00.006+08:00

even the sky is crying for a moment..
it's still hard to take...

let angel be an angel in heaven always..
谢谢您..
-andri-
i'll never ever disappoint you again.. i'll make you proud..

.: A Good Listener :.

2008-06-23T01:08:00.005+08:00

kira2 ari jumat tengah malem, satu temen gua dateng ke kamar.. ktnya dia mau ngobrol2.. ga tanggung2 kita ngobrol lumayan lama.. ampe jam 3.30.. wew.. kebetulan gua n edbert termasuk temen deketnya, tp dah agak lama temen gua ini ga ada kabar yg jelas.. n baru ari itu gua tau...

ternyata dia ada masalah yg cukup berat n sempet membuat dia depresi.. tp dia bilang dia dah bs ngelaluin masa depresinya itu n dia yakin Tuhan sebenernya ga ninggalin dia, tapi Dia kasi jalan yg terbaik buat dia.. jujurnya, gua bukan org yg pinter ngomong.. jd agak bingung tiap kali kalo org ada masalah, mesti dihiburnya gimana.. so, gua cumen bs ngelucu (ky biasa...), ngejayus ato ngomongin topik laen termasuk 'boy's talk'.. hoho..

tp emang setelah dipikir2 lebih matang, he's rite.. setiap org pasti tertekan n bs sedih kalo lagi ada masalah.. tp bukan buat di-sedih-in lama2.. n dia bahkan bs berbalik ke Tuhan.. that's what i'm lacking of now.. gua kyk 'lost' in the middle of nowhere.. n coba kalo gua yg dapet masalah itu? kyknya gua tau gua bakal gimana kalo gua di situasi temen gua..

these days i've been slacking abis.. bukannya gua ga ada kerjaan jg.. sebenernya ada.. n gua jg ada masalah2 sendiri.. wew... pusing jg.. tp kadang2 bs ngelupain masalah2 itu dengan ngisi wkt buat hal2 yg gua lg suka.. hehe..

posting ini agak aneh sich.. gua ga tau mau nulis apaan.. cumen kyk pengen coret2 aja.. rasanya enak jg kalo punya blog.. bisa buat tulis apa lg pengen loe tulis.. i treat this blog as my friend who is always being my good listener, but not the best one...... =)

-andri-
i dunno where to start... am i on the right track of my life?

.: The Magic Thread :.

2008-06-21T00:19:00.008+08:00

this is a good story taken from The Book of Virtues by William J. Bennet. so here the story goes...

Peter is a boy who is strong and able, yet sadly flawed by an attitude of impatience.. always dissatisfied with his present condition, he spends his life daydreaming about the future.

one day in the forest, he meets an old woman who gives him a tantalizing opportunity - the chance to skip the dull, mundane moments of life.. she then hands Peter a silver ball from which a tiny gold thread protrudes.

"this is your life thread," she explains. "do not touch it and time will pass normally. but if you wish time to pass more quickly, you have only to pull the thread a little way and an hour will pass like a second. but I warn you, once the thread has been pulled out, it cannot be pushed back in again..."

this magical thread is just what Peter has always wanted.. he takes the ball and runs home..

the next day in school for the first time he tries to put the silver ball to use. the lesson is dragging and the teacher scolds Peter for not concentrating.. Peter fingers the silver ball and gives the thread a slight tug.. suddenly.. the teacher dismisses the class and all the students are free to leave school.. Peter is overjoyed! how easy his life will now be. from this moment, he begins to pull the thread a little every day. but soon he uses it to rush through larger portions of life.. Peter pulls the thread hard and then he finds out that he has already completed his studies..

Peter uses the same technique to rush through his engagement to his sweetheart.. he cannot bear to wait months to marry her, so he uses the gold thread to hasten the arrival of his wedding day..

Peter continues this pattern throughout his life. when hard, trying times come, he escapes them with his magic thread. when his baby cries at night, when he faces financial struggles, when he wishes his children to be launched in careers of their own, Peter simply pulls the magic thread and bypasses the discomfort moment..

sadly, when he comes to the end of his life, Peter realizes the emptiness of such an existence.. by allowing impatience and discontentment to rule him, Peter has robbed himself of life's richest moments and memories.. with only the grave to look forward to, he deeply regrets ever having used the magic thread...........

morale of the story: too often, people want what they want right now.. they're just too impatient whenever they face hard times.. life isn't only about happiness.. sometimes problems are meant to shape up your life to even a better one.. so, treasure every moment of your life whether it is happy or discomforting times...

life is just beautiful if you feel it so...

-andri-

.: Happy Father's Day :.

2008-06-15T18:19:00.009+08:00

not many people know that actually today is a Father's Day.. it's the day we at least show how grateful and thankful we are to our father.. but it doesn't mean that u need not feel that on the other days..

the video clip that i wanna show below is a true story about one father who is actually having a heart problem, Dick Hoyt, and his son who is disabled, Rick Hoyt.

a little bit background story prior to this clip: one day, the son told his father that he wanted to join the 'ironman' competition.. ironman competition?? well, it's neither a competition of ironing clothes as many as u can nor a competition of making a costume of the ironman like in the movie.. it's actually a combination of running, swimming and cycling competition.. u may ask how long is the track distance? let me tell you, the race encompasses three endurance events; a 2.4 mile (3.86 kilometer) ocean swim in Kailua-Kona Bay, a 112 mile (180.2 kilometer) bike ride across the Hawaiian lava desert to Hawi and back, and a 26.2 mile (42.195 kilometer) marathon along the coast of the Big Island (from Keauhou to Keahole Point to Kailua-Kona); finishing on Ali'i Drive. the real name of this competition is The Ironman World Triathlon Championship.

hmm.. from my rationale, i don't think the father could endure such a long distance.. besides he's already old enough, he's also having a heart problem.. he should not join the competition as he would risk his own life..! but guess what!? he fulfilled his son's request without thinking so much about his health condition.. he just wanted to do everything to make his son happy.. what a caring and loving father he is.. =)

and there it goes, while the other participants ran, swam and biked all by their own, Dick Hoyt did those together with his son.. i'm stunned.. that's what i call a power of love.. just watch the video and i'm sure u'll be moved..

don't forget to tell ur father how much u love him.. i know u do, it's simply because ur father loves u in the first place.. =)

-andri-

Dick Hoyt, he's my inspiration.. wanna be like him in the future..

.: Feeling A Moment :.

2008-06-14T14:37:00.009+08:00

Feeling the moment slip away
Losing direction, you're loosing faith
You're wishing for someone,
Feeling it all begin to slide
Am I just like you?
All the things you do - can't help myself...

How do you feel when there's no sun?
And how will you be when rain clouds come and pull you down again?
How will you feel when there's no one?
Am I just like you?

Turning to face what you've become,
Buried the ashes of someone
Broken by the strain
Trying to fill that space inside
Am I just like you?
All the things you do - can't help myself

How do you feel when there's no sun?
And how will you be when rain clouds come and pull you down again?
How will you feel when there's no one?
Am I just like you?
All the things you do

Don't ever feel that you're alone
I'll never let you down, I'll never leave you dry
Don't fall apart, don't let it go
Carry the notion, carry the notion back to me, to me...

Feeling the moment slip away
Feeling the moment slip away

Cause I'm just like you

How do you feel when there's no sun?
And how will you be when rain clouds come and pull you down again?
How do you feel when there's no one?
Am I just like you?

by Feeder

-andri-
nice song...

.: Babe :.

2008-06-13T22:01:00.003+08:00

lagu tua lagi.. zaman gua masi kecil mungil sd gt.. haha.. gua cumen tau lagu2 tua doank, so don't comment.. =P

anyway, nich lagu awalnya koko gua yg demen.. ampe dia beli kasetnya, diputer beribu-ribu kali, dinyanyiin beratus-ratus kali.. (makanya gua jd ketularan, sering repeat2 lagu ampe beribu2 kali.. don't blame me.. hehe..)

ini zaman2nya boyband masi terkenal.. yup, "babe" salah satu lagu terkenal zaman dulu yg dinyanyiin ama caught in the act.. lagunya simple tp bagus..

Chorus:
You know it's you babe
Whenever I get weary and I've had enough
Feel like giving up
You know it's you babe
Giving me the courage and the strength
I need
Please believe that it's true
Babe I love you

Babe I'm leaving
I must be on my way
The time is drawing near
My train is going
I see it in your eyes
The love beneath your tears
But I'll be lonely without you
and I'll need your love to see me through
So please believe me
My heart is in your hands
And I'll be missing you

Chorus

Babe I'm leaving
I say it once again
And somehow try to smile
I know the feeling
I'm trying to forget
If only for a while
'Cos I'll be lonely without you
and I'll need your love to see me through
Please believe me
My heart is in your hands
Cos I'll be missing you

Chorus

Babe I love you (till fade)

by Caught in the Act

-andri-

.: Life :.

2008-06-11T22:41:00.004+08:00

kali ini dalam indo d.. biar lebih leluasa nulisnya..

barusan dari kamar nathan.. gua, jordan n nathan ngumpul n ngobrol2.. dah lama jg kita betiga ga ngumpul2.. maklum, kita betiga sama2 dari 1 SMA n dulu sering pulang bareng..

kita ngobrolin hal2 yg biasa diobrolin anak2 final year.. KERJA.. gua belajar banyak hal dari ngobrol2 gini.. hal paling dasar dari hidup..

"hidup itu apa sich?"
"buat apa kita hidup? duit? jadi kaya? jadi terkenal?"

udah biasa, kalo anak2 final year ngomong stress ato pusing cari kerja.. apalagi buat dapetin kerjaan yg sesuai dengan passion ato at least field-nya kita.. ada sebagian besar dari kita mikirin 5 ato 10 taon ke depan jadi apa.. ada yg mau jadi manager, GM, CFO, CEO.. itu normal koq..

anak2 engineering ada yg mau jadi engineer tapi ada jg yg pengen pindah ke bidang laen, sebut aja finance, banking, sales ato entertainment.. kalo emang ga seneng ama engineering napa harus ambil engineering...

gua jg mikir2 emang sistem edukasi indonesia n sistem pemikiran ortu2 indo zaman2 skrg ga sepenuhnya bener.. org2 pinter diidentikan dengan yg namanya IPA.. bkn berarti anak IPS ga pinter ya.. (no offense) tp org2 indo itu cumen ngeliat matematika, fisika, kimia n biologi sebagai pelajaran yg palinggggg penting dalam hidup.. wew.. makanya, org2 yg jago di pelajaran itu masuknya kalo ga dokter ya teknik (engineering).. jurusan selaen itu dibilangnya ga ada gunanya.. mindset org2 skrg bilang kalo dokter n engineering punya masa depan cerah.. soalnya dari engineering kan biasa org pindah ke bisnis.. org2 IPA dibilangnya punya logic bagus.. soalnya kan dealing ama fisika n matematika trus.. (ah, sapa bilanggg!!)

wuih.. salah besar euy.. tp di sisi lain ortu kita jg ga bs disalahin.. justru mereka kan pastinya pengen yg terbaik buat anak2nya.. n mereka lebih punya pengalaman n asam garamnya dunia kerja daripada kita.. so pasti kadang2 mereka ga setuju ama apa yg lg kita pengen tekunin di dunia kerja.. it's normal.. apalagi ortu gua yg notabene bukan org yg berpendidikan tinggi.. gua dah bs skul ampe setinggi ini, gua dah bersyukur euy.. =) n syukur jg d emang mungkin gua jg pengennya dealing ama product.. hoho..

anyway, we're not robots!! kita bs mikir n kita punya kelebihan masing2..
kalo kita punya talenta n passion di bidang musik, napa harus masuk dokter?
kalo demen n jago masak, napa harus masuk komputer?
kalo kita jago komunikasi n interaksi, napa harus masuk engineering?
and furthermore, this is my life.. ini hidup gua.. emang sich harus tetep diguide.. tp bukan buat dipaksakan.. itu beda..

gua lumayan tercengang jg pas nathan bilang kalo dia dah punya passion sendiri di bidang selain engineering n dia emang sungguh2 pengen menekuni bidang itu regardless bayarannya kecil ato ngga.. salut2.. gua jarang ngeliat org2 yg ga money-oriented.. he's one of them.. kadang2 gua ngerasa iri jg.. hehe.. he's really into it.. kalo gua... cari kerja aja dah males2an gini.. wew.. ck.. =P

napa ya duit slalu jadi masalah? napa duit yg biasanya slalu jadi tujuan dari karir kita? napa duit slalu jadi tolak ukur kesuksesan hidup seseorang? napa kita mesti kerja mati2an ampe punya duit banyak kalo toh who knows kita bs jatoh sakit gara2 terlalu stress..?

org yg bs earn S$40,000/month.. yup, he's for real.. gua pernah liat org itu pas campus interview kmrn.. padahal dia baru 26 taon.. wow.. gua bener2 kagum sich.. dia sukses.. sukses di pekerjaan tp blom tentu di hidup dia.. dia kerja dari pagi ampe tengah malem.. stress.. interaksi dia cumen digunain cumen buat bisnis (ketemu client).. ga buat relationship life dia.. ga ngerti dia mau gt ampe kapan.. yah bagus sich dia bs kerja passionately n earn sesuatu yg dia deserve gt.. anyway, ga mau judge dia soalnya ga gt kenal dia sich.. tp.. koq rasanya itu bukan tipikal gua nantinya ya.. haha.. mungkin gua bukan tipe org yg optimistic yg pengen kaya jadi biliuner.. gua pengen jd org yg biasa2 aja d.. ya punya duit berkecukupan.. enough buat life needs and enjoyment..

n yg jelas, gua ga pengen jadi kesepian.. temen n keluarga itu bukan 'objek' buat bisnis kita (itu prinsip gua..).. makanya gua benci bgt ama org yg kerja di MLM, Amway, asuransi, bla2, yg biasanya slalu approach keluarga2 mereka dulu buat diplorotin duitnya, buat beli product dia.. i had some bad experiences with it.. ama sodara spupu sendiri lg.. ckckckck.. kalo mau cari customer, usaha sendiri.. cari kenalan sendiri.. kalo product-nya bagus, pembeli jg datang dengan sendirinya koq..

kalo gua... sejauh ini yg terpikir sich pengen ambil engineering.. bkn gara2 paksaan sapa2 koq.. gua emang pengen yg ada hubungannya ama product ato system design.. gua pengennya sich enjoy kerjanya.. ga harus kerja ampe tengah malem.. tp itu tuntutan kerja sich.. ckckck.. dunia kerja (bisnis) itu kejam sebenernya kalo dipikir2 lg.. 5-8 taon lg mungkin di spore.. abis itu sebenernya pengen balik indo... meski indo itu lg krisis berat.. tp itu tetep negara gua berasal.. mungkin ada sense of belonging.. kalo di negara laen meski ky spore, koq tetep ngerasa ky org asing ya gua.. alternative: china ato oz..

setelah itu.. kalo dah agak tua, gua pengen buka restoran kalo bs.. haha.. XD

tp pas nathan denger gua ngomong gt, dia nanya napa loe pengen buka resto??

napa ya? ga tau jg napa.. gua pengen buka resto aja.. menarik.. mungkin gara2 nyokap gua jago masak.. luar biasa dia.. gua pengen aja bljr masak tp ga skrg.. kalo gua balik indo, nyokap cape2an masakin buat gua.. padahal dia kan dari pagi ampe sore kerja, trus pulang2 masak.. cape pastinya.. keringatan mah dah biasa gua liat dia.. tp yg dia cumen pengen denger itu kata "enak!" setiap kali gua ato koko gua makan makanan dia.. n emang bener.. masakan nyokap gua itu enak.. sincerely dari hati gua, gua bilang enak.. hehe.. n nyokap seneng abis meskipun dia ga punya appetite lg buat makan gara2 kecapean masak.. tp itu bener2 jadi kesenengan sendiri buat dia... itu yg pengen gua rasain.. hehe..

abis itu kami bertiga ngobrol2 lagi lha.. ngomongin aja hidup itu buat apa sebenernya.. menurut gua terlalu naif ya kalo kita hidup buat cari duit banyak.. gua ga bilang kalo punya duit banyak salah.. gua jg pengen punya duit banyak.. tp yg gua highlight itu "hidup buat apa".. bbrp temen di sekitar gua jg nanyain itu sich.. jujurnya, gua jg lg struggle nyari.. nyari..

complicated sich kalo dipikirin.. tp itu mau ga mau.. kita mesti mikirin jg in the end.. bnyk org bilang real life baru mulai pas kita dah selesai kuliah n kerja.. ah, bagi gua real life itu ada pas sejak pertama kali kita lahir.. hehe.. bljr, ngerjain peer, ujian, n yg paling penting pembentukan karakter sich.. yup.. tp menurut gua lg, kejamnya dunia itu baru kerasa pas dunia kerja.. hehe.. so, gua lg mau enjoy masa2 indah liburan di ntu dulu.. hehe..

-andri-
gonna miss shool days a lot..

.: Andri Setiawan, B.Eng :.

2008-06-05T20:30:00.008+08:00

hurray..!! at last..!! i'm a bachelor of mechanical engineering!!

yesterday nite i was very nervous and anxious because unlike previous semesters, this semester's examination results would determine whether u pass or have to add another 6 months of study with no honour.. right at 00:00 i was ready in front of the computer, logged on my studentlink, and opened my degree auditto check my examination results........... i was waiting....... quite a long time....... the page, it's still loading........

suddenly........ jrenggg!!!

the result wasn't out in degree audit yet!! arghh....

but not a long time after that, i saw one of my friend's nickname on msn stating "It's official now.. lulus (graduate)..." ha?! without thinking so long, i asked him whether he had seen his examination results or not.. and he simply answered yes, he had... glek.. my negative thoughts all of sudden were shadowing me.. "mm.. maybe, u fail one of the subject and the school would like to release urs in the morning when u have really prepared urself to accept the truth.." --> what am i thinking!? =P

after that, i started to pray... i know that i've done my best this sem although i skipped most of the classes due to my fyp.... then i tried another option to check the result by accessing studentlink-examinations-using SSO/using PIN.. again, i was waiting.. waiting.. and waiting..

jrenggg!!

ERROR!!! ha?! page error?? arghh... what is happening!?! i asked another friend of mine.. he also had already seen his results.. how come?! am i the only one who couldn't access the result?? i was a bit fed up.. so i decided to sleep rather than wasted my time waiting for the uncertainty like this.. it was already 2AM.. for 2 hours i've been trying to find a way to check my results.. useless effort.. hehe..

4.30 AM: i woke up.. in fact, i couldn't really sleep.. i should've not feared anything after i've prayed several times.. ah.... so i got out from my bed and sat down in front of my lappie.. trying to access the studentlink again.. this time was much faster.. but the outcome was still the same.. page error!! ckckckck.. ah.. fed up.. i headed again to my bed.. laid down my body and slept..

7 AM: it's like there's somebody called me up and asked me to check the result.. i quickly turned on my lappie and this time... the results were really out.. i was really relieved.. at least i passed all the subjects... i was surprised by the grades.. they were beyond my expectations.. well, if u have read my previous post Careless, if u were me, what can u expect for the results?? besides that, for my HRM, i once again did stupid thing by leaving one question worths 15 marks empty without any single letter.. but God is always good.. i couldn't ask for more.. it was the best for me.. =)

my FYP? it's amazing.. i got A-.. sob.. sob.. 8 months of effort.. it's paid off.. totally paid off.. again, thx God.. if i looked back to the past when i just started my fyp up to the fyp presentation, i was really blessed..

i could have blinded myself after a piece of metal was thrown up into the sky and it almost hit my eyes.. luckily it was only my fingers that were scarred.. even one of the technician said "you're very lucky, u know.."

my report was once rejected by my supervisor.. but with the help and support of my friends, i could stand up and revise the report and during the presentation i could never imagine that my examiner, A/P Xie Ming, would praise my report writing..

for about 1 month i only slept for 4 hours each day, but yet i never fell sick even until the end of my fyp presentation..

during my fyp presentation, it was even more miraculous.. everything went well.. if u want to know what miracle it was, actually i've written it in my previous post FYP Finale, just read it..

do u think it's all just by chance or coincident?? mm.. i don't think so.. i don't think so.. =)

wew, okay.. it's time to really look for a job.. everything is now clear..

i'm now Andri Setiawan, B.Eng (Hons).

-andri-

.: Dia Milikku :.

2008-06-03T08:03:00.008+08:00

i realize that my blog nowadays is full of song lyrics rather than my stories.. XD

this indo song is quite funny.. the words used in the song are very simple and common.. i don't know how this group could come out with this melodious song..

Semula ku tak tahu
Engkau juga tlah ingin memilikinya
Bukankah ku lebih dulu
Bila engkau temanku
Sebaiknya tak mengganggu

Reff:
Dia untukku
Bukan untukmu
Dia milikku
Bukan milikmu
Pergilah kamu
Jangan kau ganggu
Biarkan aku mendekatinya
Kamu
Tak akan mungkin
Mendapatkannya
Karena dia
Berikan aku
Pertanda cinta
Janganlah kamu banyak bermimpi
Dia untuk aku

Bukankah belum pasti
Kamu juga kan jadi
Dengan dirinya
Oh, dia yang menentukan
Apa yang kan terjadi
Tak usah mengaturku

Reff

Oh...

Kusarankan engkau mundur saja, oh...

Reff

Dia untukku
Dia untukku
Dia milikku
Dia milikku
Lihatlah nanti
Lihatlah saja
Biarkan aku mendekatinya
Kamu
Tak akan mungkin
Mendapatkannya
Karena dia
Berikan aku
Pertanda cinta
Janganlah kamu banyak bermimpi oohh

Dia untuk aku
Bukan
Dia untuk aku

by Yovie & Nuno

-andri-

it is so weird, yet a nice song..

.: Sempurna :.

2008-05-27T00:36:00.005+08:00

lagu ini sebenernya dah lama jg keluarnya.. tp pas balik ke indo, liat iklan Pond's pake lagu ini, bagus jg.. salah satu iklan yg bagus menurut gua..

Kau begitu sempurna
Dimataku kau begitu indah
kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujamu

Disetiap langkahku
Kukan slalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa kubayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Reff:

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna.. Sempurna..

Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Reff

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Reff

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna.. Sempurna..

by Andra & The Backbone

-andri-

.: Again.. :.

2008-05-25T00:30:00.003+08:00

been thinking these days..
what have i done?
as if those past reflections mean nothing
i'm still wasting my life..

feel like punching myself
for being only speechless..
it's not only once.. but twice.. thrice....
how long will i do that..?

forgive me..
i'm not like what people think..
i'm a coward.. indeed a coward..
it happens again.. like 4 years ago..

people live and then die..
60.. 70.. 80 years?
or even only 20.. 30??
we'll never know..

life is so short..
so short...

-andri-
dui bu qi